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carol*darling

you told me what you believed i wanted to hear..... all i ever wanted and deserved was the truth.

About Me

Yes, about me: "What I lack in natural ability, I make up in discipline. I believe that everyone should embrace everything thrown their way. Whatever it is. The more you resist, the more struggles within yourself you’ll have. Once you learn to embrace and accept things the way they are, life gets so much easier. I’m a huge, HUGE learner of life. I can’t get enough, I overindulge in learning and experiencing it. Oh and I also believe that everything DOES happen for a reason. I have a better relationship with God now than I've ever had before that I thank him every night and every morning, for everything, good or bad. And my passion in life is my family, I will do anything for them. I'm also very honest. So be careful before you ask. I see my life in 5 year increments. But whatever happens in-between is the best part. I REALIZE I HAVE THE ABILITY TO WRITE MY LIFE STORY AND I'D BE DAMNED IF IT ISN'T A BEST SELLER. Someone once asked me "why are you always smiling?" My reply : "why not?" cd
This Poem was found written on a wall in Mother Teresa's home for children in Calcutta:
People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered... Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives... Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies... Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you... Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight... Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous... Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten... Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough... Give your best anyway.
In the final analysis, it is between you and God.It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Teresa
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My Interests

sn. italy. balance. flip flops. laughing..especially for no particular reason. french fries. vanilla-scented anything. intimate dinners. leopard print. faith. hugs. oversized sunglasses. gazing into the eyes of a person and actually feeling who they really are. traveling. happiness. savoring the first bite of creme brulee...yum. diamonds. pearls. a good joke. gerber daises. roller skating. sarcasm. warm summer nights. stimulating conversations. a glass of wine. cheese plates. a head massage. baking cupcakes. manifestation. COMPASSIONATE people. flannel pj's. observing a shooting star and immediately closing my eyes to make my wish, pedicures. anticipation. romantic comedies. meditation. spirituality. happily ever after. hello kitty underwear. karma. listening to the ocean. people watching. shopping. And last but not least, synchronisity.

I'd like to meet:

I love people who are compassionate, inspiring, intoxicating, fun, lovable, amazing, passionate, wonderful, positive, open-minded, trust your instinct and go with it kind of people. People who know what they want and go for it, are not afraid to say whats on their minds and ask for things they want/need. People who know that making mistakes is apart of growing and can't wait to make their next one to learn from it. strong, confident, seductive, enticing, trustworthy, respectful people and especially...

Whoever gets this poem:

The Awakening A time comes in your life when you finally get it .………... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying, or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears, and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change…..... or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that no one is really Prince Charming or Cinderella, and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you ... and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ……... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself ……... and in the process, a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you), and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean, or mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own, and to take care of yourself …..... and in the process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties ….. and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the junk you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you should weigh, what you should wear, what you should do for a living, how much money you should make, what you should drive, how and where you should live, who you should marry, the importance of having and raising children, and what you owe your parents, family, and friends. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are, and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with ….... and in the process, you learn to go with your instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing, and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything, and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries, and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn to look at relationships as they really are, and not as you would want them to be. You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes. And you learn that alone does not mean lonely. You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK…..... and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things you want ... and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect, and you won't settle for less. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty, and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve ... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need direction, discipline, and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone...and that it's OK to risk asking for help. You learn the only thing you must truly fear is the greatest robber baron of all: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens, you can handle it, and to give in to fear, is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood, and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong, and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, and a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself, and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart, and God by your side you take a stand, You take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can. This is what life is truly all about. author unknown

Music:

anything and everything. I like it all.

Movies:

Ghost. Titanic. A Walk to Remember. Big. Goonies. Pretty Woman. Scarface. Casino. 13 going on 30 (Matt: I've always loved you Jenna.) Melted, absolutely melted. The Last Samurai. Garden State. Moulin Rouge. Old Skool. American History X. 25th hour. Finding Nemo. Half Baked. SuperTroopers. Anchorman. Face-off. Serendipity. anything Adam Sandler. Shopgirl. The Notebook. In her Shoes. Hustle n Flow. Lord of War. Juno and Pride and Prejudice(sigh).

Television:

lost.

Books:

The Bible. Joel Olsteen. Steven E. John Grisham. Wally Lamb. John Steinbeck. Tom Hopkins. Napoleon Hill. Zig Ziglar. Jim Rohn. Leo Tolstoy. Thich Nhat Hanh. Yes, I love to read.

Heroes:

To those whom inspire me: G.O.D, C.O., S.T., S.E., M.O.M., D.A.D. I thank you with all my heart.

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Quotes I love

"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you will become"- anonymous"There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a ...
Posted by carol*darling on Sun, 16 Dec 2007 03:47:00 PST

I Feel Sick

I'm nervous. I've never posted a real blog, but here goes, Laurie I'm pretty sure you're probably reading this and you know already darling. Tomorrow is my birthday, I'm turning a quarter of a c...
Posted by carol*darling on Sat, 18 Feb 2006 03:57:00 PST