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About Me

I ignored memories that had become defining lessons in shame to come from the cool shadows of the treeline to the clearing because you put your hand out to me. I stopped thinking that need was danger disguised as desperation because you said my name. I stopped thinking that desire was violence disguised as mutual disgust because you kissed me. I stopped thinking that life was fear disguised as mere existence because I could feel you breathing when I held you in my arms. And when I was finally standing at my full height; emboldened by the sheer power of wanting and being wanted; of calling out and being heard - this is when you chose to show me that I am invisible to the eyes unless viewed under the spotlight of rejection, that I am voiceless in the howling storm of your indifference. Time passes in a vaccuum and suddenly you summon me like a siren to the fatal shore of your heart. But there is no shore, no heart. Just vast desert expanse where the weary and bewildered wander, lost, wishing for the cool shadows and the darkness behind the treeline.So now that the sun has set on this failed city, let us not raise our voices above a whisper. Let us not look into each other's eyes. Let us be safe in darkness and silence, and still our hearts for a moment, or many moments. But, most importantly, let us forget. Until the land is reclaimed by the desert. Until denial and greed have finally dried up all that has once flowed. Until the lines perish. Until all is as it should be. Until next time.

My Interests

Music:

Metal:
Maudlin of the Well, Ulver, Cynic, Opeth, Agalloch, Age of Silence, Solefald, Novembers Doom, The Berzerker Isis, Exodus, Bloodbath, Nightingale, Edge of Sanity, The Gathering, Theatre of Tragedy and a mountain of others entirely too numerous to name..

Non-Metal:
DJ Shadow, Porcupine Tree, No-Man, Talk Talk, Sol Invictus, Jeff Buckley, DJ Krush, Bjork, Sycamore Smith et. al.

Movies:

Anything by Michael Mann, anything by Kubrick, Dark City, What Dreams May Come, V for Vendetta,

Books:

Anything by Henry Rollins