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EMOTIONALLY DEAD I am currently in Seattle for the time being. When will i be back? who knows......the defintion of weirdness? it is me..so therefore i understand myself as being extremely unique, so i am who i am, why change? just me being me...i only trust myself n no one else..u'll never meet a person like me. Its your fuckin privelege to kno me.im quiet..i dont trust no one, i drink, life is boring, gonna make music, i eat 10 meals a day, literally, i talk like a robot as u can see, im boring, you arent, go away, Wanna try understanding who i really am, it takes time, take up this challenge cuz its impossible, no one understands, not even me .. LoL im like a spontaneous combustion wrapped in an enigma, painted with riddles, dipped in confusion, sprayed with mystery, and with hate sprinkles, lots of them.If im quiet to you, most likely i dislike u... Im really extremely down to earth, and i dont let many things bother me...cuz all in all, im better than you and you're not worth my time if you do stupid things. Im very observant and aware of my surroundings. I always accrue more hatred inside and do not vent, but i find ways to ventilate anger and hatred safely. Love...Love is about falling in love. Not trying to fall in love. You should love each other from the beginning. When you like someone, and feel dependable with each other, and are trying to change yourself and the other for the better, it contradicts love. Love shouldnt be about making yourself better or changing your significant other, then who are you falling in love with? People feel comfortable with their Bf or GF, and try to change them for the better, while feeling more comfortable and happy because you were successful, this gives you a false sense of love. That is why relationships fail, because you start LIKING someone too much. When you like someone throughout your relationship and you feel that you love each other, all hope is lost. That is why our world has such a high divorce rate, because everyone keeps liking each other, n they like each other so much they feel they love them, and cannot let go. This is called dependency. You are so used to liking them it hurts. Love is when you connect, and it flowers into love. Did you fall in love with the person you met, or after you changed them? Love is all about grooming love, not grooming each other. Technically you shouldnt try so hard in a relationship. Also people should love each other from the beginning. Love is not something you create. Love exists. You just have to let it work itself out.