paul

many people who know me can say i'm a good friend... to those people i'm very open... from the way i act around them ppl don't know that i'm actually a really shy person, but that's cause good friends bring out the best in me. oh and on top of being shy i'm a very anxious person. i'm really nice to those i like and have gotten to know. i won't approach anyone new they would have to iniate something first, otherwise i tend to keep to myself. hate pictures (mostly cause i look like crap in them... THEY STEAL YOUR SOUL... j/k)... but really.. they're cool and all but i just don't like how i look... i'm very self critical. emotions are all i got even though they're what keeps me at night sometimes. i like to keep things pushed to the back of my mind for there's always a time and place for certain things. i don't like to be a burden to others, especially my family and friends. have yet to be successful with the whole thing on love (from the looks of things won't be for a while). i found that no matter how badly you love someone, unless you know for sure of their feelings for you, acting on your own can lead to all sorts of trouble... so i decided to just let mine sit aside and wonder what will become of it, mostly for fear of the consequences for displaying my true feelings, but that's another story. i love sweets. best thing is ice-cream and cookies, people can make fun and ask if i'm pregnant or something when they see me eating out of the ice-cream box. meeting someone cool is an adventure (for me that's a rarity for obvious reasons). i love anime. they often exhibit things that i wish would happen to in real life, but i know only happens in the fictituous realm. love the drawings of anime and tried to do some of my own... didn't work out that great, but doesn't stop me from appreciating others' talent with it and the stories that they come up with. RANDOMNESS is the best thing in life... as you can see i'm a very odd person (i've tried to get help ... i swear! _maybe not that great of help_). i'm just a scared little kid looking for fun and excitement and people to share it with. i'm not always the one in search for it, someone would have to bring me to it and i would just join in. i would do anything for a good friend. never been on a plane, but had a roadtrip through most of the west coast states. would love to travel somewhere exciting with a special someone when the time is right.

if patience is a virtue ... then i'm a very, very virtuous person

me when i don't have my internet