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I'm a native from Arizona and have lived here for 5 years. My girlfriend and I have a beautiful home and a beautiful son that we cherish more than anything. I'm outgoing, outspoken and sometimes have no filter, but I love to laugh and I love to make others smile. My life has been crazy but better that than boring. I dream a lot but as "William Dement" once said, " Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives".http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSW0oVouxXg


God help me get thru the loss of my little ones. There is not a minute that goes by that I do not think of them and wish they were still with me. Help me with the pain, I'm tired of feeling alone.

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My Blog

Emptyness

I knew this time would be hard for me but I didn't think it would start so soon.  My heart races at the thought of Feb 14th and I am trying all that I can not to think about it.  Seeing my baby that d...
Posted by on Mon, 19 Jan 2009 17:02:00 GMT

My Little Angel

Parker the day that you were born was one of the most emotional yet happiest days of my life.  I have always believed in angels, but have also always thought that they lived in heaven.  But ...
Posted by on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 05:54:00 GMT

due date lost

Tomorrow my twins were due and I have been trying to prepare myself for weeks now.  With Parker's arrival I thought that maybe it would get easier but I look at him and can't help but feel sad fo...
Posted by on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 21:30:00 GMT

More about Parker

We had our last ultrasound yesterday and it was so great to see Parker again.  His head is all the way down as if he is ready to come out now.  He was sucking on his hand and then would move...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 14:01:00 GMT

Parker

Well we had our first baby shower in Arizona and it was great!  I saw friends that I have not seen in a long time and they seemed excited about the arrival of our little man.  We got some gr...
Posted by on Tue, 27 May 2008 21:55:00 GMT

Miscarriage Tribute- Slipped Away (by Avril Lavigne)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSW0oVouxXg God help me get thru this... I am so lost and alone inside.
Posted by on Sat, 17 May 2008 06:29:00 GMT

It’s Been too long

It has been a while since I have sat down and wrote a blog but I just haven't had it in me.  Blogging for me has always been a way to release emotions and let go what I hold on to so dearly on th...
Posted by on Thu, 24 Apr 2008 21:43:00 GMT

MY ANGEL BABIES

To the babies that I once carried but never looked into your eyes,  to have never told you how very much I loved you, to have never heard your cries.  To never hold your tiny hands or sqeeze...
Posted by on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 07:16:00 GMT

Lost and ALONE

It's been awhile since I have last blogged and this is because I have had nothing good to say.  2008 has brought me more tears and more sadness then any other year.  Yesterday I went in for ...
Posted by on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 13:36:00 GMT

I am pregnant!

..> My week has been hell but through it all I have found out that I am pregnant as well.  I have spent the last week in the hospital with ovarian hyperstimulation.  Basically my body is a...
Posted by on Fri, 04 Jan 2008 07:18:00 GMT