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Into†the†darK

I am here for Friends and Networking

About Me

What about me? Should ask that question to the people that know me well instead.
If I can pick some words to describe myself I would have to go with...
Very Passionate
Compassionate
Sincere
Loyal
Honest
Unique
I have a understanding of these words as this is who I am. I consider myself to be rather open minded. I also consider myself a dying breed of a man that will put people I care about before me, including the willingness to give up everything or my own life.



Generic Survey 1:
The Basics
Full Name Thomas Utt
You like it? Sure
Birthdate May
Height/Weight 5' 10"..145-150lbs. Slim but still have a half way decent upper body build from when I used to workout.
Eye Color Blue
Hair Color Brown
Can you...
Drive? Yes
Drive a manual? Yes
Touch your nose with your tongue? Almost
Cook? Yes
Dance? No
Sing? When I am alone
Sew? No
Speak another language? Yes...The cussing kind
Have you ever...
Eaten sushi? Yes
Been in love? Well freaking yes
Skipped school? Who didn't
Made prank calls? No...Lame
Done illegal drugs? Long time ago
Stolen something worth more than? None
Flashed someone? No
Been drunk? Yes
Eaten squid? Not yet I do believe
Been to New York City? Once
Been to London? No
Favorite
Drink Lately here and there but I think I might quit again soon though.
Soda Whatever available
Food Stake, Mashed Potatoes, Pot Roast, etc.
Restaurant Don't have one
Color Black, Blue, red
Artist To many
Album To many
Website I have one
The Last
Person to hit you Cathy
Person you wanted to hit Clint
Person you wanted to kiss you No one
Country you've been in None
Car you've driven Ford Contor
Law you've broken Don't recall
Thing you ate Don't recall
Thing you drank Pop
Thing you said I Goodnight
Book you read Don't recall
Show you watched The Return
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The Opposite Sex:
General
Body or Face Body: slim or average. Face...How would I describe my opinion of attractive???
Looks or Personality Same as Face above! Personality I would be open to all except stuck-up trashy-slut kinds.
Height 5' - 5' 10"
Weight 100 - 150 lbs, depending on height
Hair Color Don't matter
Eye Color Don't matter
Most Important Physical Feature Well...
Good/Bad Traits
Funny Is good
Loud Hmm...Not for me
Seductive The proper term of that word meaning tempting and attractive is good but not trashy-slut like.
Quiet So - so
Tall Who cares
Short Not to short
Athletic I don’t find muscles as large as professional body builder attractive.
Fat No
Immature No
Competitive At what?
Hyper To much is to much.
Smoker Who cares
Drinker On occasions is ok. I am not into drunks here.
Smart Is a good thing
Dumb Not good
Observant Is a good thing
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Warning!
Words contained in this profile require deep thinking; tiny minds should not attempt to comprehend and those who have no soul never will.
Music, images and overall entire profile tells a story and is what I associate with.


Well apparently I am still popping in here from time to time. My apologies if I have not been too social lately.


It’s not what one can do for one’s self but what one can do for others. When the time comes to part from this world is when only but a few one will truly be missed, as to the kind of person they had chosen to be. Even fewer is when one will truly be missed if such time here was that of always being a bitter, selfish and inconsiderate person toward others. Spend one’s limited time on this earth wisely.
And try to feel...
Then again why would one care when one has already died inside, just existing, never really alive at all; hollow, an empty shell from beginning till their inevitable end. The question begs to wonder in what was the point in anything...RIGHT???


Broken dreams long gone
A life of once was
Now a distant blur
All that remains
Is realities nightmare


All words are of my own unless otherwise clearly quoted.
As like for example:
“Lets stop saying don’t quote me because know one quotes you, you probably haven’t had a thing worth saying”
(KMFDM - Dogma)


The unfortunate reality of free will... the evil within to sin in cyberspace!

I am a real person on the other end of this cyberspace. These words are my own with meaning. I don’t say these things if I don’t mean them. So if one is phoney because of in ones delusions one can be and play a pretend person in here, for cyberspace is not real, so therefore one don’t have to be and if this is you reading this then stop reading right here, right now, and get your phoney ass the fuck off my profile!
If one can be a phony in here they can be phony in the real world. Also if one acts in a manner that is considered to their integrity to be questionable in cyberspace then so is ones integrity in the real world.
Only real people are welcome!


I read a question somewhere as to why does a rose represents love when it dies?
Maybe the question its self contains the answer from within. The fact that like the cut rose from its roots given to someone in time withers and dies; that it represents as to love, in time it will also wither and die.
A dead rose for the dead heart.
RIP...rest in pieces.


There is beauty underneath the misery, love before the hurt and good behind the flaws!


Expand the mind, open the heart and feel the soul then one can see the truth!


It is astounding how this world is the way that it is when the people in it are the way they are. I will never understand the insanity of most actions in one's delusions as to what one lacks as to what is morally right.
I just can’t stand it anymore!
With all the shit I have witnessed in my life I have come to the conclusion that all too often people are dishonest, disloyal, deceitful, disrespectful, & materialistic when it comes to their relationships. The ones that choose to not think of the one they are with and chose to think of only of themselves are selfish. How can one look at them selves in the mirror when one treats others as such with little or no regards to the one they are with? It is beyond me and I don’t want anything to do with people that have this kind of demeanor.
Plenty of souls to burn if one don’t change their direction in this world!!!
It takes mutual love & respect for a couple to stay together. It takes the undying love of both. Anything less is futile and is destined to fail.


There are many sides to a person and one should not judge someone based on one's faults. You just might be surprised as to all of the good qualities you may choose to overlook that could be in such a person.


I have been told that I think too much, over analyze things. Well I think that people don’t think and analyze enough. The dangers of over analyzing are to find the source of an issue, a solution to a problem, a truth to the untruth. If one is to think as to a situation, that sometimes in ones decisions maybe for what may seem to be for good intentions don’t necessarily make it morally the right thing to do. To avoid one or oneself to analyze a situation is to except for less then the truth or perhaps even a lie!


One should live up to and be true behind their statements whether it is verbal and or written. Such words will forever be left with an imprint in ones memory and perhaps love in ones heart that may brighten ones soul!!!
Think before you speak and or write for once it is spoken and or written it can not be unspoken and or unsent.
If one can’t be true behind there statements whether it is verbal and or written then don’t make such statements at all. Such words will forever be left with an imprint in ones memory and perhaps a scar on ones heart that may darken ones soul!!!


"Keep braking the shame
Take away all I wanna say
Regretting the day you don’t believe in me
Ill show you just what you want to see...The end in me”
(MUSHROOMHEAD – Simple Survival)


Can't undo choices made from the past. It is the choices one makes in the present with lessons learned from the past that defines you.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:


God (if there is such a thing)! We need to have a long talk!





I can't stress enough as to how much I cannot tolerate:

Dishonesty
Disloyalty
Deceitful
Disrespectful
Materialistic
Betrayal
Cheaters

If you fall into any of these categories then move along, I don’t care to know you.









If I could go back in time would I change things? If I say yes, then I would be someone else, with a different mind, heart and soul. The trials of my life had made me -- ME!





I want to thank all my new friends here. I cherish each and everyone of you.

When one door closes another opens!





Am I put here on this earth to suffer so that I may show the errors of others ways, while I recognize my own as well? If such the case then I guess my life would indeed have some meaning but I wonder when my time is to come when I can have happiness. Having the intuition and the knowledge of the sins and evils of humanity, perhaps I can better myself and others along the way, while diligently to try not to become the considerably greater number of the living dead.





I still don’t know what I did as to where God may have forsaken me! Perhaps like the concept of true love, or that one for me, a soul mate, as like God it is all just a myth!

The struggle of me, struggling to believe!





Note: Please understand that I do not want comments/statements that are sexually explicit in nature. I care as to how I might be perceived to be something I am not. I try to think of people’s feelings first as to how I would like to be treated and or respected. Any such content and or statements mentioned will be removed.

Thanks for your understanding!



Do you get it???

So after reading my entire profile, (if you did), have I got you thinking? Do you see the message contained within? I spelled it out in words and artistically well, or for some do I need to speak a different language!

Please excuse my sarcasm!

I will give you a hint: the beauty, internal darkness, pain/hurt, faith and the struggle, and the chains that binds.

What scars our hearts...and such poisons that tarnish the soul!!!

















My Blog

FDIC needs to borrow from banks

Now the FDIC needs to borrow from banks... LOL: Can you say Great Depression 2 Look; most people are arguing over capitalism and socialism, just like over the two the party of republicans and democr...
Posted by on Tue, 22 Sep 2009 21:40:00 GMT

Free from nothing

Think we are a civilized speciesknowing what is right from wrong?We build monuments of our unfailing failuresto worship suffering and death.Religions formed by factions of mancreated to induce fear an...
Posted by on Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:52:00 GMT

Broken me

I have too many problems to facephysically, financially and others.And I dont know where I am heading in life or what it is I am going to do;I am not someone to be with right nowand I dont know if I...
Posted by on Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:39:00 GMT

I AM

The very thing I fear is what I create.I am a product of all the hate.Take from anyone of what I want;nothing of what I truly need.You know what I am;blinded by greed. I am motivated by blind faith;a ...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:53:00 GMT

Just like you

Now that I know you,see who you are.All so-familiar this story is,when I walked through your door.Your help came with contingencesthat your delusional concept of love could come to be,but you laid aga...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:48:00 GMT

The Prayer

Day one I looked upon theewith these eyes.And with every breath came the stench of death;along with the liesI regret baring witnessto the selfishness and greed of humanity.In the name of a mythical sa...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:45:00 GMT

You

Think you are right in the headwhile you lay awake in your bed;well I have some news for you.Monkey see monkey do,your parents are just like you.I see you inherited their many traits.So pretend you ar...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:37:00 GMT

Wishing it all away

To see beyond pain from within this cold dream.Staring into the abyss within this heart;looking endlesslyInto the darKI am haunted by memories that will never die.From beyond the shadows;no longer the...
Posted by on Tue, 31 Mar 2009 02:05:00 GMT

Reinsert the cold

Once again, running for the door;have to disconnect from caring too much.Need to reinsert the cold.From somewhereInto the darKI search for the words todescribe the pain from inside.I once again know l...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:10:00 GMT

Just a dream

I had this overwhelming sensationto put a stop to all the madness,and to my determination,found a way to end the pain,as I fell to the ground. I saw a familiar figurelying there on the floor;I thought...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Dec 2008 17:29:00 GMT