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.Emilia

One person can make a difference, and -everyone- should try. "

About Me


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They call me free.
I don't define myself by what people tell me; I define myself by the truth. Our opinions won't change what is real - we all live in a 'world' we choose. Sure, things can always get worse, but they can always get better, too. That's the part we have to create for ourselves.
Use the formula, the earth has simple programming.------------------------------------------------ --------------Refuse to doubt.------------------------------------------------------ --------
I do my best not to offend people, (can't be good at everything, they say) but I'm not afraid of honesty, even though the truth hurts.
------------------------------------------------------I won’t apologize for who I am.
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I'm getting better at explaining myself.
I guess my gears don't turn in the sequence that other people's do. We are all blind to our own reflections without the sight of others.
High school-style drama and juvenile revenge games (and the people in-between) make me [rather] sick . High school stayed with age sixteen.
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...I'm not as xXx straightedge as I seem...
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.Contra Mundum
(because death is the only constant.) And I believe in conspiracy.
I am very analytical and I sometimes I forget to breathe.
FifeL is one of my favorite words. Click it.
poke me here! Still working on customizing it...
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You're either on it, or you haven't tried it.
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I am an addict.
I am also contagious.
Don't judge the circus by the tent.
Meanwhile,

en j oy the sho w .

Drop me a line.
---------------------- ---------------------- ----------------------"Life has only lived to die, while death has died to live; and so, in death we find out life won't matter, once we've lived."
Thanks for reading.
* . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . If I lay here. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. if I just lay here.. . .. . .. . .. . .. . .. . .. . .. . .. . .. would you lie with me . . . . . . . . . and just forget the world? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . hey there delilah. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . -
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My Interests

I l i ke art. memories. creativity. :)Snowboarding.:) intiative. Awkward moments . poetry of certain sorts. malls. movies. smoothies. shows. theatrical plays! shadows . echoEs. artichokes. music (but I'm terrible with names, so please be patient with me). footsteps . shrooms (for their artistic value and diversity). hands. heartbeats. RealMusic . black. wind. food, but not eating. my job♥ . antique pianos. trees. hair. singing. swimming. granola. children's books . high heels . DGH. smoothies. blood-red lilies. and white ones. sunsets. dancing (or trying to). jewelry (purchase/ design/ production/ sale). dead animal bones. body art & sharpie tattoos. learning. jeans. butterflies. listening. eyes (& brown eyes esp). and I almost forgot - smoothies.
believing in the impossible. ---------------------------
I very much so dislike ~ Hypocrisy. Selfish and Controlling Individuals. Peas. Meddlers. Yellow . Gossip and 'busy-bodies'. Cooked Mushrooms. my knees. Anything food that is Pig. Over-cooked Vegetables. Excessively judgmental people. Pink .I'm trying to be open about many things, and I think that if you have the gumtion to ask, you deserve an answer (provided that it is mine to tell).
So- Ask you may.

I'd like to meet:

Dead People.
Rich Mullins, God rest his soul.
Dr. Seuss.
My grandpa, that lies facing every southern California sunset.
Edgar Allen Poe.
And Dr. Dobson, but he's not dead yet, and of course, neither is -

Ron Paul.

Vote someone.
People that don't take life as it comes.
For Others, see my heroes section.
_It is not always the absence of love
_That makes me seem alone.
_Often it's been too much love
_Given to me by the wrong people
_For the wrong reasons
_That keeps me here,
_Gladly alone,
_Rather than have the life sucked
_Out of me by the violent needs
_Of other minds and bodies.

That does not mean
______That I'm ungrateful.
But I am sad.
Not to be able to put my arms
Around those who truly loved me
And give them something more
Than polite indifference.
___Oh, how I tried.
___I think they should know
_______I tried.
And I choose to be alone
Rather than wrapped in arms
I could never need.

"Wrong Reasons"
.Merrit Malloy_

I write sins, not tragedies.
Slow motion, see me let go.

Since I started retail , I've lost my fear of HELL.

Babies are born in the same places people go to pass away.
I live life without pretending
I’m a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the Lemonade.
I'm fixin a hole where the rain gets in, to stop my mind from wandering...

Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,
A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
Towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
And she's gone.
Lucy in the sky with diamonds. Diamonds.
Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain
Where rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies,
Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers,
That grow so incredibly high.
Newspaper taxis appear on the shore,
Waiting to take you away.
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds,
And you're gone.
. Lucy in the Sky with diamonds. Diamonds.
Picture yourself on a train in a station,
With plasticine porters with looking glass ties,
Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile,
The girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

The machines couldn't decide -what- to make chicken taste like, which is why chicken tastes like everything.
The Watch
Frances Cornford (1886-1960)
I wakened on my hot, hard bed,
Upon the pillow lay my head;
Beneath the pillow I could hear
My little watch was ticking clear.
I thought the throbbing of it went
Like my continual discontent;
I thought it said in every tick:
I am so sick, so sick, so sick;
O death, come quick, come quick, come quick,
Come quick, come quick, come quick, come quick.

This next one is my all-time favorite poem...

there will come soft rains,
and the smell of the ground
and swallows circling with their shimmering sound
and frogs in the pools, singing at night
and wild plum trees in tremulous white
robins will wear their red-breasted fire,
whistling their whims on a low fence-wire
and not one will know of the war, not one
will care at last when it is done
not one would mind, neither bird nor tree
if mankind perished utterly
and Spring herself, when she awoke at dawn,
would scarcely know that we were gone.
There will Come Soft Rains, Sara Teasdale

Music:

Yes...

Why should the fire die
My mom and dad kept theirs alive
It's early yet, don't say goodnight
I know in time you'll be all right
You're shining still behind the clouds
Saying I won't figure you out
It might be true, but let me try
And try and try for the rest of my life
I'm not scared of being alone
I'm not scared of being alone, being alone
I'm just happier being confused
Beside the fire, as long as it's with you
Why should the fire die
My mom and dad kept theirs alive
It's getting late, she says goodnight
I fall asleep, I'll be all right

Movies:

Haven't seen them.

Television:

ONCE you've done without it, it interests you less. I'll watch pretty much anything, but that's why I don't really like tv. It's a waste of time, I don't have enough of it to do what I need to do anyway.
Samurai Jack (before they ran out of episodes)
'Danger Mouse' (do you know that one?)
'Barnyard Commandos' - ho yeah.
But The original Pink Panther will always be cool to me. Invader Zim
and Friends .
and The Office.

Books:

Not in any order, excluding, of course, the first.A SEPARATE PEACE, John Knowles.

My Song to Him Who Never Sang to Me, Merrit Malloy..Chronicles of Narnia..the ' My Father's Dragon ' series. Ruth Stiles Gannett..Cricket at Time Square. George Seldon..When We Were Very Young . A.A. Milne. MOUSE SOUP . Arnold Lobel.. Mort. Terri Pratchett. awesome..To Kill a Mockingbird (I actually haven't read this one)
SpARkNoTES.com!!!
.to the other side and back again. sylvia brownAuthors now... (no order) Emily Dickinson. Edgar Allen Poe. Thimbles . Sylvia Plath. e.e.cummings. Robert Frost. Anne Frank, Frank Peretti. Mary Hanes. Patricia and Richard Scarry. Beatrix Potter.

Heroes:

people that don't worry about what they can't change. people that genuinely smile in the bad times. people that believe in me, and in themselves. people that care about what I have to say - and listen. those that have not deserted me when I sought comfort. those who choose to understand, because they help create peace. people that hate yellow as much as I do. ^_~ and by the way, this is orange.
MUFFIN . 'Cause he's just awesome, and I love him.
..Thimbles. For reminding me of what I don't want to become. This is not an insult, it means a blessing.

My Blog

.bits of me

After I do these, I remember why don't like them. But! Thats why they're here  in the blogs, and not the bulletins.1. What's in the back seat of your car?I don't even remember. I have barely driv...
Posted by .Emilia on Sat, 15 Sep 2007 09:19:00 PST

Speechless.

I'd just like to tell you... that I've nothing to say.
Posted by .Emilia on Fri, 22 Dec 2006 01:06:00 PST

Artist?

This is dedicated to several of you. Artist? you are salty liberty scars embracing        &nb sp; humble pain; dark depressions 'neath my eyes and on the canvas ...
Posted by .Emilia on Thu, 11 May 2006 12:25:00 PST

we all have walls...

You are walking through a forest; any forest you please - be it redwoods or swamp or broadleaf trees - any kind of ground cover, any kind of sky, if you can see it; imagine yourself there, walking in ...
Posted by .Emilia on Fri, 07 Apr 2006 01:29:00 PST

birthday blues

birthdays suck. it was my birthday today, and I'm glad that not many people noticed. I'm seventeen, believe it or not... ... ... ... ... ... ...i'm getting old. :P I haven't done anything really inte...
Posted by .Emilia on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 08:40:00 PST

i'm back

haha! I'm back! I forgot to tell you - but don't be deceived, I'm still very busy - yep, schedule's packed and over flowing with beautiful, boring, nothingness.  I hope to catch up on all my rela...
Posted by .Emilia on Sun, 12 Feb 2006 12:04:00 PST

going away...

Well, I picked up my diploma last friday - I'm officially graduated!!! yep, and now I'm going to go up to my Aunt Sam's house for a while... 2-4 weeks. (I fly tomorrow.) ((For those of you who haven...
Posted by .Emilia on Thu, 12 Jan 2006 01:42:00 PST

religion

Is there a God? What do you think?
Posted by .Emilia on Sun, 16 Oct 2005 11:00:00 PST

babbling

Well, life seems to be getting better and worse.  Better in the sense that my attitude about all the crap has improved, worse in the sense that the crap just keeps coming.  Does it stop? Eve...
Posted by .Emilia on Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:26:00 PST

funness!

1.What is the geekiest part of your music collection? Music collection?? What is this "music collection"? (i.e. I am so poor in the way of music)   2. What do you eat when you raid the fridg...
Posted by .Emilia on Tue, 30 Aug 2005 04:58:00 PST