You should know, that for none of you, this has been done.That said, still words come. Like embers they rise from the flames in my eyes and the fuel is my time. My life shines like a crime against lies, a sunrise to a cold night, to a cold night with the sun on the rise..............................I have been born into a world full of such wonders!.. fast being made mysteries by mystics of all kinds; a world full of half truths which few put together into wholes. Ah, but what beauty the truth is! I seek the truth in all things and to build a world out of that truth. See, I am never content to stand on the shoulders of giants - lest they have lying down all along. There is truth and I can know it! A simple statement, isn't it? Its something most know as children, only to be taught that it is somehow untrue and later, hopefully - to learn again. I guess I'm a little slow, as I would not "learn" and would not forget. That simple knowledge has led to all else. My lack of fear, My simple Joy - that I thrive on challenge and glory in creation. That I accept no original sin and that, in my purity- I am a force of nature. I am as real as thunderstorms across plains and so is anyone who so chooses. Still, few see the world as I do- a joy, a chance, a privilege to be appreciated, earned and enjoyed. Those of us who do seem scattered on our own winds. Time and odds being against any such two meeting it is a pleasent fact that we are at least easy to find. I have, merely to look and see who stands alone in this world of those who bow to anything as long as they can bow together, to even up the odds of meeting. I'm not here for relationships - as in mutual destruction and slavery. I'm here to build relationships - as in gaining and trading knowledge, joys and insight to the extent that they can be shared and with those that know the meaning of such things. I'm here to love those who deserve it and love them hard, because we never come back to a single moment past. If this sounds strange, well - normalcy is no longer a virtue. For those who want the illusion of safety in normalcy - they can look around, they'll find it. Just not here - I'm not into illusions, myself. There is a world that Can Be. It's beautiful and true. It's a world only ever dreamed of by most, a world that they sigh and let pass with every hollow moment of their lives - a world I am not content to merely dream of. There is a world I will make real. I have been told that truth isn't what it used to be - that things fall apart. Well, Entropy isn't what it used to be, either.:) Life is on my side, and I'll take that over time anyday.:)
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So Much More Than You Ever Wanted To Know.I'm going to warn you now, This is full of things from other profiles and is not "need to know" info. Then again..what is?Appearance: height: 5’ 9†(175.3 cms) eyes: Hazel hair: Dark brown body type: Slender body art: None best feature: Synaptic activity exercise habits: Exercise 3-4 times per week daily diet: Keep it healthy smoke: No Way drink: Social drinker, maybe one or two job: Self-Employed my place: Live alone, Live with pets have kids: None want kids: Someday how many: 2 ? pets: I have: Cats, Reptiles, Exotic pets, I don't have, but like: Dogs, Fish, Horses ,etc Birth: Somewhere in Louisanna. No, I'm not sure where. Yes, I know thats odd. No, it doesn't bother me. I think a person isn't totally born yet until they start thinking, and not totally alive once they stop.I don't remember louisanna or my early childhood hence I think that though my body may have been born there my mind was born in Mississippi.-and that, ladies and gentlemen, was the kind of birth analogous to what a doctor would describe as having had "complications". Growing up there I learned how to live life alive by watching how people "live" life dying. I found my own truth while swimming a sea of lies and broken glass. Its said that children need good role models. I think really bad ones work also. If you can see whats at the core of all the evil around you its not too big a step to do the opposite. I have found .....some trains were only meant to go- where no tracks have been laid. I left "home" as soon as I could. Perhaps I didn't know where I was going, but I knew if I followed that which led me to freedom - I'm home everywhere.Ethnic and cultural background: Ethnic? What does that mean today? My old and much loved Dictionary defines "ethnic" as "of nations or groups neither christain nor jewish; heathen." I don't know if that's correct anymore..but I like that ,-"Heathen".Thats me - With a Capital H. Culture? I wish I could claim some proud, magnificent cultural background. In all honesty, it's much closer to starnesville than Atlantis. A grass covered hill of dirt built buy native americans is the most prominent landmark.Descibing it nicely I would have to say its a nowhere, backwater, redneck, trailer trash, blackhole -a real low place like home (to quote the sneakerpimps). I'm proud I'm.. from there- far, far, far -From there. Every time I pass through, they're all fatter, dumber, more depressed and a bit less sane.They say "I should visit more often", they say , "Don't be a stranger!". I was never more than visiting. I will always be a stranger there.Places I've lived and traveled:There is a difference between tourists and explorers.Where ever they are, tourists fantasize being, explorers choose to be. I want to explore everywhere and tour nowhere.Truth is found beneath the fabric of all places.Every hot spot has a back door! Is it really either-or? Everywhere we are is a journey to somewhere -not necessarily geographic. I think those moments in sharp relief against the gray of everyday are due to the locality of neither place nor time but of our own singular ability to glimpse the axioms within all place, all time. I want to be ever-traveling and ever-living! I've been to Canada! (this year!) all over the southeast, up the east coast, down the appalachians, to mexico (not on a "girls gone stupid" trip either!) ..and last year I had been speaking with a poet ,a native of Chicago who told me of the beauty and pure vibrancy there. I had to see for myself! Soon after I was watching the sun come up from the tip of navy pier-Chicago, and lived intensly, sleeping in subways and bus stations in my nice shiny suit to save cash. I even napped in an empty fountain outside the chicago museum of art- the grand one, in the hawthorn courtyard no one dares venture in.Almost no-one.Its curves were a cold bed ,making the morning sun shimmering across the crystal skyscapers and my plans for adventure a sirens call not to be ignored. I slept little and saw much -experiencing as much as I could and I'm still hungry. People I know stared at me when I came back.They said,"you went to chicago ..alone.?!" - I had broken the taboo of enjoying yourself, by yourself and for yourself. I stared back. They said,"That is something you would do, isnt it?" I agreed. :) update: im planning on going to londan and else where in europe next year, more to see a friend than the location, hopefully I'll find something interesting... update: Just returned from a trip to Montreal instead of Londan! It was beautiful! If you'd like to know more - ASK.:) Spiritual Life: I call the effects a persons life choices have on all things their "soul". Thats as close to agreeing with faith/religion as I come. I have no shame, no respect for faith, fear of gods, or wish for eternal life after death. I'd rather spend all of a meaningless eternity in hell that waste one life on earth, and if the devil fell for the sake of pride, hell - here I come.I'd rather fall for pride than rise for shame. I think the only true hell is truth seen to late. I wasted to many years of my life before I realized all faith was based on fear and now every year that passes I find myself angrier with the lies I was told. Faith is a disease of the mind spreading like wildfire through the world today only by our default. It is a true enemy of mankind, a parasite-used by those who would emulate its attributes. Those who want "grace" soil the word with their desire for the unearned. Yes, organized religion practitioners find me rather caustic to their peace of mind. Im not a hedonist-I seek only the truth. The joy of reality, not escapism. I believe in the mind,not its negation-constant choice-not original sin I digress - The "Spirit" of something doesn't have to mean faith. The first Def. in my dictionary is "the life principal". By that one, mine is rich, indeed! Schooling: Every school I've attended since forth grade is closed now.I saw private christain schools to their graves.I actually prefer private education though. I have quite alot of school plans left to go but first things first, you know.Fitness: What do I do to stay in shape? Much! -But Its about what you do also. I dont accept a sedentary life-style. I do work my muscles and my mind at a job I love. I dont poison myself with lots of processed/"fast"/junk food. I do eat lots of fruits, veggies,grains and light meats. I dont drink substantial amounts of alcohol. I do drink Alot of juice and water. I dont accept dependence on drugs of any kind. I do accept dependence on sunshine, fresh air and sleep. I dont accept less than my best, my dreams. I do accept that I am worth whatever it takes of me to achieve them. As to your second question- I am a physical being and I am important to myself.- Hence ,could the answer be other than Yes? Not for me.
