If you realize that you can lose the one you love, then you have a greater appreciation of what you have. Think how lucky you are to have someone to love you. It doesn't make you a bad person to want someone else's love, even if they dont love you. but, to truly love someone, you must let them be free. It is selfish to blame them for your feelings. i have learned all of this in the past two months. i really think that im single for a reason but the way it happened was a nightmare. i dont believe i deserved what had happened but i know it was my fault. Im happy to be back on my feet and be doing so much better. I love my life, I love my friends and most of all i LOVE my family. My family is everything to me and i would do ANYTHING for them. No matter what it is. My best Friends,My Mommy, shanny, Tyler, Denyse, Jaycee and Ashlee...They are the best. i would't trade them for anyone in the entire world. each of them have something special to me. My mom is my hero. she is the strongest person i know and has a huge heart. she would go out of her way for anyone and try to help anyone. i look up to her so much. i love my mom. My sister is my best friend. We get into fights sometimes but they never last long. even though were 4 years apart. Our personality's match up so perfectly. I can tell her antything. I love her very much! Tyler and i have so much history. in the past four years i have learned so much about him and he has learned so much about me. i would never hold anything against him or lie to him. I trust him. I met denyse in the 7th grade and i hated her for no reason.. i was a bitch and i am so happy were friends now. the best of friends. I love this girl so much. i will always be here for her. i will never ever hide anything from this girl. i value her friendship so much. we will be best friend forever. And Jaycee. She is my pride and joy. my little sister and best friend. I could write a book about this girl and i love her more than anything. She will never let me down. She helps me with all of my problems and ALWAYS knows what to tell me. Every word that comes out of her mouth makes sense to me. i love her.Ashlee is my girl. we have a funny ass story behind us. Im so happy we dont hate eachother. She had me scared for a minute cuz she didnt like me. Im so happy i know this girl. She has a big heart and does so much for me. She's hillarious and love to be around her. I make bad choices so i can learn from them and i know whats right and i know whats wrong. i dont listen to what people tell me to do because i feel like i should live my life the way i want to live it. i had a bad childhood and i learned from it. i hate not being trusted it really bothers me and i dont know why since i have trust issues. i dont feel like i can ever trust a guy with my heart again. i dont want to ever be hurt like that again. If im a bitch for that then thats fine. ill never be somebody that im not. I love who i am am i would want nothing different.