laurie

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I guess it is time for another update life changes so quick and you wake up one day and figure out you weren't happy being miserable and though it takes a while and it hurts realizing a lot of things It has taken a threee month journey of pain to bring me to the point where I am honestly waking up happy and knowing that this feeling of content is not reliant on anyone else making me feel happy makes it even that much better. Before you send me some stupid rambaling email about how interesting I am or How you would like to get to know me better ... Know this ... I have my friends... tHey make my world go round/i .and I heart them no matter who doesn'tlike who ... I am happy that way and nothing you say is going to convince me otherwise.
Before you read anything you need to know this.....
-Okay I'm Crazy period . No mistaking it. I'm okay with it and if you are my goood friend you probably love it . heh. -
I love my friends Like LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE them more than life itself Mikey d , Lindsay , Courtney , Nicci , Aly , Andrea , Stes , ..... I could go on and on but not really
If I love you you already know it
stupid facts ... enjoy....
Im Lauren , laurie , lulu . lubear , button
.I love my friends.
.I don't think I have to talk to someone every day let alone every month for them to be one of my best friends.
.I believe a best friend is someone you can calll out of the blue and they will be there.
.I try to do everything I can for my friends.
.I'm a people pleaser.
.I'm blunt and Honest beyond belief - I can't lie even if i try so I've accepted that fact and I don't even attempt ... even if I know Im going to get in big trouble.
.I rather someone insult me with the truth than compliment me with a lie.
.I love to go out when I feel good.
.I can be a super hermit and stay in my house for weeks even months.
.Everyone says they have been through a lot but seriously I've been through a whole fucking lot.
.I was/am seriously ill for the past two years.
.On a daily basis I take ... A fentanyl patch (pain) oxy 5's (break through pain) Xanax ( aniexty) Zantac (acid reflux) Seraquil ( anti psychotic sleeping med).
.I am stronger than I think at least thats what everyone tells me.
.I am more sensitive than more people know but maybe they do.
.I'm easy to pick on.
.I am obsessed with wearing eyeshadow. crazy colors.
.I'm super pale and no don't tell me to tan I L o v e it.
.I don't know my hair color .. I've been dying it since i was 13 ... blondish , strawberry blond... Pink .. It was red most of the years .... but this year i dyed it black and I am in love with it....
.I love my cat more than Ill ever love anyone else.
.I shop a lot .. I have two rooms full of clothes ... I am actually talented at shopping.
.I will convince myself I'm fat and no one can talk me out of it no matter what.
.My size changes constantly. I am big boned.No its not an excuse .. people are built different.
.I'm crazy and Admit it regularlly.
.I more stuck up than Ill admit.
.I one of the nicest people you will meet.
.I don't think I know how to hold a grudge. I forgive too easily.
.If I do get angry its scarey and fierce .
.I don't respond to Ims 90% of the time.I also barely answer my phone cause the ringing annoys me. If I do answer it You should feel pretty damn special.
.I'm most likely smarter than you but you will assume I am pretty gone. .I scored genius level on everything but science on the plan test in 10th grade but you will underestimate me.
.I live in my own little world.
.I think Crying is needed sometimes.
.I like to make lists . I like to do crosswords but only with certain pens.
.I have over 200 pens .
.I always wear the silver and pink watch my grandpa gave me My ring i have with courtney and nicci My first class ring ( i got kicked out) and two diamonds rings ... Yes I bling.
. I'm evil and you just think I look innocent.
.Ive been an addict a million times over... but i've never been shady or anything you would associate with a drug addict.
. People tend to think Im weird but I dont mind it.
.When I was younger I slept with guys to just see if i could. so yes i used to be a slut. ... told you i was honest.
. I listen to country not just in secret .
I'm vulgar I don't feel ANY topic is off limits and i cuss like a salior.
. .I have tons of hip-hop on my computer cause I tend to date guys that listen to it non stop.
. I love assholes..
.I'm In love But have no one .
.I'm a freak when it comes to sex. choking = heaven.
. Im Agoraphobic ( look it up) plus about 5 other thing meaning I'm a head case.
. . Like i said above I've been sick since oct 2003....doctors are idiots and regularly confuse and anger me. If you want to know about it you can go here but i quit updating it cause it just doesn'tmake sense anymore to the doctors to my parents to me so it won't make sense to you.
http://hometown.aol.com/ximtoxictoyoux/page1.html
.I Tend To ramble A lot As I just did with this ......
.I over analyze EVERYTHING. alll the time.
.I sleep with a teddy bear and about 93483 other things cause I think my bed is a desk and storage.
.I like to write.
.I am a super picky eater... but i love fridays , milk , green tea and stir fry.
.I am addicted to my tv shows and most of them are cheesey. .I have watched general hospital and all my children since i was 8.
.I'm a spazz.
.It's all or nothing... Its either a mess or super organized....
.I don't believe in regrets.... Learn from everything.
.Theres a million more little things about me but I'm going to stop for now.