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Mell

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About Me

Hola, I'm 54, a flaming redhead, a freelance floral designer, and mother of two asshole teens whom I love fiercely. I also have an older son, who is a deep thinker, a gentle man, and an old soul; and an older daughter who is a little bit of a trail-blazer, a trait which is being lovingly passed on to her two beautiful daughters. I love all types of music, if it's bangin' and can move me in some meaningful way. Long suffering, poverty-stricken and most base in my daydreaming, I know that my reward is not of this earth. Therefore, I do not fear death, but indeed, embrace it and await its sweet release from the mortal confines of this shackled soul. Consequently, I know that my Maker has decided to have me live out the rest of my days well into my nineties, when my body no longer works, but my mind races beyond the speed of light. Then, as now, few people will clearly understand whatever words I manage to put together and even fewer will truly want to hear them. In the meantime, I do what I want, damn the consequences. I will smoke and drink and sing and dance and fuck and stomp and twirl like a whirling dervish until I puke, until I scream, until I am satisfied and collapse into that damned temporary sleep, perhaps to dream, to dream, to dream. . .

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My Interests

Keeping myself out of trouble without taking Lexapro, Paxil, Wellbutrin, or any other damn thing that is made by 'man'. God provides my medicine. I like things a certain way; however, when the universe shifts, like most of us, I also shift. An exception to that rule is when everything in my soul tells me not to shift, but to countershift - - or even completely lay down on the other side (which, more often than not, will be the Left)..

I'd like to meet:

Often mistaken as arrogant, I'm easily disgusted by most people, but if you can rock my brain or anything else that's above my waist, as well as make my feet move (which just happen to be attached to my legs), I might make an exception. If you come to my party, don't whine, puke in my house, piss yourself, fight, or grab my sexy parts without being winked at. I'm loyal and true to my good friends and would probably take a bullet for them. On the other hand, abuse my friendship and it will take alot of convincing to get me to trust you again. I hate self-important blowhards, men who beat women, cheaters, liars, hillbillies, rednecks (cheeze-heads r ok). I draw, paint, write, make flowers into high-style art, design 4:20 clothing, am learning Spanish (a ssshhorrttt time to learn, a lftm to master), play the congas, write music and poetry, dance (as well as my ag-ed body will let me, and weave yarn into warm and comforting shapes. I have a pretty fair life and few, but genuine friends. . .

Music:

Aerosmith, the Animals, Bad Company, the Beatles, Black Crowes, Blondie, Bon Jovi, Bowie, the Cliks, Jimmy Cliff, Coldplay, Robert Cray, Counting Crows, the Cure, Dire Straits, the Doors, Bob Dylan, Epicycle, Foo Fighters, Grateful Dead, Green Day, Buddy Guy, P.J. Harvey, Jimi Hendrix, John Lee Hooker, Billy Idol, Iggy Pop, INXS, Chris Isaak, Jethro Tull, Robert Johnson, Keane, the Killers, B.B. King, the Kinks, Lenny Kravitz, Led Zeppelin, John Lennon, Annie Lennox, Little Richard, Madonna, Dave Matthews Band, Bob Marley, John Mellencamp, Alanis Morissette, Oasis, Roy Orbison, Pearl Jam, Tom Petty, Pink Floyd, the Pretenders, Bonnie Raitt, Otis Redding, Red Hot Chili Peppers, R.E.M., Smokey Robinson, Roxy Music, Santana, Seal, Spencer Davis Group, Patti Smith, Springsteen, the Stevenson Ranch Davidians, Joss Stone, Stones, the Temptations, Tina Turner, Jethro Tull, U2, Stevie Ray Vaughn, Velvet Underground, the White Stripes, Wilco, the Who; LATIN: Aterciopelados, Bandoleros, Cabas, Chayanne, Celia Cruz, Gipsy Kings, Elefante, Alejandra Guzman, Juanes, Kumbia Kings, Mana, Ozomatli, Eros Ramazzotti, Shakira. Any music made by children.**********"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from his side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved."

Movies:

Alice's Restaurant, All Over Me, Almost Famous, Amadeus, Anger Management, Babette's Feast, the Banger Sisters, Benny & Joon, Betty Blue, Big Fish, Black Orpheus, Blair Witch Project, Bound, the Breakfast Club, Bruce Almighty, Cabaret, Close Encounters of the Third Kind, the Craft, Crash, the Chronicles of Narnia, the Crow, Diabolique, Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood, E.T., Easy Rider, Edward Scissorhands, El Norte, Enough, Everything is Illuminated, Fantasia, Farinelli, Fear, Frida, Forrest Gump, Frances, the Full Monty, Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus, Gia, Girl Interrupted, Ghost, the Green Mile, Halloween (all, except #3, which had nothing to do with Michael Myers), the Harder They Come, Heat (Warhol), Home Alone, the Hunger, Hustle & Flow, In the Realm of the Senses (Kurosawa), Interview with a Vampire, It's All Gone Pete Tong, I Want to Live, the Jacket, Joe's Apartment, John Q., Labyrinth, the Last Temptation of Christ, the Lord of the Flies, Lost Weekend, the Maltese Falcon, Man on the Moon, the Man with the Golden Arm, the Matrix, Meet Joe Black, Memento, Mermaids, Midnight Express, Ned Kelley (Jagger), the Neverending Story, the Notebook, O Brother, Where Art Thou?, On the Waterfront, Pecker, Powder, Pleasantville, Prick Up Your Ears, Purple Rain, Quadrophenia, Radio Flyer, Rear Window, Risky Business, Rock Star, Romeo & Juliet (DeCaprio), Saved, Scarface, Scream, the Shawshank Redemption, the Shining, Showgirls, Sid & Nancy, Sideways, A Simple Plan, the Sixth Sense, Speed, Splendor in the Grass, Stand by Me, Thelma & Louise, Titanic, the Truman Show, Ushpizin, West Side Story, What's Eating Gilbert Grape?, What's Love Got to do with It?, Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?, Wicker Park, Willow, the Wizard of Oz, Women on the Verge of a Nervous Breakdown, Y Tu Mama Tambien

Television:

ABC Soaps, Absolutely Fabulous, All in the Family, Amazing Stories, American Idol, Animaniacs, Anthony Bordain No Reservations, Bliss, Bones, Boston Legal, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Campus Ladies, Charmed, Comedy Central, Crossing Jordan, Dr. Phil, Ex's and Oh's, Good Eats, Grey's Anatomy, A Haunting, Hell's Kitchen, House, I Love Lucy, Inked, Intervention, Jeopardy, The King of Queens, the 'L' Word, Lost, Law & Order, Mad TV, M*A*S*H*, Miami Ink, Mythbusters, Prison Break, Queer as Folk, Roseanne, Seinfeld, That '70's Show, 24, Ugly Betty, Weeds, Wife Swap, Will & Grace

Books:

A Book of Angels, Bartlett's Quotations, The Element Encyclopedia of Magical Creatures, Faeries, Goddesses, Gnomes, The Language Police, Life After Death, various flower and gardening books, the book I'm writing, and any book written by my granddaughter.

Heroes:

My husband, who tolerates me at my worst, my kids, who are surmounting obstacles every day, and me; I am my own hero, which sounds haughty and self-actualizing, but deal with it.

My Blog

Krazy Kirilian

As my body dozed this morning, my mind decided to go for a little walk outside.  I love these walks because I'm always alone and free to explore without detention.  I never need a coat, neve...
Posted by Mell on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 10:12:00 PST

The Winter of My Discontent

I should just keep my mouth shut from the time I get up in the morning until I go to bed at night.  I have nothing good to say to anyone around me lately, and the things that do escape my lips ar...
Posted by Mell on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 05:06:00 PST

St. Germaine Pray for Us

Lisa would have been 50 years old this month, if she had lived. The confirmation name I chose, at the age of 39, upon converting to Catholisism, is St. Germaine. She was found dead under the stairwell...
Posted by Mell on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 01:45:00 PST

Why I Love ’The ’L’ Word’

Two words:  Kate Moening.  Her portrayal of Shane is the most believable character on the show.  Maybe I feel that way because Shane would be me, if I had the freedom to be gay.  ...
Posted by Mell on Wed, 30 Jan 2008 12:43:00 PST

Under a Blood Red Moon

the rain falls on my head like bullets on a tin roof i joyously chuckle and the sneers i attract my brain is churning like raw meat on the hoof and i know, and i know i can never come back my eyelids ...
Posted by Mell on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 04:03:00 PST

Existential Algebra

I wrote this long ago, March 6, 1984. . .   EXISTENTIAL ALGEBRA   If X = TIME And Y = MONEY Let X + Y = Z   If X also = BOREDOM, Then we must redefine Y Before we can find the value of ...
Posted by Mell on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 09:12:00 PST

On the Dirty Boulevard

A ten-dollar whore isn't really in it for the money The bill's just a ticket for a ten-minute ride At a dollar a minute she'd make more than The average brown-noser at the office Who, at least, is in ...
Posted by Mell on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:34:00 PST

God Forsaken Waltz

when You told me You loved me i signed the peace treaty, then i sadly saw that my name stood alone; there were no other takers -- all who watched were fakers; i knew in an instant i couldn't go h...
Posted by Mell on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 12:08:00 PST

Let he who is without sin. . .

People who believe everything they read Don't know everything They want to believe they're right By letting the media make up their minds for them Something happened; a cosmic shift In the life of a m...
Posted by Mell on Thu, 04 Oct 2007 10:24:00 PST

20 Years of Marriage/10 Years of Neglect

There's weeds in my garden I can't use a ho(e) The man who could pull them don't care no mo The shit's overgrown I might need a plow But it's waited so long that it's no use now When we planted t...
Posted by Mell on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 04:49:00 PST