Codependent
It happened one day
When we were apart
I got an email
which almost ripped out my heart.
It was an email to say that she
Had had enough of her life
That she didnt want to live anymore
Her words were sharp and cold as a knife.
My heart almost stopped, A panic set in
Where is my love, is she alright?
I called, no answer, i call everyone
Was she just out, I hoped with all my might.
Looking back now, maybe I saved her life
Maybe I didnt, but I didnt want her to die
I spent hours waiting, just to know she was alive
I spent a life time waiting, for her to come into my life.
Hospital said she was out of danger now,
and she became closer to my heart
Things had to change,
maybe this was the start?
Alas it wasnt to be,
Weeks later we argued and right on cue, off she ran
We broke up then and
Two days later she fucked another man.
It was bad enough, but it wasnt a one off
She was already dating someone new
Like I didnt matter, no time to grieve
Just on to the next one to screw.
Took me months to get through this
Not weeks or days
She said she still loved me
But her actions do not reflect what she says.
I wonder when all is fair now love is through
What is a man to think of when he thinks of you
I think of someone who didnt care and isn't true
Didnt have the guts to let me know.
I should have seen and noticed
The guy before me felt the same
I fell for your lies of love and wine
I was betrayed by your words, the shame.
What I take with me is the knowledge and strength
I know the power of my heart has your lies slain
You cannot love anybody, as you do not love yourself
I hope my bruised ragged heart never sees you again.
