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e = m c ²

*death wish*

About Me

Well I'm just a homo-sapiens that live out my life to the simplest way that I could reached. Maybe there were times I came across where I began to wonder, what the hell I'm doing here. What are the things I've already accomplished and the things that I really need to persuade. I used to hypnotizing and did a really weighted assessments on myself. I love to pressure myself to achieve something in order to excel in life. I love poetry, graphics and anything related to arts. My life had been just another epic book that been read by other people and kept on flipping to the end that i never had any idea of it. There are few things that really important in my life and I really loves those things. The first and foremost is my izah, than my "brotherhood of kepong", next will be my band "Naratu" and "Black Territory" owh before that I was in ob - connector,disposal, shadow assassin, maybe one day (awaken), day of the dead and man of sin. my friends said i'm psycho emo huge my Izah called me pa, papa, baby, bebeh, sayang and b. i believe none of us really acted the way we should be because most of us really fake in acting. i also believe life should be enjoyed the way it should be.in a way that we decided it. I remember what my late grandfather always told me .what really defines you are how well you get up after a great fall .I've learned that we didn't acquired lesson through all the class we attended, thousand of books that we have read and even lectures from the great gurus, but we obtain lesson in our life through experience, sadness and joyful moment in our everyday life. I held up my head high and proud of whom I am today .So, here I am today, stood 176cm height, weight around 100kg, cute (because that is what everybody have described me), got master in business of administration in UPM and now pursuing my ambition to obtain doctorate before age 30 (at least I have proved to my ex-teacher that I have something called brain up here in my skull). A beautiful queen of my heart Izah (hopefully she realizes it) that I really loves till I die and whole bunch of friends that willing to raise their arms with me in the battlefield and at last but not least my family! So Guys and Girls! Maybe this is boring because it seems to be so normal!! But dont worry, one day you will realize it
1. photo blogs
2. my friendster
3. cerpen: aku dan dia
4. my 360 yahoo! page

My Blog

*hardest thing*

it's been awhile i did not had any jam session with my band *naratu* due to my illness. hopefully i will recover soon. need to scream my lung out. iyeahhhhhhhhh ! i will be back in action !! ;%
Posted by e = m c ² on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 07:09:00 PST

it's pain

well, last 2 days i've been detected with asthma as addition to my diabetes and internal problem. one thing for sure why GOD punished me like this? why don't HE just take my life. it really felt to li...
Posted by e = m c ² on Thu, 31 Aug 2006 12:57:00 PST

secret !

Luahan Rasa (aku rasa ramai tak tahu) hari ini entah untuk ke berapa kali aku cuba bunuh diri aku, cuba untuk melenyapkan apa yang aku rasa di dalam. hari ini juga entah ke berapa ratus kali aku cuba...
Posted by e = m c ² on Thu, 31 Aug 2006 01:07:00 PST

happy

she comeback to me ! she comeback to me ! i felt so happy
Posted by e = m c ² on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 02:35:00 PST

self-destructive

i'm tearing apart .. down with all the memories of 4 1/2 years with "her" .. set me free please from this feelings.
Posted by e = m c ² on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 06:57:00 PST

Currently

i felt lose .. trying to stand still to my convictions that these feelings are not for real. the more i tried the more empty i felt. it's endless. i really miss her.   *sigh...
Posted by e = m c ² on Sun, 06 Aug 2006 12:01:00 PST

Miserable

last night, i took a very risky action by saying to my Izah that i had to left her since she do not want to change her attitude. how can a man can belive with her girl if both of them really contras i...
Posted by e = m c ² on Wed, 02 Aug 2006 04:01:00 PST

+Themes+

AmyTiada Lagi sia - sia sudah kita jalin cinta jikalau hati sering berbedaSampai kapan lagiAku harus menahanRasa kecewa di dalam dadaSeandainya kita masih bersatuTak mungkinkan menyatuWalau masi...
Posted by e = m c ² on Wed, 02 Aug 2006 04:05:00 PST

Kisah Benar Aku

kisah benar aku 1998 - masok matrikulasi sains fizik UPM 1999 - first year degree bacelor sains (kepujian) fizik            KOSASS (kolej ke - 7) Kol...
Posted by e = m c ² on Sat, 02 Sep 2006 03:06:00 PST

Gig

2 flyers from 1994. an old skool glance through ! ...
Posted by e = m c ² on Sat, 02 Sep 2006 07:48:00 PST