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sunflower

tyrannosaurusleah

About Me

fly on the wall

"Doctor, you say that there are no haloes
around the streetlights in Paris
and what I see is an aberration
caused by old age, an affliction.
I tell you it has taken me all my life
to arrive at the vision of gas lamps as angels,
to soften and blur and finally banish
the edges you regret I don't see..."
-from "Monet Refuses the Operation" by Lisel Mueller

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not without a fight.

My Interests

OMG lyfe!!!!

"The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blest:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
Tis mightiest in the mightiest; it becomes
The throned monarch better than his crown.
His scepter shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings.
But mercy is above this sceptered sway;
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings;
It is an attribute of God himself;
And earthly power doth then show like God's
When mercy seasons justice."

-William Shakespeare

I'd like to meet:



anyone but the guy on the right:

Music:


radiohead, fiona apple [speaks for me], sigur ros <3, beck, the beatles, triton, mara carlyle, sondre lerche, willy mason, leonard cohen, elvis perkins, bobby mcferrin, alex wurman, do make say think, jeff buckley, dianne cluck, wolfmother, luke temple, iron & wine, the good war, joe cocker, loscil, godspeed you! black emperor, the white stripes, library tapes, leopold stokowski, joan baez, lettie, yeah yeah yeahs, aphex twin, brightblack morning light, the high dials, edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros, p.j. harvey, billie holiday, desmond dekker, daniel johnston, bonobo, wax tailor, air, feist, simon & garfunkel, michael nhat, jenny lewis, portishead, devendra banhart, bjork, new order, rufus wainwright, flight of the conchords, the smashing pumpkins, joanna newsom, animal collective, nirvana, talking heads, gorillaz, system of a down, elliot smith, egon superbus von underduk, john cohen, modest mouse, weird al, au revoir simone, bright eyes [love-hate]. enyaaaa.

Movies:



eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, forrest gump, DAYS OF HEAVEN (!), magnolia, cool runnings :), pulp fiction, *death at a funeral*, being john malkovich, waking life, the science of sleep, the united states of leland, a scanner darkly, the fountain (kinda made me laugh, though), vanilla sky :'), dangerous lives of the altar boys, a beautiful mind, stay, gia, girl interrupted, american beauty, what dreams may come, adaptation., city of god, dead poets society, the barbarian invasions, shawshank redemption, the life of david gale, i heart huckabees, thumbsucker, american history x, melinda & melinda, billy elliot, sideways, igby goes down, noi, the lives of others, office space, mrs. doubtfire :), shawn of the dead, hot fuzz :D, trainspotting, romeo + juliet, little miss sunshine, monty python, babe.

Television:

close to never. but...

on occasion:
six feet under, house, south park, the office, freaks and geeks, mr. roger's neighborhood.

Books:

Emerson, Nico Fulgencio, Don DeLillo - White Noise, Kierkegaard - Either Or, Purity of Heart is to Will One Thing, William Carlos Williams - "The Pink Locust", Dostoyevsky - Crime and Punishment, Rollo May - Love and Will, Robert Frost - "The Bear", Shakespeare - The Merchant of Venice, David Sedaris - Me Talk Pretty One Day, Naked, Alexander Pope - "An Essay on Criticism", Rudyard Kipling - "If", Dave Eggers - A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

just kidding...

Heroes:

"who i become is my gift to them."

<3,000,000

My Blog

be.cause.i.can.

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Posted by sunflower on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 02:45:00 PST

Around the Bush

sometimes,sometimes(sorry for the cop-out),i regressemotionallyback to the daysmy mom said,"stop hanging on me"when i wasin need of hercuddles.please forgive me,it's true,and sometimes i cannotexpress...
Posted by sunflower on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 02:25:00 PST

just now

i love itwhenthe driver isconscientious enoughin the casual, mundane grace of experienceto stopfor a moment in mid-departurefor the middle-aged womanwhose panting is drowned outby the sudden silence o...
Posted by sunflower on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 05:41:00 PST

seams

there is an entire school of people whose very charm/talent is their ability to cover up their tracks. who try harder to make their work/accomplishments/growth seem effortless than to actually...
Posted by sunflower on Sun, 01 Jul 2007 12:07:00 PST

qualitative quantity//quantitative quality

um. circles.comforting, right?
Posted by sunflower on Wed, 16 May 2007 08:47:00 PST

missing the point. (but not the target)

NRA BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.THE GUN DIDN'T KILL THE MAN.THE MAN KILLED THE MAN.PERSONIFICATION OF GUN.OBJECTIFICATION OF MAN.stop blaming objects for our tendencies as human beings.stop treating symp...
Posted by sunflower on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 04:44:00 PST

i should probably turn off the stove.

i'm not even here right now.this is not even my room.that's not even my stuff on the ground.and, on the other side of this wall,the stove is hissing;the pot boiling over when I Stopped Watching.(and t...
Posted by sunflower on Sun, 08 Apr 2007 05:28:00 PST

this, too,

this, too,shall passaltogether too fasteachdayincreasingin [past] / [future]/in the middle of the Venn//circles tugging their respective ways/(())while i expect to change without a rate.but you...
Posted by sunflower on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 10:54:00 PST

to be deciphered. with 3-d goggles. and such.

my judgement's failing on this one. can't tell how simple/trite/nonsensical it is or isn't. (let me destroy your faith in me before i begin. hah.)( )...
Posted by sunflower on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 02:57:00 PST

exit bed.

sonic incisionround the edge of the craniumwhhhhshhhhkkhhtclear cut the dreamworldorb sliced in twoexcess half rolling off into infinite blackvia a screaming alarm.horizon inventing itself round the b...
Posted by sunflower on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 03:13:00 PST