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am&a

I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships, Friends and Networking

About Me


my name is amanda
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i hate life.
everytime, i complained about your cold indifference. time after time, i hurried to apologize. seemed to me you neglecting me and then begged for sympathy as if i were to blame. the result might turn out the most beautiful or the most sorrowful, i've made myself ready. perhaps you are too free; no body can enter your heart. you haven't noticed yet, you always use your right hand to hold mine.. but the heart beats on the left side. between us there's always this distant closeness: the sorrow of love. i extend my right hand, hoping to walk ahead by your side and feeling your loving heartbeats on your left side. i, who loves you so deeply, believe you will come to understand. i was always convinced that one day you would use your left hand to hold mine and we'd walk to our tomorrow. the future is very distant, but it will come true. if your heart is at the same side, then it will be possible for me to hear you say "i love you".

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Status:sadly single
Here for: your entertainment & asian boys
Orientation: boys
Hometown: San Jose, California
Ethnicity:filipino
hair color: doo doo brown w/ highlights
eye color: doo doo brown
for the win!: strawberry peach/mango banana lychee smoothie with lychee jelly and pearls!
for the lose: cheaters and being hurt
body type: jiggles uncontrollably/fat, unattractive
Religion: baptist; not by choice
Sign: the twins
drink: "this nigga got some purple drank!"
Children: 28 and counting
Education: harvard university
aol instant messenger: lady yuna
Occupation:stripper
Income: $100/hr (varies)

My Blog

i’m sorry..

i can't be strong. i try really hard to be strong, i try really hard.. i really do. jim, you care so much about me. i'm sorry i don't acknowledge you, i'm sorry i don't treat you kindly. i'm sorry if ...
Posted by am&a on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 03:36:00 PST

heart;

Lady Yuna: i just want someone who adores no one but me. :[ cause i'll just do the same thing right backMaken Makenshi:  YEAH!!!!!!!!...
Posted by am&a on Sat, 24 May 2008 03:27:00 PST

i cant stand it.

i don't know what to do with myself right now. i'm in a mode where i can't quit being mad, i can't quit crying and i can't quit feeling depressed. right now, i don't care about anything.. i don't want...
Posted by am&a on Thu, 22 May 2008 12:26:00 PST

before bed;

when i really think about it.. i think i am just pretending. deep down, i do feel sad. i am surprised at myself that i am able to conceal everything. people will probably think i am stupid because i a...
Posted by am&a on Wed, 14 May 2008 11:53:00 PST

once a cheater, always a cheater.

he is the living proof of this phrase. how can you hurt someone three times and tell them that you really love them? how could i have been so stupid in the first place? i should've listened to everyon...
Posted by am&a on Wed, 07 May 2008 11:31:00 PST

ranting..

    so, you've probably heard me rant about wanting to lose 20 lbs by the end of december; before the new year! i am determined this time. i guess i feel most motivated after i actually...
Posted by am&a on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 10:20:00 PST

hello again.

hello blog. it's been a while, but i'm typing in you now.... well, kinda hard to type something when you have nothing to type. i'll do this later..ps; i got my zune a few days ago.. i like it so far; ...
Posted by am&a on Wed, 20 Jun 2007 03:36:00 PST