The truth about me is that I always screw things up, coz I can’t be just happy and enjoy simple things of life. Apparently I love to fight, I Need to fight. And I can’t accept that I can’t have control of everything. Now am in a process of catharsis, cleaning my system, letting go hard feelings and guilt, which has been oppressing me for a long time. Now that I can recognize my mistakes in the past, am able to make something to change my future decisions. I’m trying to understand the meaning of mi actions, why am I so selfish sometimes? And why I do all the things I do. People around me get hurt, because of me. So am doing the best I can to change the way I am. A friend told me that exposing my though will help me, so here I am back in the net. But absolutely different from one year ago, you know, that stupid na�f girl who used to do myspace to make her feel better about her self, but having no self respect. I will NOT show pictures of me naked, or semi naked. I will NOT make friendly relationships based only in superficial stuff. I will NOT accept any kind of invitations. So if you are thinking about making me your “friend†just because you like the same bands as me, forget about it! You need way more than that to deserve a few of my lines. I’ve done many mistakes in life, and believe me I had paid the price. The only I had left is my ability to see my own mistakes. I lost my pride, credibility, and respect from people I care about. Yes I fucked up! But am only twenty-one years old I have time to make things right for once! So I will. Forget about “hey who u r doing gorgeous?†coz I will deny you! And by the way, don’t be sacred; I just wanna keep assholes away from my blog.
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