"That's 'cause we all wanna be problemless. To fix ourselves. We look for some magic solution to make us all better, but none of us really know what we're doing. And why is that so bad? That's all we humans can do. Guess. Try. Hope. But ...just pray you don't fool yourself into thinking you've got the answer. Because that's bullshit. The trick is living without an answer.
I think."
~Thumbsucker
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my name is Kylin Alzora Jewell. i'm twenty-one. i dance. i draw. i paint. [hence the major in studio art] yeah i drink. and i smoke...
i love. i laugh. i cry. etc etc etc...
i'm an only child. i have two dogs. my parents are divorced. i have a step brother in California.
i'm basically addicted to coffee, green-chai tea, french onion sunchips, Diet Pepsi, hot cheetoes, cigarettes, Diet Rockstar, sushi, peanut butter and honey sandwiches, sour patch kids, and jalepeno potato chips... any type of salsa (the hotter the better) and guacamole can make me weak in the knees as well. piercings and tattoos are climbing that list. if i weren't broke i'd be covered in ink and metal. clothing is my main addiction however. I LOVE CLOTHES! and shoes!
i used to dance (and was going to major in it) for Tucson Regional Ballet but quit. i had chronic tendonitis and a stress fracture... it was pretty much my life until December '04 when i realized what it was doing to me. my body is basically F'd up from me taking advantage of it for so long... we'll leave it at that.
currently i'd like to get back into it, but my old studio doesn't feel like home anymore. and i'd have to do a lot of 'getting back in shape' before i'd EVER step in there wearing a leotard and tights in front of Linda. ha!
i need a new studio =( but... i do still LOVE to choreograph...
ive decided to tackle a 2nd major in psychology (studio art is the first one). anything having to do with artistic expression and its relationship to the inner workings of the human mind is intriguing to me.
i'm crazy. in good and bad ways. no one, not even me, knows what i'm talking about half the time... i like to go out and be around lots of people... i can be absolutely insane... i'm shy. like when i'm with new people or in front of a group... i avoid conflict. i'm indecisive. i avoid talking in front of large groups, but could dance for hours in front of one...
i have a foot phobia. but it seems to be disapating around certain people... which i don't understand at all! and i like even numbers... only even numbers.
i'd like to open my own business, a recreational therapy type place... where i can help people using other means besides conventional thearpy, like one on one talking... i've found that working through problems with more physical ways like exercising, or artistic ways like painting, or even both... like with dancing, is good cathartic release. art and dance helped me through a lot, and i'd like to offer simalar therapies to children/young adults...
i love working with children and am a member of the Universiy of Arizona's Camp Wildcat. we take local school aged kids on trips they would otherwise not have the chance to go on. its always inspirational... but i think the counslers honestly get more out of it.
i've also been thinking of volunteering for ArtWorks and/or the Tucson Museum of Art and/or Wildcat art student programs.
and i want to teach dance again...
i just want to do everything and anything!!!
i'm curious by nature. i like to kiss and cuddle... i like to be close. body heat is comforting...
and i like to shake my ass. =P
FALL IN LOVE WITH A PERSON. NOT A GENDER.
“If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character...Would you slow down? Or speed up?†Chuck Palahniuk
[i used to think i'd like to speed up, so i could experience everything. but recently i've discovered how pointless that would be if i never got a chance to get to know each character. so now, i'd slow down]