.ethan.

I'll tell you what it's like, that is, when I find out for myself.
There are many things you can think about while lying in your bed at a psychiatric unit. You could be productive and think about how you are going to deal with your stressors when you get out, or you can be counter productive and think about ways to end your life when you get out. Obviously, I took the first route, because I am still here. I've come a long way from being the person I was two weeks ago. It seems odd, but honestly, with the time I was given alone, I really had almost too much time to think, but I used my time wisely. The first thing I realized is that no matter how mature I am, I will always have some maturing to do, and while in said psychiatric unit, I came to the conclusion that I haven't even completed half of my journey towards full blown maturity, if that is even a possible task. The second thing I realized is that I do not need a higher power to believe in, because I have found that higher power in my best friend. She basically takes a piece of the sun, and uses it to light up my life, and boy does she take a big chunk! I love you Monica. The third thing I realized is that if I keep myself occupied most of the time, there is really much less time to be depressed, and thinking about it, I have a bunch of things and people to live for. I've got my music, my father, my friends, my puppy, and most importantly of course, myself. I am much more than just a grain of sand on the beach. I am the tidal wave that wipes the sand away, and I am proud of that. I'm Ethan, and I hope I don't disappoint you.
I/M me!: epiconstage
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Monica, when I will always be around to give you one of my amazing hugs while kicking babies with you<3
Monica.......ahh! I'm trying to type this but my mind is filled with smiles and memories that just can't be written down, but I will try my best! You have been the most amazing best friend I have ever had, and I know you will always be the best. I honestly look up to you (no matter how short you are) as a person who can make any persons life worth living, because neptune knows you have kept me alive throughout the past year. We have experienced heartbreaks and headaches in the past, but I am glad, because we have spent them helping each other out. We have the exact same sense of humor and I cherish that almost as much as I cherish your love. Monica, although you may not know it, you have saved my life numerous times. In fact, in the past, there have been times when I have been on the brink of just totally loosing it (I spelt that wrong just for you!) and just thinking of how you would feel helped me put down the razor and pick up the phone. Honestly, I know you don't think so, but you even saved me life the sunday before I went away. It is heartbreaking to see you cry, especially knowing that I have caused those tears, but at the same time, the fact that you were crying shows how much you care, and I will NEVER again take that for granted. If I am living for anyone aside from myself, It is definitely you, and trust me, I am living for you. You make me smile when I feel choked up on the inside. Just looking at that beautiful smile and those big gorgeous eyes makes me want to hug the snot out of you! I know that I won't do anything that stupid again because if I do, I would lose the most important person in my life. Living isn't appropriate without you. You have shown me love, the real thing. I thought I would go through life searching for a higher power to stay with me forever, but I realized, I have found that in you, and I know I will never lose you. You are the north star to me, because you always direct me back to my sanity. You are the brightest star, the sun, because you light my life up more than anyone can. You are the oxygen that fills my lungs and keeps me from speaking, but know this, not even a full breath of air can keep me from saying these words: I love you best friend, and I always will!<333.
Pfft. AW YEAH. Pfft. YEAH. LINCOLNMON! party foul! Bershkabersh PORK PORK PORK! Ohhh, i get it more! .......woah. such a shame, that was a really nice shelf. We will never sleep, cause sleep is for the weak! and we will never rest, till we all make our beds! i like my DICK, because, well, i caught two fish with it! OH MY GOD PEW PEW POWEY!!!
Vinceee<3