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About Me

So I've been pretty hard on myself lately. I'm still no where near the person I should be, and I know a lot of people say that, but I really, really, really mean it. I'm working on it. 'Course I feel I always say that.
I'd like to entice you (yeah you) that I'm some witty and fun person by using some quirky and memorable anecdote or phrase, but I'm just not feeling it. I feel more like Heath Ledger on A Knight's Tale when he's forced to blurt out "Uh ... your breasts"
I'm very dorkish and terrible at speaking any form of spoken language. I'd like to think I has teh smarts, but only time will tell, ah s'pose.
I guess it's probably important to put somewhere on here that I'm the creator of the Ethos Trading Card Game (as seen at SpoCon, and on underfiremedia.com). I actually got to autograph some decks - something I wasn't really expecting to ever do. And as the creator of said card game, I've been able to travel to several cities to different comic and gaming conventions, and meet the most interesting people. It's been one heck of a ride so far, and I enjoy every minute I'm there.
Not in the running
But this rain is nothing new to me anyway
I see my reflection
No where near who I should be
The spirit is willing
But the anchors of my flesh still hold me down
With every distraction
I lose more of who I should be
Had many times to try
Before I realized
The flaws in my design
May have led me to ask why
Why'd you make me so weak?
I've tried but I'm incomplete
Is this all there is?
All there is to me?
How many chances
At redeption do I think I'll ever get?
Keep changing my rhythms
For a shot at something more
Miracles happen
So why do I feel like I've been left behind?
It's still in my nature
To look for what I can't find
Is this all there is?
Is this all there is to me?
I should be all better now
This is all there is to me
I can pick myself up again
Is this all there is?
I hope that one day I'll make a stand
But right now
This is all there is to me
No matter how I dream
I will never be good and pray
'Cause right now this is all there is to me
Yeah right now
This is all there is to me
"With Every Intention" by BoySetsFire

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I honestly don't know anymore. I love meeting new people, but I usually blow it somewhere down the line.

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay
It's okay
It's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are all crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning grey

"Your Guardian Angel" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

My Blog

Mist

Don't know why, but lately it's been happening a lot more frequent than usual: I don't feel I belong in this world. It bores me, it seldom recognizes my existance, and it just feels fake. Not like a d...
Posted by on Thu, 23 Jul 2009 23:25:00 GMT

Old Lives

So lately I've just been thinking of the way I am, and the way I use to be ... and I realize that I haven't really changed at all. I brood a bit more, but I'd like to think of it as just being emotion...
Posted by on Sat, 27 Jun 2009 23:23:00 GMT

Cookies and Milk

So the only real thing I ever cared about in this world is gone, sometime within the hour I'm typing this, not exactly sure the time. People might think I'm strange for loving a cat, yet others might ...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Mar 2009 18:32:00 GMT

Eh

Well I'm about done with my first full day back home from Canada, and I've got to say it was great. Overall, the more I think about how well the Ethos Demo went, the more I realize it was a huge succe...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Feb 2009 19:24:00 GMT

Borrrrrred

The paper these days warn the kids of myspace to keep their profiles private. I've always hated private profiles since that means you have to become a friend before you can get to know someone. But si...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Jan 2009 22:08:00 GMT

>ramble<

I forget too much. I often just continue forward without much regard to the past. Heck, I won't remember anything enough to miss it.Living in the moment is a strange feeling. Can't really look behind ...
Posted by on Mon, 08 Dec 2008 22:31:00 GMT

Ethos TCG

So after a long process, I finally got the cards I ordered from Digital Lizard. I don't blame them at all for the delay, especially since the problems were because of a former employee of their's and ...
Posted by on Wed, 26 Nov 2008 05:16:00 GMT

At the end of my life, I ...

You know, I've figured out how to have a lasting and meaningful relationship, and how to be the perfect companion to someone. Funny thing is, I don't know anyone willing to do that, for me or for othe...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Sep 2008 05:59:00 GMT

Celtic Story

So, here's my new story in a nutshell: In the far future of a land called Eriu, the Milesians (a humanoid race) are almost extinct, holding only six cities protected by thick walls. The outside world ...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:30:00 GMT

Kingdom of Heaven

I just finished watching Kingdom of Heaven again, and I must say that I do believe it's my all-time favorite movie. For those that haven't seen it, it's about a man who's lost in dispair after his wi...
Posted by on Sun, 31 Aug 2008 22:57:00 GMT