Presidential Candidate ERiCA yo.

the world conspires against the optimist
yet i refuse to be put down. i have my off days. but constantly i will be the most positive thing to ever come into your life. because being negative wastes to much energy. love yourself. & you will love for a lifetime. hate youself & you've just broken your own soul. i'm a bi-polar girl with the heart of a champion. i love to love & strive for what i want. realize that your snide comments &dirty looks do nothing but make me realize how far i am going in this lifetime. i have big goals for such a small girl. & i plan on achieving all of them. with or without YOU. you can come along for the ride but i have to warn you. it will get bumpy.
major :
& American Politics
&public policy
&constitutional law
like i said big goals.
Alcohol influences my thoughts;
This is a drunken blurb. excuse the misspellings.
i am who i am. there's nothing i can change about that. Evil. Purity. Angel. Devil. Happyily Depressed without you. I do what i can. To get where i go. I need myself. I need someone. I need them. Those people that carry me thru the darkest tunnels of my brain. I need something. Help me love. I realize i am what i have created. A monster lurks in my brain. I fight a battle daily against it. Sometimes that monster is the reason for my demise. But everyday i fight him; i get stronger. Everyday i live for something more. Yet everyday i feel held back. I am the source of my own happiness. If only i could find myself; in all that i am & search for. God + Jesus = Life. They are the reason i'm alive. The reason these breathes i take, these words i write, they all come out. With out him i'm nothing. Dead. On the inside. Physically. Who are wel. Why are we. What have i become? A shell of a former self? Yes NO believe me i've fought the good fight. the bad fight. & all that comes in between. I am a survivor of the worst kind of death. My brain has a way of conspiring against it's own happiness. I'm double ended. A sword. Either way you hold me i'll cut. I have no trust. I can't let you in. For fear. Of nothing in reality. I'm the same way. We are all inherently evil. But the devil leads us down a path of destruction. Sometimes we can not change our past. Sometimes we MUST learn from it. Other times. We have to forget & move on. Praying to God that we never make the same one twice. There are those instances that we never learn. Continuously making mistakes that will eventually take our lives. Take our souls. Leave us nothing but a walking corpse. Who have we become. As people. As lovers. As a species. Reverted back to animal instincts. How can we say we are better than the beasts we eat when we commit the same crimes they do. Gluttony. Lethargy. Hatred. Resentment. In some instances animals are better than we. They can not dominate an entire group of people. Or exterminante a group because of personal beliefs or melanin content. God help us all. Your betrayel & lies have only made me stronger than before. & for that; i CAN NOT thank you. A promise is a Promise is a Promise. live with it. die with it. You fucked up. I did what i had to do to keep my sanity.
.FREED0M.
Thank you God.
forever yours,
♥ Erica