Please accept my sincere apologies if you used to be on this friends list and have found that you are no longer there. This profile was maintained by another person for a couple of weeks, and was altered considerably in that time. By the time I regained entry, the friends list and all mail had been deleted. Thank you all for your patience, and please re-send your friend requests. I would love to continue networking with you for the good of our youth and communities.
~ISIS.
They say you have to hit rock bottom before you can think about trying to claw your way up and out. I would have thought that death was about as 'rock bottom' as it gets, but Nikki Sixx obviously didn't.
The way I heard the story, he (temporarily) died from an overdose, woke up in the hospital, walked out of the hospital, went outside and smoked a cigarette, went home, changed the message on his answering machine - and took another dose. It's beyond anything I can comprehend to reflect on how blank a person would have to feel on the inside to run that sequence of events so rapidly.
The journals of those times, now published in book form as The Heroin Diaries , might be a year in the life of a shattered rock star - but thankfully, they weren't the final chapter. It might be a shocking read, and it might even be offensive at times, but it's also a glimmer of hope that even when you're that far down there's still a chance to make it back.
[Nikki] describes the pain: "I was in my closet with my grandfather's gun pointed at the door, needles and dirty spoons on the floor... terrified because people had slid under my front door like vapor and were in the house and were coming to get me."
After more than 30 years of abusing drugs, Sixx realized he needed rehab. "I did a Google search," he says. "I was desperate to find a place."
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Sixx checked into an Arizona rehab facility in 2001, and one morning, after a bout of insomnia, he had an epiphany. "After seven days of waking up at 4, I snuck out of my room," he says. "I hit my knees and said, 'I don't know if anybody's up there, but I give up. If you just remove this from me, I will do something good with my life. I can't do this anymore.' "
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"Something Good"
Proceeds from the sale of this book will go to Covenant House California. See this book and cd on Amazon . Release Date: September 18, 2007.
COVENANT HOUSE CALIFORNIA is a non-profit organization that provides hope to homeless and at-risk youth (ages 18-21) and continually gives them a chance to change their lives. Since they began in 1988, they have grown to become a model of comprehensive services with critically needed programs in Los Angeles and Oakland East Bay area in California. For more than 12,000 youth each year, these services include street outreach, shelter, transitional living, health care, HIV/AIDS education, employment assistance, substance abuse counseling, psychological and psychiatric services, and a wide range of cultural and recreational activities.
Gloria
She had dreams of becoming an actress when she came here. She thought it would be easy. At least that’s the way they had made it look on TV, but Gloria, a 20 year old Covenant House resident soon found out that “making it†was more than just hopping a bus and coming to Hollywood. What Gloria found instead was that it was tougher to be on her own than she had anticipated. “I didn’t think things through†she says now. With no place to go, she was soon on the streets.
“I had only fifty bucks in my wallet when I came out here. I didn’t know what to do.†Gloria spent a week on the streets. She spent nights at a bus station , then at a hospital waiting room. When asked what it was like, she replies simply,
“It’s cold and lonely.â€
