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kotenka

Go find your smile...and be happy

About Me

i am...going to UNM (University of New Mexico) in obviously New Mexico, live in Albuquerque. I have no idea what i want to do in life, or what i want to major in in college. I want to rule the world if i ever get around to it. Being a famous actress or just an actress or something wouldn't be that bad either. i have a lil brother who's 2 years younger than me. I'm hyper, emotional, happy,obsessive-complusive, very talkative - at first you'll want me to talk because i'm a bit on the shy side, then you'll wish i just shut up lol, i love music, like going to shows, i don't do drugs, i plan on doing good at school, i like cats.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Alona, Alyona
Birthday: November 8th, 1988!!!
Birthplace: Almaty, Kazakhstan
Current Location: Albuquerque, NM
Eye Color: green/gray, they change :)
Hair Color: it changes...brownish/reddish?
Age: 19
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right!
Your Heritage: Russian
The Shoes You Wore Today: Flip Flops
Your Weakness: i don't have one!
Your Fears: losing loved ones?
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: be happy, do good in school, find love?
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol definatly gotta stop, and :) smileys
Thoughts First Waking Up: Is it the weekend yet?
Your Best Physical Feature: All of me! duh!
Your Bedtime: whenever i feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory: none
Pepsi or Coke: Coca Cola!
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither one
Single or Group Dates: single, but depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Raspberry iced tea :)
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino but depends on mood
Do you Smoke: nopes
Do you Swear: hells no!
Do you Sing: yeah all the time....then i get told to shut up
Do you Shower Daily: i try to :)
Have you Been in Love: yeah, good times
Do you want to go to College: I AM in college
Do you want to get Married: sure
Do you belive in yourself: Hells yes i do
Do you get Motion Sickness: No way, thats weak
Do you think you are Attractive: Don't you?
Are you a Health Freak: hahahahahah do you know me?
Do you get along with your Parents:
Do you like Thunderstorms: sure, it depends though
Do you play an Instrument: oh yeah...but no one gets it
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: uhhh
In the past month have you been on Drugs: is life a drug? lol
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yeah
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: ewwww no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: unfortunately not
In the past month have you been on Stage: no?
In the past month have you been Dumped: hhahahahaha def. not. i don't roll that way
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: yes :)
Ever been called a Tease: yeah
Ever been Beaten up: not that i recall
Ever Shoplifted: uhh, it was an experiment
How do you want to Die: in a pretty dress, painlessly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: whatever i want
What country would you most like to Visit: all of them
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: light eyes, but depends
Favourite Hair Color: doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair: doesn't matter, not bald, but not girly either
Height: Deffinatly taller than me
Weight: not like fat, but not like anarexic either, have some muscle!
Best Clothing Style: sk8r, or whatever you most comfy in :)
Number of Drugs I have taken: love? life?, those count?
Number of CDs I own: its all on the ipod! gee, get with the century
Number of Piercings: 3 :) ears and bellybutton!!!!!!!
Number of Tattoos: none,
Number of things in my Past I Regret: eh, regrets are for losers
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My Interests

love love love, school a little bit, friends, some music stuff, reading, whatever...talking i guess lol

I'd like to meet:

anyone cool and who's nice and caring and understanding and who is easy to talk to and doens't have anything horrible hidden in the back of their mind

Music:

Avril Lavigne, Dido, Hawthorne Heights, Counting Crows, HIM , Death Cab for Cutie, Green Day, Offspring, whoever's cd is The Wall...sorry! I forgot and don't feel like getting up to look, some classical, some techno, 3 Doors Down, Third eye blind, Dave Mathews Band is allright, Coldplay, Sum 41, Bayside, The sounds, butch walker, race the sun, silverstein, aiden, acceptance, brand new, bullet for my valentine, punchline and i dunno...a whole bunch of stuff, except for rap, hate hate hate rap mostly. OH, and also some russian music as well. Oh and In Grid. Go French music lol,

Movies:

...Lilo and Stitch, The Lion King, Day after Tomorrow, Save the last Dance, Must love Dogs, Ferris Bueller's Day off, Adam Sandler's 8 crazy nights, 50 first Dates, i like a lot of movies, pretty much anything i feel like. Action, Comedy, Romance, just gotta be in the mood to watch them.

Television:

The Simpsons, Family Guy...i dont watch much tv.

Books:

Yey for Harry Potter, THe Chronicles of Amber (awesome book!), Ender's Game series, Dune series (though they sorta get boring towards the end) any books by Tamora Pierce, pretty much fantasy and fiction with magic and stuff is a plus

Heroes:


Other than Boo, don't have a particular hero...but maybe a person that understands, knows, doesn't try to hurt, doesn't lie, someone who can be harsh but yet loved, not hated or despised by anyone. Someone who is a model leader. Loved by all. Someone that makes everyone happy. Does stuff that is necessassary but does it in a way that it's done....smoothly, softly adn no one gets hurt. Or at least not for extremely long term. In a book it was once written, if you have to hurt someone do it fast, so that the pain is quick, wouldn't you rather the cut be with a sharp knife than with a dull one? And the sharp knife cut heals quicker too, does it not? lol.

My Blog

Smile my dear, for life is Beautiful

It has been such an absolutely lovely day. I cannot think of a better time or place to be. Today has been.. perfect. I do believe that everything depends on the attitude and I don't know what it was b...
Posted by kotenka on Thu, 11 Sep 2008 10:26:00 PST

When its over, when its really over..

It was the day before our wedding, and we couldn't even look at each other."Thats it" i said. I pulled off the stinking ring and threw it at him"Fine" He quietly said.I went to our room, dumped and re...
Posted by kotenka on Sat, 19 Jan 2008 07:21:00 PST

Someday, You Will Be Loved.

I stood there looking at myself in the mirror. Specifically my back. Its strange, I could barely recognize myself now. You know the hardest and longest thing to heal is your Angel Wings, and mine were...
Posted by kotenka on Tue, 18 Sep 2007 09:10:00 PST

Just Turn Your Back and Run

"hey..." i whispered to the shadow "..Hi.." it replied with a pause "why do you follow me?" i asked in a quiet voice, slightly scared to hear the reply "maybe it is not i that follows you..but maybe y...
Posted by kotenka on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 07:48:00 PST

you're killing everything in me

simply life. we live it. we hate it. Every day i go to school, and after that i run off to work, i barely have an hour in between. i have 16 hour days, and i come home from it all and i'm dead. Spen...
Posted by kotenka on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 07:34:00 PST

there were things that used to make me smile, one of them was you for just a little while

I was packing all my belongings with complete devotion and intenstity when Jake came into the bedroom. Damn it, I thought, he wasnt supposed to be there right now! I started packing faster. Jake just ...
Posted by kotenka on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 12:18:00 PST

FRANKIE DIED JUST THE OTHER NIGHT SOME SAY IT WAS SUICIDE BUT WE KNOW HOW THE STORY GOES

    bang. bang.      I can recall one particular day in high school as if it were yesterday. Our teacher decided to start off the class by telling us not to give ...
Posted by kotenka on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 08:14:00 PST

Memories of the past always come back to haunt you.

"Hey Angel" Jake comes into our room "How are you today?". He comes into the bedroom to see me sitting on the bed with the covers pulled up to my ears. I've obviously been sitting there for a while. ...
Posted by kotenka on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 10:56:00 PST

In the press of every kiss...

That night when Jake came home from work I had dinner all ready and set up beautifully for two at the kitchen table with candles and a flower in the middle. "Hey you," I said as he came in after givin...
Posted by kotenka on Tue, 09 May 2006 07:48:00 PST

i wish that you could have seen my face...

I was at one of my favorite spots. The park. On the swing. I love swings, always have, ever since i was little. It is an absolutely wonderful place to sit down, think and review and sort out anything ...
Posted by kotenka on Thu, 04 May 2006 01:21:00 PST