I'd like to meet:

BENJI MADDEN

About me

If you are the kind of person who is gonna judge me and label me 'cause of my style or my way of thinking than please do not waste your time. I do not need your consideration to live better.

ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME.Im very shy. Im totally crazy. Im paranoid. Im obsessive. Im afraid of loneliness. Im afraid of crowd. Im afraid of the dark. I dont believe in my self. Im masochist and pessimist. Im a bit suicidal. Im a sinner.
My life is made of dreams, dreams that are unattainable..however sometimes it is dreams that seem to be the reason for which I'm [.still.] alive today. I’ve got many goals to reach...but little time to reach them...I just can't get use to...
Beautiful thing are just to far from my life...Simply a waste of time; how can I be happy when it only takes me a second to find suffurance?? I stare into his eyes...and everything has no more sense...
* Apathy * and * indifference * is what I’m feeling now, and what I wanna feel...tears have stopped dropping, because they fall and then ||fade|| like snow...
Im sick and tired of this so called life, without rooms to breathe...am I the only one who finds no peace??
I won’t fight more. Im afraid. Thats the truth. Maybe [.afraid.] of being alone...or maybe just scared of life. Although I know Im feeling good in this PAIN.. ‘Cuz I got used about disappointments of life...
Perfection has many faces...sometimes it’s hard to find, but when you get it obscures everything...And all is so dulled...
I know one day you will forget about me, but just do not forget all the pain I feel inside...you will not remember my face...my name...you will forget of my existence...but I will remember about you forever...
This world sucks. People are fake. Hypocritical. Envious. So fool...I hate ignorance. I hate people who think they are better than any other people. I hate people who think they know me and told me what I have to do, but nobody really know me...not even myself.
But now it’s too late. What happened just happened. Events changed my life, because they found this soul so weak and faint...and made the girl that now I am...so apathetic and unhappy.
One day you may regret this...but perhaps you will forget it after a while. You may will be told my name twice, because people come and pass...or maybe you will not care at all, because too shut up in your egoism...
This is a place where everybody looks the same...people just stare but cannot see...millions die and no one cares...
THIS IS THE PLACE THAT WE HAVE BUILT. Despite this I’m still alive. There’s something helps me everyday and gives me the courage and the strength to face this reality...

R.I.P. i miss you Heath ♥

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-I Love You-

Assolo SHIN, 18/12/08 - ROME