My name is Ryeder.
Im a fucking freak.
I wonder everyday why i have any friends.
I wonder everyday if we'll spread out through high school
Im a fucking creep.
Im a fucking loser.
Im a fucking perv.
Fuck, im just my self. an obsesive psychotic insecure loser, whos obbsesd with corpses, death and killing.
School starts now, and i couldn't be more terrified, usually i don't get this feeling, not at all, but just the transition of everything makes me horrified, i can't imagine my life when im out of school, i can't even think about meeting new people again, i hate knowing that people who don't know me are judging me all the time, in all reality, this is a true fear of mine, meeting new people, im fine embarrising myself infront of friends, but i have no idea what im doing, i feel like i'll embareess myself beyond beleif, i'll know my true friends will get me through this bullshit feeling i get, and im sure two weeks into to school it'll be over, but to those people who actaully give a fuck about my life and my "feelings" will help, and that's all, if you don't like my life, then get off my fucking myspace, if you don't like what i like, then go fucking shoot yourself, don't come complaning to me about me liking death and killing, really your life sucks go fucking kill yourself right now.
