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Azrael*{biggish bear}*

The louder I Scream........... the less It Hurts

About Me


Every time she laughs she hopes he is watching; Not so he can see how happy she is, but so maybe he will fall for her smile like she fell for his: that is what I want but hey dreams dont come true n e more. So yeah my name is Steffanie Neysa Yevette Rivera. Its the freaking longest name in the world i swear!! Well for those who dont know me I'm in the Band as a drum major, in ROTC as an Officer, and i usually do drama club for lights and sound. So im really out going. I Love hanging out with my friends and going to the movies. For the longest times one of the things i had always wanted to do was go walk around downtown(central area)Abq. with my friends on a friday night. Well i finally got to do that so now what i want to do thanks to a wonderful friend is go stargazing up on the Mesa. I know im wierd but hey its the simple things in life that bring us the most pleasures. I enjoy meeting new people so send me a message or something! Smile:) ok here is a little more about me: its a qoute from a book called Just Listen; "I am the middle sister, the one in between not the oldest, not the youngest, not the boldest, not the nicest. I am the shade of gray, the glass half empty ir full, depending on your view. In my life there has been little that i have done first or better than the one preceding or following me. Of all of us though, I am the only one who has been broken."


TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Steffanie N.Y.F. R
Birthday: Jan 15
Birthplace: Torrejon Spain
Current Location: in a chair, in a room, in a house, in a yard, in a city, in a state, in a country
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown with blonde highlights
Height: 5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: Hispanic
The Shoes You Wore Today: my flippies
Your Weakness: guys
Your Fears: hieghts, spiders, and cockroaches
Your Perfect Pizza: CHEESE!!!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get to know more people
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: reall!!?!?!
Thoughts First Waking Up: what time is it
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever i manage to fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory: january 1st, 2005
Pepsi or Coke: niether Dr.Pepper

MacDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: niether
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: none
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: occasionally(i have to be really ticked off)
Do you Sing: yep:)
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: undecided
Do you belive in yourself: to a point
Do you get Motion Sickness: no
Do you think you are Attractive: yes and no
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: yes almost all the time(i do enjoy getting them mad though(only every now and then)
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument: yes alot of them
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: yes
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: no
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: dont know yet, but i do want it to attract alot of attention
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A vetrinarian
What country would you most like to Visit: Spain
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue or hazel
Favourite Hair Color: Brown
Short or Long Hair: not to long but definetly not short
Height: taller then me
Weight: dont care
Best Clothing Style: skater, goth , punk n ething besides preppy
Number of Drugs I have taken: none
Number of CDs I own: to many to count
Number of Piercings: my ears
Number of Tattoos: none
Number of things in my Past I Regret: 8 things
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My Interests


lyrics - facedown ......

I'd like to meet:

Any one who shares the same interests as i do and isnt a potential stalker. People who are in band and rotc are the greatest people(in my opinion) to get to know.
Girl Name:Marquesa Demona

Guy Name:Master Byron

*Never forget
the one's close to you*

You stand out
because of your firey independance. You won't
let anyone drag you down or get in the way.
Just remember that you can hurt people easier
than you think.

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Music:

Fallout Boys, My chemical Romance, Papa roach, System Of A Down, Slipknot, and n e other band that is on my site. What Evanescence Song Are You? (pics)
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Movies:

Labryinth, legend, Tim Burton Movies, n e and all, The Chronicles of Narnia, Lotr, Harry Potter although they really arent all that great, King Kong(it ticked off dylan and stephen so bad), Moulin Rouge, Chicago, The Phantom Of The Opera, West Side Story, Most Disney movies, and n e other wierd dark movies.

Books:

Vampire books,Twilight,Rebecca, Vampire Kisses,Inkheart, Inkspell Looks for me by moonlight, Harry Potter all 6, Lotr, The Chronicles of Narnia, Abarat 1 and 2, Clive barker books such as the previous, Horror stories, and occasionally a romance story.

Heroes:

my friends since they are the ones who influence me the most

My Blog

Please dont worry

I'm alive i don't plan on leaving any where any time soon. I have to much to live for! I think any way. I'm sorry im so depressed and i can't change it,but there is to much going on in my head to be a...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 08:09:00 PST

sorry

i apologise to all those whom i yelled at today. I shouldn't have done that but i couldnt help but want some one else to feel what i was feeling. Even if they didn't deserve it although some, those lo...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 05:18:00 PST

im stupid

ok so i dont know what to do. i figured out why i keep getting so sick and now my parents know about it as well.:) yeah great fun there. Its awful now though becasue its worse. Im light headed i cant ...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:44:00 PST

Show me how it ends!

Standing in the middle of the hotel people keep walking up and hugging me and telling me everything is ok. I dont understand what they are talking about and im getting frustrated until i realise im cr...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 08:10:00 PST

stuck between a rock and another rock

Can some one explain to me why i fall  in love so freaking easily??? There is nothing wrong with that happening its just the after effects that i dont like dealing with. For instance past history...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 08:59:00 PST

Allo

ok well im 17! Yeah its not that great ill live though i guess. I feel wierd like now that im 17 everyone is noticing me, because all of the sudden im getting hit on by like every other guy i see. I m...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 08:28:00 PST

17

I turn 17 tomorrow.........I haved lost-one best friend-my sanity-almost everythingI Gained- two best friends-one awesome person- one more yearsorry all but i dont want to be 17. ...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 09:31:00 PST

...................

So thats what friends are for right?? OK if u insist. well i dont know what to do and i feel stupid we weren;t even together that long and im all heartbroken over it. Am i wrong for falling for him so...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 08:31:00 PST

And for a moment

for a moment i thought i had everything i had wanted, be wanted and needed y some one and need and want them in return. Nope it didnt last again. I should have known it wouldn't work, but i couldn't h...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Wed, 10 Jan 2007 09:12:00 PST

look at the pretty pony

I had no idea what to call this section so that had to work. well lets see new years eve was freaken awesome. im glad to be home though. I think im driving matt nuts with text messages, but thats ok i...
Posted by Vampire Kisses{catch me if i fall} on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 01:28:00 PST