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Karen

All the more shocking because it's true...

About Me


Confusion in her eyes that says it all.
She's lost control.
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by.
She's lost control.
And she gave away the secrets of her past.
And said I've lost control again.
And a voice that told her when and where to act.
She said I've lost control again.
And she turned around and took me by the hand and said.
I've lost control again.
And how I'll never know just why or understand.
She said I've lost control again.
And she screamed out kicking on her side and said,
I've lost control again.
And seized up on the floor, I thought she'd die.
She said I've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
Well I had to 'phone her friend to state my case.
And say she's lost control again.
And she showed up all the errors and mistakes.
And said I've lost control again.
But she expressed herself in many different ways,
Until she lost control again.
And walked upon the edge of no escape.
And laughed I've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control...
***I AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC***IF YOU THINK YOU'RE TOO COOL FOR ME, THAT MEANS YOU PROBABLY ARE***I ONCE LOVED AND LOST SOMEONE WHO NEVER LOVED AT ALL***I BELIEVE THE DAY I STOP BEING SILLY IS THE DAY I START GROWING OLD***HAPPINESS IS WHEN WHAT YOU THINK, WHAT YOU SAY, AND WHAT YOU DO ARE IN PERFECT HARMONY***THERE'S A MILLION DIFFERENT WAYS TO BE NORMAL, BUT ONLY ONE WAY TO BE FREE***BEING WITH THE WRONG PERSON SCARES ME MORE THAN BEING ALONE***INSPITE OF ITS HORRIBLE REPUTATION, I STILL LOVE THE SUN***ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD CANNOT BUY YOU INTERGRITY, AND WITHOUT INTEGRITY YOU HAVE NOTHING AT ALL***A DAY AT THE BEACH OR A MIDNIGHT RUN IS ALL THE THERAPY I'LL EVER NEED**I BELIEVE EVERYONE POSSESSES AT LEAST ONE QUALITY THAT MAKES THEM BEAUTIFUL***I WILL NEVER BEG FOR YOUR AFFECTION, AND THAT JUST MIGHT MAKE YOU LOVE ME***NOBODY KNOWS HEARTACHE LIKE PATSY CLINE***I CRAVE ADVENTURE AND EXCITEMENT, SO I COULD NEVER BE A JEDI***I AM HOPELESSLY OBSESSED WITH THE COLOR RED***I HAVE AN AMAZING FAMILY WHICH I CHERISH DEARLY***LIFE IS BUT A DREAM***I HAVE AN INCREDIBLY HEALTHY APPETTITE***I'VE SUNG "FEVER" AT KARAOKE MORE TIMES THAN YOU***I HATE ASSHOLES, BUT I'VE BEEN KNOWN TO BE ONE AT TIMES***A PEANUT IS NEITHER A PEA NOR A NUT***MY HEART IS SO BIG SOMETIMES IT REALLY HURTS***IF ANYONE EVER TOLD YOU I'M AN ALCHOHOLIC, THEY'RE LYING***BELIEVE NOTHING OF WHAT YOU HEAR, AND ONLY HALF OF WHAT YOU SEE***THE TRUTH ONLY HURTS IF YOU'RE IN DENIAL***SANITY IS DEFINITELY OVERRATED***I CAN'T KEEP A SECRET, BUT PLEASE TELL ME ANYWAY***LOVE YOURSELF AND YOU WILL HAVE THE WORLD AT YOUR FEET***I JUST GOTTA STOP TAKING LIFE SO SERIOUSLY***
“Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong, and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. Damn, there's nothing like that, is there? No shit. I've been there. I mean, I wrote this. And you have been, too. Because you're nodding your head, I can see you...”
-Henry Rollins

Oh, when i was in love with you,
Then I was clean and brave
And miles around the wonder grew
How well did I behave.
And now the fancy passes by,
And nothing will remain,
And miles around they’ll say that I
Am quite myself again.
-A.E. Housman
I undressed you with my eyes I have
Maybe even raped you
In a dark and eerie corner of my mind
I tucked you there
And touched you in a dream last night
Pushed you aside when you entered
My thoughts at the wrong time
I have sat up upon your lap and
Saddled my thighs around your hips like ropes
I rode you on a chair and in the shower
And all the while I clung heavy to your back
My desire deeply harnessed in your spine
I'm riding recklessly though a thick and humid
Jungle growing anxious with the deep and primal
Yearning that stirs
Deeply pulsing up toward the surface
Like sap rising or honey or tar
It's the silence in people that I love about you
I wanna steal it and make it mine
I want you to steal it back
I want us to keep stealing from each other
Until we forget who's got it
And never have to talk together
Just be on the same street at the same time
And listen...

My Interests



Fire apple red... Cadillacs... Dirty Martinis... coffee&cigarettes... McEscher... Rainfall... Sake... Coop... Agatha Christie... liquid eye-liner... Henry Rollins... SEX... inspiration... mindless chatter... red satin sheets... mohawks... guinness and cider... sarcasm... The Turtles "So Happy Together"... red candles... onyx... lazy Sundays... Patsy Cline... red tulips... cat eyes... The Little Mermaid... honesty and truth... Sushi... blood-red lips... rose-quartz... blue velvet... fishnets... watching the sunrise... Wild Turkey... long, dark eyelashes... Crab legs... the beach at night... DocMartens... Romanticism... Dolce&Gabbanna... my libido... The Doors... kittens... beauty... cheap wine... Julie Newmar... LOUD music... Star Wars... Oldies... ruby-red slippers... Camus... Parliaments... prosperity...New York City... unconditional love... Loyalty... Cannabis Sativa... Jolene, because you never get to find out whether or not she took her man...

Music:

Patsy Cline*White Zombie*Bobby Darin*Tool*Sheer Terror*Frank and Nancy*The Beatles*Roy Orbison*The Doors*Madonna*The Specials*Peggy Lee*The Ramones*The Cramps*Selena*Peaches*Leonard Cohen*Tricky*Squirrel Nut Zippers*Mr.Bungle*Dusty Springfield*Nouvelle Vague*Edith Piaff*Blondie*Bongwater*Neil Diamond*Tori Amos*Johnny Cash*Leonard Cohen*Jr. Brown*Tricky*Angelo Badalamenti*Elvis*Buddy Holly*Chuck Berry*Dance Hall Crashers*Three Degrees*Regina Spektor*Hank Williams III*Fiona Apple*The Reverend Horton Heat*Dolly Parton*Dean Martin*Black Flag*Mariah Carey(Yes!!! I said it!!!)*The Amazing Royal Crowns*Misfits...and every cheesy love song ever made. There's so much good music in this world it just makes me wanna cry tears of joy...

Movies:


**Natural Born Killers**
**Jackie Brown**
**The Darjeeling Limited**
**Hotel Chevalier**
**A Nightmare on Elm Street**
**Fight Club**
**The Village**
**Vanilla Sky**
**Sin City**
**Four Rooms**
**True Romance**
**Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind**
**Dogma**
**Dazed and Confused**
**Curdled**
**Angel Heart**
**Pulp Fiction**
**Clerks I&II**
**The Royal Tenenbaums**
**Lost Highway**
**Bottle Rocket**
**From Dusk Till Dawn**
**Reservoir Dogs**
**Kill Bill**
**Last Man Standing**
**13 Going on 30**
**Desperado**
**Mulholland Drive**
**Deathproof**
**Ghost World**
**Star Wars**
**Swingers**
**The Holiday**
**Wild at Heart**
**London**
**Pump Up the Volume**
**Heathers**
**Blue Velvet**
**Lost In Translation**
**Snatch**
**V for Vendetta**
**Logan's Run**
**The Little Mermaid**
**The Big Lebowski**
**Terminator**
**The Descent**
**Twin Peaks:Fire Walk With Me**
**Barfly**
**Lady In the Water**
**Where the Buffalo Roam**
**Kiss Kiss Bang Bang**

Television:



Twilight Zone, Outer Limits, Night Visions, Star Trek:Deep Space Nine, Law and Order:Criminal Intent, News Radio, Tales From the Darkside, Kids in the Hall, Northern Exposure, Rescue Me, Sex and the City, Dexter, Scrubs, blah, blah, blah...why do people that claim not to watch television always think they're better than you for it? I can't stand pretentious assholes. Yes, I'm talking to YOU...

Books:

My Life With and Without Jim Morrison by Patricia Kennealy, The Sleeping Beauty Chronicles by Anne Rice, Art To Choke Hearts and anything by Henry Rollins, Acid Dreams, The Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley, most Stephen King and H.P. Lovecraft books, everything by Agatha Christie, Albert Camus, Sylvia Plath, I used to read so much more when I was younger...

Heroes:

“When you are content to be simply yourself and you don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you.” -Lao Tzu
“Believe that with your feelings and your work you are taking part in the greatest; the more strongly you cultivate this belief, the more will reality and the world go forth from it.” -Rainer Maria Rilke
“Every person who knows how to read has it in their power to magnify themselves, to multiply the ways in which they exist, to make life full, significant, and interesting. ” -Aldous Huxley
“Sex is as important as eating or drinking and we ought to allow the one appetite to be satisfied with as little restraint or false modesty as the other.” -Marquis De Sade
“Here is the rule to remember in the future, When anything tempts you to be bitter: not, ''This is a misfortune'' but ''To bear this worthily is good fortune.''” -Marcus Aurelius
“Kiss me and you will see how important I am.” -Sylvia Plath
“Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must live.” -Charles Bukowski
"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle." -Anais Nin
"In the midst of winter, I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer." -Albert Camus
"I don't consider myself a pessimist. I think of a pessimist as someone who is waiting for it to rain. And I feel soaked to the skin." -Leonard Cohen
"I admit that I ain't no angel, I admit that I ain't no saint- I'm selfish and I'm cruel and I'm blind. If I exorcise my devils, well my angels may leave too. When they leave they're so hard to find." -Tom Waits
"Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on." -Henry Rollins
"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter. " -E.E. Cummings
“I'm magnificent! I'm five feet eleven inches and I weigh one hundred thirty-five pounds, and I look like a racehorse.” -Julie Newmar
"I'm so sick of arming the world, then sending troops over to destroy the fucking arms, you know what I mean? We keep arming these little countries, then we go and blow the shit out of them. We're like the bullies of the world, you know? We're like Jack Palance in the movie Shane, throwing the pistol at the sheepherder's feet." -Bill Hicks
"I've always thought my soundtracks do pretty good because they're basically professional equivalents of a mix tape I'd make for you at home." -Quentin Tarantino
"Better to live one year as a tiger, than a hundred as a sheep." -Madonna
"Be yourself. The world worships the original." -Ingrid Bergman

My Blog

Something I’ve not done...

Something I've not doneis following meI haven't done it again and againso it has many footstepslike a drumstick that's grown old and never been usedIn late afternoon I hear it come closerat times it c...
Posted by Karen on Thu, 09 Oct 2008 12:17:00 PST

Letters to a young poet...

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers...
Posted by Karen on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 11:55:00 PST

Everything terrible is in its deepest being something helpless that wants help from us...

"We must assume our existence as broadly as we in any way can; everything, even the unheard of, must be possible in it. That is at bottom the only courage that is demanded of us...to have courage for ...
Posted by Karen on Wed, 17 Sep 2008 12:13:00 PST

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly an...
Posted by Karen on Fri, 05 Sep 2008 03:01:00 PST

Bridges of Madison County...

I can't remember exactly how I acquired this book, but I've had it for quite some time now.  Oddly enough, it's the only book in my collection I have never actually read.  Today, in the mids...
Posted by Karen on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 07:39:00 PST

Lynch on love...

"To lose love is like light and it's only a problem when there's an absence of it. Pure love asks for nothing back and it's more like a sensation or a vibration, but unfortunately most people...
Posted by Karen on Tue, 26 Aug 2008 02:11:00 PST

In loving memory...

ChuchiJuly 29th, 2007-August 5th, 2008It didn't take long for this little Schnauzer to win my heart.Her relentless spirit made her irresistibly cute.It was completely love at first sight...Chuchi may...
Posted by Karen on Wed, 06 Aug 2008 11:47:00 PST

To Karen...

Karen, come closer Shut softly your watery eyes The pangs of your sadness will pass as your senses will rise... The flowers of the city Though breathlike, get deathlike sometimes. And there's no use i...
Posted by Karen on Mon, 28 Jul 2008 10:43:00 PST

Just reach up...

     The gorgeous full moon tonight slapped me in the face and shot me with the optimism I have been desperately needing.  Although no one has successfully proven the effects ...
Posted by Karen on Sat, 19 Jul 2008 01:58:00 PST

Well be living in all the oceans now...

If you were the woman, and I was the man Would I send you yellow roses? Would I dare to kiss your hand? In the morning would I caress you as the wind caresses the sand, If you were the woman, and I wa...
Posted by Karen on Fri, 11 Jul 2008 09:49:00 PST