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I am here for Friends

About Me

you probably shouldnt bother talking to me.i am loud, annoying, dramatic, and certifiably insane. i love to talk. and be mean to strangers. i like music, but not yours, so dont bother. i love my friends.
Green eyed tragedy
Lovely and so sad to see
Clinging to a busted beam
Off a ship that would never sail
Love can fail
And leave you in an ocean of your own emotion
Until you drown or wash up on shore
Stand up baby
Seek it once
And don't let them slap you with the same hand they used
to wipe away your tears
Cover your ears
And ignore their voices
while you open your eyes to the sunset
I dont know if we're lost yet
Going 80 twards outer space
Slow the pace
Slow the pace
And flow with the rhythm on the radio
Singing lyrics from long ago
Living instead of surviving
Always striving
Always striving
So crank it up honey and ill never stop driving.
-nikol avila 9/03

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

steve martin!

My Blog

girl put your record on

Three little birds, sat on my window.And they told me I don't need to worry.Summer came like cinnamonSo sweet,Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alrig...
Posted by on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 15:38:00 GMT

how i feel

I've been long, a long way from herePut on a poncho, played for mosquitos,And drank til I was thirsty againWe went searching through thrift store junglesFound Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampooAnd Be...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Nov 2006 11:45:00 GMT

"happy pills"

dont judge me. you have no idea what hell its been on these medications and on the path that lead me to such severe breakdowns. you think i LIKE being this way? do you think Im happy to be on "happy p...
Posted by on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 16:18:00 GMT

insanity

well, for one reason or another, i have totally lost my mind a few times lately. i get super paranoid and emotional, and say things without even thinking twice. i'm bipolar and am taking medications t...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Oct 2006 09:41:00 GMT

on the verge of extinction

havent written anything public in a while. just thought you should know that im alive. life keeps throwing shit at me but if life thinks im sitting back and taking it, it's wrong. im going to prevail ...
Posted by on Fri, 05 May 2006 16:12:00 GMT

you think you know but you have no idea.

i just feel like writing this morning. last night was "fun"... couldve been more fun but i guess it just doesnt work that way. i am in a very positive mood today, the sun is shining and birds are sing...
Posted by on Thu, 13 Apr 2006 08:42:00 GMT

crash in to me

i have a lot to say but no grounds to say anything. i like him still (and will till i just get the fuck over it) but know that its never going to be anything more than whatever it was we were. friends...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Apr 2006 16:24:00 GMT

they dont love you like i love you

yep, i dropped out of high school. it was probably the stupidest thing ive ever done, but in many ways not something i regret. i have been through a lot and forced to grow up faster, and i would rathe...
Posted by on Mon, 20 Mar 2006 15:59:00 GMT

what you feel is what you are and what you are is beautiful

im angry and i dont really know why. it could be because everyone at my fucking work sucks. ok not everyone but for fucks sake, dorothy as customer service manager is a SHITTY fucking idea. it sucks, ...
Posted by on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 13:24:00 GMT

280 something

an old man came into caravan about an hour ago. when he walked in i was super nice to him and tried to joke around with him but he seemed to be mean and rude, so i gave up and went to lunch. after he ...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Mar 2006 15:08:00 GMT