A Man.. Holds So Much Inside... From Himself.. His Family.. His Friends.. His Siblings... And His..Significant Other.. Pride Can Get The Best Of Him.. Today Try Being In My Shoes.. It Took Me Half Of 50 Years To Find Myself And Realise..Many Many Things.. From Expeirences Growing As A Child To A Teenager To A Young Man.. And I Can Officially Say I'v Become Such The Gentlemen.. The Man I'm Suppose To Be.. At The Age Of 25.. I've Finally Grown.. Into The Man I Was Truely Suppose To Be.. The Man I Am Now.. For The First Time.. Ima Open My Heart My Mind My Soul.. In My About Me.. I Don't Intend To Make Anyone Cry.. Get Mad Or Upset.. Over The Words I'm Bout To Post..I Don't Seek Pity Or Comfort.. For I Am No Victim.. I Have Lived I Have Learned.. From My Mistakes And From Others.. I'm Not Perfect No One Is.. It's How We Grow.. I Want To Thank Everyone In My Life.. Who Are There.. And Who Was There.. Once At A Point Where They Helped Me Become.. The Person I Am Now.. I Don't Regret Anything Because.. It Has Made Me The Man I Am Today... I Am Blessed.. In So Many Ways.. God Molds Us To Who He Wants Us To Be.. And Teaches Us.. When The Moment Is Right.. I In The Other Hand Had To Go Through It All..To Learn.. I Hit The Point Where I Lost Everything.. My Life My Love.. Me.. Searching To Find Myself.. Is The Begining To Recovering..I Learned That On My Own As Well.. Although.. My Life.. Is Very.. So Private.. I Don't Intend Putting.. What Caused All This To Happend.. But I Do Tell You This It Took Two.. To Fracture And Break.. Something Two Created.. Sure I Can Be The Blame If Thats Truely How You Would Want It To Be.. But Blaming Is So Easy... I Learned Not To Hold Anything Against Anyone.. Regardless.. Many Things Happend For Many Reasons And It's Always For The Better.. I Respect What Happend To The Fullest.. I Just Didn't Know Losing Two Ppl I Loved So Dearly Was Truely Going To Be What Made Me Realise So Much.. I Guess.. You Know What You Truely Have When It's Gone.. True That.. It Was My Heart My Soul.. Although.. One Carries My Soul.. And The Other My Heart.. It Impacted Me In So Many Ways.. Misery Conquered Me For A Great While Losing My Job.. Losing My Place.. Losing My Child.. Losing My Wife.. Isolated.. Myself In My Own Mind... Running Around Like Everything Is Alright Well I Lied..To Myself And Everyone.. I Go On My Days Always Thinking And Looking Back To My Memories..The Good The Bad.. And It Totally Hurts Me Inside To Where It Hit A Point Where A Patch Of My Memories Right Now Is Lonesome.. I Look Foward To It Changing.. Sometime Soon.. What Hurts Me The Most.. Is I'm Unstable.. All I Can Do Is Think.. The Crazy Things My Son Would Be Doing.. Or The Things He Would Come Up With To Surprise Me.. Or Have Me Smiling.... I'm Missing Every Moment Of His Life.. Going To School Coming Home With Stories To Tell.. Helping Him With Homework.. Playing Some Catch.. Going Out Enjoying Spending Times..Not Having Those Memories.. Destroys Me Completely.. As Much A I Want To See My Child.. I Can't Come Up With Money To Visit Him It's Fuckin Sad n Pathetic.. Although I Try Getting On Me Feet It's Just To Difficult.. I'm In Such A Mission To Keep Him Atleast A Small Portion In My Life.. Show Him.. I'm His Daddy.. And That Im Here.. And Always Will Be!!..I Reject Every Help I Get Because My Pride Wants Me To Do All Of It On My Own..! (Guy Father Pride Towards His Son) As For The Mother Of My Son.. People Say Love Dies.. Seperate.. Go There Own Seperate Ways..I Disagree.. I Believe Love Never Dies... Not Being Able To Stop Thinking Of Somone.. Or Always Lookin Back And Seein Somone Still There Till This Day.. Everything Reminding You Of That Significant Other.. Even The Smallest Thought.. Shows Something Was Engraved At Heart.. So Many Things Shared.. The Good The Bads.. It's Not That Love Dies.. It Might Just Get Fractured.. I Believe You Take That Love To The Grave.. It Dies With You..Either You Learn To Love Again But Remain At Heart.. Forever Kept At Heart.. Many Fix The Shattered Piece And Some Just Don't..In My Case.. Well.. Although.. I Might Not Be With My Significant Other Over Differences.. That's Truely How I Feel.. All This Things Happening.. The More I'm Cornered Or Pushed.. No Matter How Bad Im Put Down On My Knees.. I Pray Stand Tall.. And Become The Person I Am Suppose To Be.. I Just Want.. Everyones Happiness.. And What They Truely Believe Is Best For.. I Don't Want To Hurt Anyone In Anyway I Want The World To Be Happy.. As Much As I Want The World To Be Happy For Me...My Heart Is Complicated.. My Mind Is Unstable... My Soul.. Is Lost.. So Far I Have Found Myself.. Time Will Bring Happiness N Love.. I Will Resume My Life.. Cuz Thats How It's Suppose To Be.. I'm Not Done Yet..Not Ready To Go.. And The Main Reason Of Me Living Is To Impact Everyone Around.. Me.. To The Fullest Cuz Until The Day That I'm Truely Gone Is The Day Y'all Will Truely Realise Me.. And Who I Was And How I Lived And What I Learned In This Lifetime..Watch Such Person I Have Become.. All This Stays In A Man Not Many Show This.. My Words.. "Always and Forever.." Are True.. Either To Me Or You.. To Take Each Others Hands.. And "Runnaway" However This Lifes Set To Be.. I'm Lookin For What It Has To Bring...And How Much I Still Have Yet To Learn.. I Have Become.. A Temple.. I Am Me.. Thanks For Taking The Time To Read My Thoughts.. Especially On Fathers.. Day.. Thanks Everyone For Being.. An Impact To My Life Never Forgotten..For All Of You Are At Heart..! My Family Friends.. Strangers That Were Just There.. My Wife.. My Son.. Her Family.. I Want MY Son To Look Up To Me And Be Like Daddy.. I'm So Proud..Of You.. Now Do Something With Your Life..! Fight For What You Love!! Like I'ma Be There For Him.. Junie Ur My Inspiration..You Are Totally Here For Me.. Happy Fathers Day!.. ~OnE LuV~
My Son Victor Anthony Salayandia Jr.
"My World, My Everything, The Reason I Live, The Number One Reason It's ~OnE LuV~""Dedicated Video Tribute From Father To Son"I'll Always Be There Junior..
