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Hmm... Me...What to say...what to type... I am not that usual but not that unusual. I have a kid who is 5. He is probably the only reason that I am alive. He's everything to me. I fuck up everyday and I dont do much to change that. That is the sad truth. I do love my son no matter what anyone thinks. And yes I am the master of bad decisions. I have become bitter and old like the beer we found on nassau. (if you know what im talking about your an old friend) i dont have many friends but the ones i do have i would die for. i stay confused and lost but i refuse to buy a map. I let everyone down at one point but they still hold out hope for me. I guess what im trying to say is im your typical outcast kid who never grew up...go figure. Ive had a lot of things happen this last year and i have seen myself hit the bottom a time or two. but hopefully i will overcome everything bad and see the rainbow. but its still raining so who knows. All I do know is that I can't give up, and not because of me not at all because if that were the case I would have given up a long time ago. No, i hold on for my son, because he is my strength. And yeah he isnt with me right now but he will be and when he is he will understand and know its not because of my lack of love for him that he wasn't with me because i have more love for him that even i thought was possible to feel. And now when I thought that love was just a pretty myth on tv and in books i find myself so in love with a person. and everyday i am so amazed at how strong our love has become. He has pushed me to get my life together. he has made me a better person than i ever thought i could be. everyday i fall more in love and i hope he feels the same way. and no matter what everyone says we are doing good and we will not let bullshit or people pull us apart because we know where our relationship stands and what is in our hearts.