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Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say

...i want to find out who i am....

About Me

"There are two tragedies in life.
One is to lose your heart's desire.
The other is to gain it."
-George Bernard Shaw-
[Melody]
{like MUSiC}
DANCE
It's What I Do. It's How I Show Who I Am. It's The ONE Thing YOU Can't Tell Me How To Do. You Can Judge Me, But I Won't Hear You Over The Music. So That's What I'll Do To Stay Sane. I'll Dance MY Feelings. MY Life. MY Love. MY Passion.
I am going to be an EMERGENCY ROOM NURSE for a Children's Hospital. I am going to do volunteer work at Shrinner's Hospital. I am going to go to Africa and try to help cure AIDS. I want to make a difference in ONE persons life.
Dear Life,
I don't know where to go from here. You've lied to me, hurt me, broke me down, made me cry, and stabbed me in the back. I've smiled many times, and laughed many more.
You've made me scream at the top of my lungs, for both good and bad. I've had the time of my life and I've fought with all my friends. I've met new people, and left old friends in the dust.
I have explored where I live, and yet I find nothing. Was I meant for more? Or do you not even know. Is this even a journey, or just and endless road.
Help me find out who I need to be and why. Make me smile until my cheeks hurt. Make me laugh until I cry. Make me cry until I am asleep. Become my best friend and the possibilities will never end!!!
We shall run for fun and fear, dance to the music no one hears! Smile as if there is no tomorrow. Sing to the people in the cars next to us; with the windows up of course. Wave at every person passing on the freeway. Sing to our friends in the car like we mean it!
I hope this feeling lasts forever!! I want to find out why you left, and why I didn't go with you. Were we ever meant to be. Or is this all just a dream. Take me away to another paradise.
Help me become who I am suppose to be.

My Interests

i thrive on my personality...
NOT because i am ugly...
but because at the end of the day...
that's who i will ALWAYS be...
with or without the make-up and hair~spray

Just because I won't put out,
Doesn't mean I'm UGLY.

Just because I won't put out,
Doesn't mean I'm FAT.

Just because I won't put out,
Doesn't mean I don't have an AMAZING PERSONALITY.

Just because I won't put out,
Doesn't mean I'm STUPID.

Just because I won't put out,
Don't start rumors about me.

Just because I won't put out,
MEANS I HAVE SELF RESPECT.

Just because YOU can't see it,
Doesn't mean it's not there.

I won't get down on me knees for you.

I won't do things other girls are willing to do.

I've been taught I'm better than that.

I do what I think is right, I don't give into peer pressure.

I am more of a woman than she'll ever be and than he'll ever see.

I will accomplish GREAT, AMAZING, WONDERFUL things.

I'm sad you won't be there to see it happen.

But I won't lower myself to make you happy.

I'll wait for the man of my dreams, instead of the boy of my fantasy.

Because I know what I'm worth, I'll wait for my turn.

Then I'll see who actually stays around.

You think you'll get far in the back of your car.

But I've been taught how to say "NO."

If you can't respect that then I guess you don't respect me.

And if you don't respect me, you don't deserve me.

Simple as that.

So quit thinking you can change my mind.

We've been through this a thousand times.

My answer is No.

That's where it stands.

I'll be here waiting for an ACTUAL man.

I'd like to meet:

Love Can Fade,
Can Break Away,
Can Be Forgotten,
BUT NOT REPLACED

We Might Lose Hope,
We Might Lose Faith,
But Don't Throw It All Away
Because You're Afraid.

Music:



Movies:

Justin may be dead...but he will never leave us...
he's just like the wind...we can't see him...
but we can feel him
Justin-"Cups????? I do have to agree also it was funny FOR THE TWO FIRST NIGHTS... And i never thought it would go on for so long!!!!! CUPS... AND DON'T FORGET IT!!!!!!!!!"

Frightmares Party 2006
Our Little Cup Fairy!!!
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU JUSTIN!!!

Television:



Heroes:

I have realised...
that no matter what it is...
no matter who it is...
everyone you ever look up to WILL let you down...
and it will be one of the hardest things you will ever go through...
so there for i have no one to look up to anymore...
because so far EVERYONE has let me down...
try and prove me wrong...
you can't...

My Blog

Inside-Out

I want to tear my insides outSo you can see what I've become I want to tear my insides outFor all the things that I have doneI want to tear my insides outFor you to see how you left meI want to t...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Sun, 20 May 2007 10:51:00 PST

Do It For Yourself

The things I have wrote about in this blog are NOT about one person or situation. It's kinda just a jumble of things all together."Find out who you are and do it for a reason."Dolly Parton Said that.I...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Fri, 18 May 2007 05:42:00 PST

i don't fit in ANYWHERE

I don't fit in anywhere...I am a complete mess...I look up to no one...So I have no regrets...I keep my life a secret...So I don't get hurt...The more I smile...The more it hurts....I cry at nigh...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 07:35:00 PST

...i made myseld sick...

i only knew him for a month...but boy how close we got...he'd ALWAYS tease me about stupid little things..make me laugh and make me smile..and at the end of EVERY NIGHT he'd yell "CUPS!!!!!!!!"i'll mi...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 09:08:00 PST

NUMB

sooo...basically...this is just a bunch of my random thoughts and half done poems thrown into a thing...it sucks...but it makes me feel better....=) I've never felt pretty..I've never felt c...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 10:33:00 PST

BACK SURGERY UPDATE!!!

HEY YOU GUYS!!! this is for everyone who keeps asking me about my back...and everyone who doesn't know and wants to know!! i am having my THRID back surgery on November 28, 2006...it will be IN UTAH.....
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 12:08:00 PST

untitled

Why dont I see what you see...   If someone tells you youre pretty or gorgeous...how do you know its the truth?   Just because you say it doesn't mean you mean it...and even if you do mean i...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Tue, 16 May 2006 06:48:00 PST

Love Who You Are

how can you love another... if you don't love yourself... how can you believe in someone else... if you can't even believe in yourself... how can you tell me to smile... when you can't even make yours...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Wed, 25 Jan 2006 04:25:00 PST

swirling in my head

all of my emotions swirling in my head... some happy...some sad...some of pain and some of happiness... when I look at different people different things happen... some of my friends that I love I reme...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Fri, 13 Jan 2006 12:41:00 PST

...ever had a secret....

Ever had a secret... that you never can tell... Ever had a secret... and it hurt you soo bad... Ever had a secret.. and it made you cry.... Ever had a secret... so you stay up all night... Ever ha...
Posted by Girl With A Million Thoughts and Nothing to Say on Tue, 06 Dec 2005 08:44:00 PST