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[.::kill jena::.]

Love Heals Scars Love Left

About Me

About
me

Two people in one,
One happy, one sad;
Two sides of me,
One mad and one glad.

There's only one side,
I try to let show;
My feelings inside,
The others don't know.

I'm two people in one,
As strange as that sounds;
The real me inside,
No one has found.

write your thoughts

"The heat is going into my eyes and i can't see!" -BAMF(you know who you are)

My Interests

art::big.words::biting::black.eyeliner::boxer.briefs::burnin g.things::charcoal::cold.sheets::drug.free.bitches::eating:: family::friends::foreign.films.with.subtitles::guitar::h2o:: late.night.pillow.fights::lowrise.socks::lying.in.the.dark:: making.out.in.heavy.rain::messy.black.hair::metalhardcore::m usic::my.puppy::photography::poetry::post-its::random.though ts::reading::shows::silent.appreciation::singing.in.the.show er::sketching::soft.falling.snow::stary.nights::tattoos.and. piercings::text.messaging::vincent.van.gough::well.thought.c ompliments::writing::

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V o l c a n i c
P h o t o g r a p h y

I'd like to meet:



Masked
derisions

A room of two-way mirrors is my fate,
With strangers looking at me,
disecting my body and mind
With their cold eyes,
And even colder words.
Forced to deal with their cynical
views of those that surround me.
They entrap me in their webs of self consciousness.

"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me..."

Music:


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Music

Here are just a few of my favorite bands...

A Perfect Circle. A Static Lullaby. The Agony Scene. Air. The Album Leaf. Alexisonfire. Anberlin. Animal Hospital. The Anniversary. Atreyu. At The Drive-In. The Aquabats. Armor For Sleep. As I Lay Dying. Atmostphere. Avenged Sevenfold. Badly Drawn Boy. Bane. Bear Vs. Shark. The Beatles. The Beautiful Mistake. Beloved. Bjork. Black Dahlia Murder. Black Eyed Peas. The Bled. Bleeding Through. Blindside. Blonde Red Head. Blondie. Blood Has Been Shed. Boy Sets Fire. Botch. Breaking Benjamin. Bree Sharp. Bright Eyes. The Brobecks. The Bronx. Brown Eyed Deception. Brujeria. Bullet Train To Vegas. Burn The Priest. Cake. Camera Obscura. The Cars. Johnny Cash. The Casket Lottery. Cave In. Chaldeon. Ray Charles. Children Of Bodem. Chimara. Circa Survive. City And Colour. City Sleeps. Coheed And Cambria. Coldplay. Copeland. Converge. Creedence Clearwater Revival. The Cure. Curl Up And Die. Cursive. Miles Davis. Dead Poetic. Death Cab For Cutie. The Decemberists. Deftones. Denali. Depeche Mode. Die Romantik. Ani Difranco. Dillenger Escape Plan. Dimmu Borgir. The Ditty Bops. Snoop Dogg. Dream Theater. Dredg. Duran Duran. The Early November. Eighteen Visions. Eisley. El Torro. Elefant. Elliott. Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton. Emmure. Engine Down. Error. Everytime I Die. Explosions In The Sky. The Eyeliners. The Faint. Fall Out Boy. Far. Fear Before The March Of Flames. Fighting Jacks. Fire Theft. Five Minute Ride. Fix Bayonets. Foo Fighters. Form of Rocket. The Fray. From Autumn To Ashes. Frou Frou. Further Seems Forever. Garbage. Gaza. The Giraffes. Glassjaw. The Good Life. Gratitude. Great Lake Swimmers. Gym Class Heros. Emily Haines. Haste The Day. Head Automatica. Jolie Holland. Hopesfall. Hot Hot Heat. Hot Rod Circut. The Hush Sound. I Am Electric. Ima Robot. Iron And Wine. Isis. It Dies Today. Jacks Mannequin. Jimmy Eat World. Billy Joel. Elton John. Journey. The Juliana Theory. Karate. Keane. Kid Brother Collective. Kid Gorgeous. The Killers. Killswitch Engage. Kissing Tigers. Knapsack. Lamb Of God. Cyndi Lauper. Low. Mae. The Mars Volta. Men Without Hats. MeWithoutYou. The Microphones. Minus The Bear. Mock Orange. Modest Mouse. Mogwai. Murder By Death. Muse. My Chemical Romance. New End Original. The New Transit Direction. No Doubt. No Knife. Noise Ratchet. Norma Jean. Oingo Boingo. One Line Drawing. Open Hand. Opeth. Panic! At The Disco. Paramore. Pearl Jam. Pedro The Lion. Pictures Can Tell. Pinback. Planes Mistaken For Stars. Poisin The Well. The Police. Portishead. Portugal The Man. The Postal Service. Pretty Girls Make Graves. The Promise Ring. Pushing Up Daisies. Queens Of The Stone Age. Radiohead. Rage Against The Machine. The Ramones. Recover. Red House Painters. Refused. Reggie And The Full Effect. Rilo Kiley. Rise Against. The Rocket Summer. Rocky Votolato. Rush. Frank Sanatra. Saves The Day. Sense Field. The Shins. Sikth. Simple Minds. Silverstien. Single File. Small Brown Bike. Smashing Pumpkins. Elliott Smith. Snow Patrol. Spandau Ballet. Sparta. Spoon. The Stiletto Formal. Sting. The Streets. The Strokes. Suffokate. Sunny Day Real Estate. Joel Taylor. TEGAN & SARA. These Arms are Snakes. Thrice. Thursday. Tool. Underoath. Undying. Unearth. The Unicorns. Van Halen. Vaux. Willem Dafoe. Stevie Wonder. Pete Yorn. Yeah Yeah Yeah's. Your Enemy's Friend. Zao. Zwan.

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Movies:

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Movies
Movies consume my life!!
50 First Dates. 40 Year Old Virgin. 10 Things I Hate About You. 300. 3:10 to Yuma. 25th Hour. 28 Days. 28 Days Later. 28 Weeks Later. 12 Monkeys. A Bronx Tale. A History Of Violence. A Knights Tale. A Love Song For Bobby Long. Abandon. Accepted. Across The Universe. Alien. Almost Famous. Amelie. American Beauty. American History X. American Psycho. Anchorman. A Series Of Unfortunate Events. Batman Begins. Be Cool. Beetle Juice. Benny and Joon. Big Daddy. Big Fish. The Big Lebowski. Billy Madison. Bio-Dome. Blood Diamond. Blow. Boondock Saints. The Breakfast Club. Breakfast On Pluto. Brick. Brokeback Mountain. The Butterfly Effect. Center Stage. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory. Chumscrubber. City Of God. Clerks. Clerks 2. Cold Mountain. Collateral. Confessions Of An American Girl. The Constant Gardener. Crank. Crash. Dancer In The Dark. Daywatch. The Dead Girl. Death Proof. Death To Smoochy. The Departed. Detroit Rock City. Dodgeball. Dogma. Domino. Donnie Darko. Easy. Edward Scissorhands. Empire Records. Employee Of The Month. Encino Man. Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind. Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas. Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Fight Club. Finding Nemo. Finding Neverland. Formula 51. Four Brothers. Four Feathers. Fracture. Frailty. From Hell. Gangs Of New York. Garden State. Girl, Interrupted. Grandma's Boy. Green Street Hooligans. Goonies. Half Nelson. Hannible. Happy Gilmore. Harry Potter Films. Heat. The Holiday. Hollywoodland. The Hot Chick. House Of Sand And Fog. I Am Legend. I Am Sam. I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Lary. Illusionist. In The Army Now. Interview With A Vampire. The Invisible. The Island. Itchi The Killer.The Jacket. Jarhead. JUNO. Jury Duty. Kill Bill Volumes 1&2. King Kong. King Of The Ants. Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. Knocked Up. Lady In The Water. Lady In White. Lars And The Real Girl. The Last Kiss. The Last Man On Earth. The Life Aquatic. Little Miss Sunshine. Live Free Or Die Hard. Lords Of Dogtown. Lord Of The Rings Trilogy. Lord Of War. Lost In Translation. Love Me If You Dare. Lucky Number Slevin. Mean Girls. Momento. Monster's Ball. Mr. Deeds. Music From Another Room. Napolean Dynamite. The Notebook. One Hour Photo. Orange County. The Patriot. Pet Cemetary. Phone Booth. Pirates Of The Carribean. Pretty In Pink. Prey On Rock And Roll. Raising Arizona. Red Dragon. Reservoir Dogs. The Ringer. Saved. Saw 1&2. School Of Rock. The Secret Window. Silence Of The Lambs. Sin City. Sixteen Candles. SLC Punk. Son In Law. Spanglish. St. Elmo's Fire. Team America: World Police. This Is Spinal Tap. Thumbsucker. Trainspotting. United States Of Leland. V For Vendetta. The Village. Walk The Line. Wedding Crashers. The Wedding Singer. What's Eating Gilbert Grape...yeah that is it for now I might add some later so until then...

Television:

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Television

For the little tv I watch these shows are good..

Supernatural!! Heroes!! Project Runway, America's Next Top Model, Scrubs, Lost, Six Feet Under, The O.C., South Park, The Simpsons, Family Guy, Chapelle Show, Nip/tuck, That 70's Show, Charmed, Friends, yeah I can't think of anymore right now.

Books:

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Literature

I recommend these...

Twilight, New moon, Stardust, Neverwhere, American Gods, Smoke And Mirrors, Coraline, pretty much anything written by Neil Gaiman (best author ever), 1984, I Am Legend. The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things, House Of Leaves, Everyday Psychokillers: A History For Girls, All of Henry Rollins' books, Invisible Monsters, Portrait Of Dorian Gray, The Five People You Meet In Heaven, Tuesdays With Morrie, Dave Peltzer's books, Life Of Pi, The DaVinci Code, Angels And Demons, The Bean Trees, All of Shakespeare, Iceberg Hermit, All Harry Potter Books, Uglies, Pretties, Specials, Vampirates, Tithe, Valiant, Ironside, Vampire Academy, Burned Alive, A child Called It, The Lost Boy, Secret Journal Of Brett Colton, Vampire Kisses series, Count of Monte Cristo, The Memory Keeper's Daughter ... there are lots.

Heroes:

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My Blog

the struggle

I have this thought in my head that keeps resurfacing...day by dayhour by hourminute by minutesecond by secondUntil its taken over all of my thoughtsConsuming meTrying so hard to take over my body as ...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 12:14:00 PST

untitled

i want this so badlybut every time it seems like this could be something amazingit feels like you're pulling awaymaybe its because you don't want thismaybe its because you know you could do so much be...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 26 Nov 2007 09:14:00 PST

everyone feels this from time to time

She has the love of her family.She has the love of her friends.She has all the love she could ever want,Yet she is still alone, Shut off from the world. Isolated in a court of fear.She's scared t...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Wed, 28 Jun 2006 06:59:00 PST

**** ****

i watch as the moonlight sends a chill down your spineas we are encircled in darknessmay our souls of black combinea violent embracea ghoulish caresswhile i gaze into your eyesi see your heart is burn...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 05:14:00 PST

THE ANNOYING HARDCORE DUDE THAT GOES TOO FAR

I AM HARDCORE! I will windmill kick you in the faceEVERYBODY BACK UP, make a circle,let's DESTROYthisplace! The lights are low,AND I'M ABOUT TOGO... OFF! Here comes the BREAKdown...KAR-A-TE CHOP!...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Sun, 19 Feb 2006 12:32:00 PST

???

Sprawled upon the cold, soft sheetsglistening streams of tears run down my face.As I stare blindly at the ceiling, unable to blink,unable to move.I attempt to sit up... but my hopelessness has left me...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 13 Feb 2006 04:41:00 PST

Nightmare

Last night as I layed down to sleepI tryed to thinkOf the perfect words to expressWhat I feel about you and me.Last night, just as I closed my eyesThe doors openedAnd a flood entered my mind.Of all th...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Wed, 26 Oct 2005 09:16:00 PST

Unattainable You

All I want, is all I need,All I need is nothing I can have.To see to bleed,to feel, to know.All I can have are your words,Your promises of a futureThat we can never have.To see your face,simply hold y...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 26 Sep 2005 08:49:00 PST

Atrophy Embodied

I hate this feeling.  This feeling of being somewhere in between.  Like existing but not to the full extent.  Like you could light yourself on fire in the middle of a crowded room and n...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

To a friend

Friendship is a strange thing. We find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives... things we don't even share with the families who raised us. But what is a friend? A confidant?...
Posted by [.::kill jena::.] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST