Dianna

I thought I would take this opportunity to introduce the real me, The me that no one ever sees. The me that is dying to get out. I am not the me that everyone sees. I am the person that lives day to day basically cleaning what needs cleaned, doing whatever needs doing. There are lots of things that I like to do, but never have the chance or opportunity. And I have one man to thank for that, I find myself resenting all the time I have lost with my kids, all the fun things we could have been doing. Truth is, I would love to be able to just get in the car and take them shopping, go swimming, grab some tackle and go fishin or to the movies. I would like to plant flowers, mow yard, play cards, just hang out and have fun, but it seems that all that has been robbed from me. All because I spend all my time worrying about how I am going to provide what my kids need in life because I am the only one that they have to depend on. Stress and pressure does play havoc on a person. I would not be writing this, but I want to let you all know not to make the same mistake that I made. I met a wonderful man. (most of you know who I am talking about) he is smart, funny, he works hard, has a heart of gold and I think the world of him. But because of a man that controlled and manipulated me and my thoughts for so long, I fear that I have lost him. I am a broken woman in many ways. My heart is truly broken and breaks mor eand more everday because I can't have the life I want. Basically because one man won't live up to being a father, and I have to be the person I am right at this moment. Send my pics and video to your cell phone!