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LANAZAPAM

I don't break hearts.....I tear them apart........

About Me

ITS ALL SEX, DRUGS AND ROCK N' ROLL BABY...........I hate to admit it but I'm a fool for love...a hopeless romantic, I've been beat down, broke down, down and out...all of this made me a better person....(so thank you, assholes..)....I used to believe in a thing called LOVE....now I believe in Rock n' Roll....it saved my soul.... I 've got more FAITH than George Micheal... I'll always be a dreamer...a beleiver....an army of one..... I'm a dead on LEO.....mad passionate..INTENSE....stubborn at times...Been called crazy more than once....I call it genius...so...FUCK YOU...I don't believe in organization or any type of authority...that shit makes me nervous. ...I do believe in nature, the elements....In fact I based my religion on it....Im strong...a little tough.....Heahter said I was like diamond with a jagged edge....(that's so hottt).....and at just under 5'1", I can still kick your ass....and probably drink you right under the table....

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My Interests

....anything that keeps me interested for more than 5 minutes...ie....Palhainuk novels, re-writing my life story over and over, doing hair, experimenting, all activities must include laughing, singing in my shower/car, debating, STYLE, FASHION, sleeping...zzzz.....dreaming, designing clothes, Glitta N' Glam, loud music, weed, my true friends 3...I'd be lost without ya, honesty, trust, late afternoon cocktails, dancing around in my underwear......fishnet stockings, being racy, over the top, defining scandalous, hott photo shoots, being the female James Bond, giving meaning to " MEGERA di MEZZANOTE", leading and not following, believing in Insanity, creating standards, re-inventing genius over and over, taking over the world, ......and most importantly...FAITH. Uninterests include.....ignorance, hate, politics, pity, lying, stealing, dishonesty, fakes, phonies, bad hair, bad outfits, shitty music, pop stars, MEAT, the T....and any type of authority.

I'd like to meet:

I already met the man of my dreams, all we needed was a little patience, now I can't wait to meet our beautiful son....

Music:

The BOSS, GnR, HIM, ATDI, INXS, INC, VNV, NIN, BAD, The Mars Volta, Distillers, Massive Attack, Tricky, Outkast, Clash, Gen X, Bowie, Bauhaus, Cure, Pretenders, Elliot Smith, Tom Waits, Vines, Interpol, Fischerspooner, London After Midnight, Snoop, Front 242, OURS, My Bloody Valentine 3, Deadsy, Iggy POP, Strummer, Social D, MANSON, Mazzy Star, Strokes, Sonic Youth, Stiff Little Fingers, T- Rex, Morrissey, Lou Reed and the Velvet Underground, Wilhelm Scream, The Exit, At the Gtaes, ...Trail of Dead, The Killers, The Walkmen, The Arcade Fire, She wants Revenge, Placebo, The Secret Machines, Misfits, PInkerton Thugs, KASABIAN, Transplants, Rancid, boston PUNK....Side Effects, These Lies, Dropkicks, Ducky Boys, Unseen, Big D, Unscarred, Breathe, The Eleventh Hour, Lost City Angels, Blood for Blood

Movies:

All time favorite movie...American Psycho... Anything DeNiro, Cusak, V.Vaughn, 80's, HORROR, Indies, Sundance, mafioso, FELLINI, FELLINI, FELLINI Vinnie GALLO, anything with Roberto Begnini, and most of all HOME MOVIES.FAVOURITES ....right now...1. A Home at the End of the World 2. Casino 3. Goodfellas 4. Boondock Saints 5. The Brown Bunny

Television:

I would watch wayyyy more T.V. if AbFab, and the State were more readily available, and if any one of my 15 different music stations actually played decent music, or any music at all. These days T.V. is only good for the News, the E! network to which I am addicted, CSI, Law and Order, and of course The Girls Next Door.

Books:

Everything Chuck Palhaniuk, A. Crowley, H.S. Thompson, The Rum Diary, Fear and Loathing in Vegas and America, W. S. Burroughs, Sylvia Plath, J.D. Salinger, The Valley of The Dolls, The Happy Hooker, Diary of a Drug Fiend, The Book of Thoth, Irvine Welsch, Poe, Bukowski, The Long Hard Road out of Hell, The Dirt, Please Kill Me, B.E. Ellis, Killing yourself to Live, Middlesex, E.E. Cummings, Felini on Fellini, Tommyland

Heroes:

mommy, daddy......and Madonna...

My Blog

Mommy's Little Monster

    DAMIAN MICHAEL CADE MILLS   (the first). Arrived 3 weeks early on July 15th at 12:42  in the afternoon, after 30 hours in labour (talk about a grand entrance). 6 lbs of p...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Thu, 19 Jul 2007 10:01:00 PST

28 pounds later....

...and I feel like complete ass.  This is the bitter end.  I know that the womb must be an enormously desireable abode, but enough is enough. I have just about had it with being pregnant. Th...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Sat, 14 Jul 2007 05:12:00 PST

Beach Rest and partying.....

So I am still stuck on bed rest which conveniently lands me at the beach 5 out of 7 days a week.  I am not complaining. I am having contractions and I am dialated so baby is officially ANY DAY N...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:34:00 PST

HOLY SHIT.

SO, Uhm, YEAH!!  Just checking emails when I received my weekly pregnancy update.  Yo, it said 33 days until Wednesday, July 25th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That however is not the scary part, what ...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 07:00:00 PST

ROCKST*R BABY

I KNEW IT!!!  I was at the record store yesterday, and I kept thinking about how much my boys name sounded like a rock star name. You can always trust a mother's instinct.  Before my psychic...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 11:17:00 PST

Dirty ASS Bitches....

There's good news and bad news, the bad news is that there was a couple of the dirtiest assed people living across from us and they had bugs and shit so bad in their apartment, our entire complex need...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Sun, 27 May 2007 11:10:00 PST

On the Road Again...

Yep, that's right.  Moving. Holy F'in' shit. My man has been relocated to Cambridge, MA.  14 more weeks here, babies,  packing houses and cross country road trips. Dear Boston, I'll se...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Tue, 22 May 2007 09:34:00 PST

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR

So, all this time I've been missing on Boston and regretting that I wouldn't be raising my little man on the 'right' coast .  I want him to talk like me and act like me and have all the benefits ...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Fri, 11 May 2007 04:24:00 PST

I wanna come home....

My grandpa passed away this morning and I am unable to attend his services because of my scheduled trip back at the end of the month. My docs and my fam agrees that it would be far too stressful and d...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 05:41:00 PST

little boy blue and the man in the moon..

IT'S A BOY!!! I just reached the 5 month mark. Since my baby can hear now, i've been playing him some mozart and some rock, a lil reggae....needless to say he'll be very well rounded.  I read him...
Posted by LANAZAPAM on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 09:41:00 PST