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~*eL Jay*~

FRIENDS DONT LET FRIENDS VOTE DEMOCRAT!! MCCAIN-PALIN '08

About Me

"I choose to live and to grow, take and give and to move, learn and love and to cry, kill and die and to be paranoid and to lie, hate and fear and to do what it takes to get through"-maynard"I can help you change tired moments into pleasure. blend and balance pain and comfort deep within you til you will not want me any other way."

My Interests


I think i'm pretty artistic...i try to paint, draw. Crocheting, play the piano, reading. Enjoy exploring new ideas like philosophy, theoretical physics, science and try to promote open-mindedness ************************* Our father who art in a penthouse sits in his 37th floor suite and swivels to gaze down at the city he made me in. he allows me to stand and sollicit graffiti until he needs the land i stand on. I, in my darkened threshold am pawing through my pockets; The receipts, the bus tickets, the matchbook phone numbers, the urgent napkin poems, all of which laundered has redured them pulpy and strange loose change and a key. Ask me. Go ahead, ask me if i care. i got the answer here, i wrote it down somehwere...i just gotta find it, i just gotta find it. Somebody and their spraypaint got too close, somebody came on too heavy. now look at me made ugly by the drooling letters i was better off alone ain't that the way it is. They don't know the first thing but you don't know that until they take the first swing my fingers are red and swollen from the cold i'm getting bold in my old age. So go ahead...try the door... it doesn't matter anymore. i know the weakhearted are strong willed and we are being kept alive until we are killed. he's up there...the ice clinking in his glass i don't ask i just empty my pockets and wait. its not fate its just circumstance i dont fool myself with romance i just live phone number to phone number dusting them against my thighs in the warmth of my pockets which whisper history incessantly ask me where are you? I lower my eyes wishing i could cry more and care less. Yes, its true, i was trying to love someone again i was caught caring, bearing weight but i love this city, this state...this country too large and whoever's in charge up there had better take the elevator down and put more change in our cup or else...we...are..coming...up. -Ani DiFranco

I'd like to meet:

***Spiral on out...Keep Going!******************* HEY YOU!!! Consider this: constructive criticism and intellectual opinions welcome! Remain open-minded, supportive, and feel free to contribute your opinions and bring a new perspective! however, slander and any negative remarks about an individual personality or just blatant rudeness will not be tolerated and your comments will not be approved. Lets act like adults. thanks ******************************************************** "Cruelty springs from weakness" ******************************************************** "Until we extend the compassion to ALL living things, we, ourselves, will not find peace"

Music:

Tool, NIN, BRMC, Atmosphere, Smashing Pumkins, deftones, Aperfectcircle, Pink Floyd, Janis Joplin, Johnny Cash, Dj Tiesto, Sandra Collins...the list continues*************************************************** ******* "but my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked. i'm naked and fearless"

Movies:

Donnie Darko, Constantine, Adaptation, Endless Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Equalibrium, Dark City, Brave New World, Lake House, 300

Television:

House, American idol, black books (bbca), Greys anatomy, Monk, Family Guy

Books:

Electric Koolaid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe, The Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley, Atlas Shrugged by Aynn Rand, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, In The Country of the Young and The Mermaids Singing, by lisa Carey, Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. martin

Heroes:

Bill Mauher, Carl Saganwhat is man without the beasts? if all the beasts were gone, men would die from great loneliness of spirit. For whatever happens to the beasts, soon happens to man. All things are connected. -Chief Seattle (Duwamish tribe)

My Blog

ahh sweet poetry...

..> ..> Enigmas  ..> ..>   You've asked me what the lobster is weaving there with his golden feet?I reply, the ocean knows this.You say, what is the ascidia waiting for in its tra...
Posted by LinZie on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 07:05:00 PST

ahh sweet poetry...

..> ..> Enigmas  ..> ..>   You've asked me what the lobster is weaving there with his golden feet?I reply, the ocean knows this.You say, what is the ascidia waiting for in its tra...
Posted by LinZie on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 07:05:00 PST

i liked this...

" some people reach a place in time where they've gone as far as they can. A place where wives and jobs collide with desire; that which is unknowable and those remain out of sight. See what is invisab...
Posted by LinZie on Sat, 23 Jun 2007 08:11:00 PST

its just shitty man

My whole life i've always been so proud that my parents were one of the few couples left in the world. Most families have been divided by divorce. Its kind of the norm these days...and we are now part...
Posted by LinZie on Wed, 20 Jun 2007 09:11:00 PST

coming to terms with reality

For years i have been battling against myself and my own beliefs on life and the purpose of our exsistance. But suddenly it all makes sense. and how good it feels to be at peace with myself. and many ...
Posted by LinZie on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 12:10:00 PST

Sometimes great quotes just find me...

what is man without the beasts?if all the beasts were gone, men would die from great loneliness of spirit.For whatever happens to the beasts,soon happens to man.All things are connected.-Chief Seattle...
Posted by LinZie on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 06:06:00 PST

No offense intended....

People are so self-absorbed. The human race is just disgusting and selfish all together. We all carry about our lives revolved around ourselves and heed not one moment of our pathetic exsistance to th...
Posted by LinZie on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 10:24:00 PST

Six Feet Under

okay so i've been addicted to this show called Six Feet Under for a couple of months now. It was on Hbo like 3 yrs ago but i didn't watch it til it showed re-runs on Bravo. Sadly, yes, it was edited.....
Posted by LinZie on Wed, 28 Mar 2007 07:12:00 PST

Milk:::does the body harm

And has anyone ever considered how gross milk is? Do you know that we are the ONLY animals who drink another animals milk? i say this to people and they say, "not true! i've seen a cat drink a dogs mi...
Posted by LinZie on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 01:41:00 PST

Save the Bunnies!

I consider myself a deep thinker, often not caring about the drama and complexities of normal every-day relationships...but pondering science, questioning moral standards, and drawing conclusions base...
Posted by LinZie on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 01:16:00 PST