!~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten))

About Me

THE NAME IS MEL
i am not:
a prep
a skater
a slut
a jock
a bad ass
a "poser"
or anything else you want to call me
im not a juggalette, but some of my best friends are
im just ME
im 15
im Bi-polar
im b i s e x u a l
im an adrenaline junkie {i do dangerouse stuff because i love the feeling}
im a stoner
i drink occasionally
i used to pop extacy
but i dont anymore
my memory is really fucked up because of it,
so if i dont remember you,
dont feel bad
its just that my brain dosnt work most of the timee
im taken
and loveing it
im temporarily a gimp
im uncatagorizable
and i love it.
im 15 until April 23. i go to options, wich is the alternative to the alternative skool, im not a bad kidd.... im just not a good kidd either... SMOKE WEED EVERYDAY KEEP IT CLEAN STICK TO GREEN! my oppinion on life is basically this, shit happens, and then you die, so get over it and move on. it dosnt sound like a happy outlook on life but it really is, i dont have very many regrets because of it and things dont USUALLY bother me for that long because of it. im generally a happy person, although im kinda bi-polar so it dosnt always seem like it, i LOVE to fight, im not the best at it, but i think its funn. even when i get my ass beat, im bisexual but i think im getting closer to being a lesbian everyday even tho i cant live without guyss im kinda random its funn i like to bite((just a warning)) i dont drink very often, cuz when i do i dink myself retartded, i LOVE tequila tho ((im not supposed to drink it cuz it makes my clothes come off)) my four best friends are Andrea, Dakota, Chris, and my little sister katy.
so, I GIVE UP!
on everyhting, guys school family friends careing about you, careing about if you care about me, i give up on love on finding that someone who wont hurt me,
im going back to being a guy on the inside, no feelings just lookin for a good lay yup thats rite im a man on the inside that is what i want because then i wont get hurt by stupid guys who deside to fuck me overr. i tried to say before i was like a guy, and then i found this someone i care about to much and i lost it, and almost fell in love, with someone who was never really mine, he has a girlfriend and i thought that he was gonna break up with her, and we were gonna be together, but once again, i just wasnt good enough...... im never good enough............
How can you break what you never should have had? its not fair.........

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My Interests

sitting in andreas room, smokeing a bowl WAFTING with a cat in a sak in my laphahahahahahahhaface 42 taco mann!! its the answer to everything. face, like your face, 42, like the number and taco, like you know, a spanish taco...but if you make a taco in england, like the country, you know? and put it in greece, like the country, and its a fallafle, and fallafle is the answer to everything that face 42 taco isnt the answer to, but face 42 taco is the answer to everythingi love liveing in a brain that works not.

I'd like to meet:

no one in life is of more importants than those i already know right now, if i meet you i meet you, if we become friends then cool, if i dont like you you will know it and once you know it you better back the fuck off

Music:

hands down by dashboard confesional
Breath in for luck, breath in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me, this night is wild, so calm and dull, thease hearts they race, from self controll, your legs, are smooth, as they graze mine, were doig fine, were doing nothing at all,my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so wont you kill me, so i die happy, my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewlery, wichever you prefer,the words are hushed, lets not get busted, just lay entwined here, undiscovered, safe in here from all the stupid questions, hey did you get some, man that is so dumb, stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they cant here, so we can get some.....my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so wont you kill me, so i die happy, my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewlery, wichever you prefer,hands down this is the best date i can ever remember, always remeber, the sound of the stereo, dim all the soft lights, the scent of your hair, wich you twirled in your fingers, and the time on the clock when we realized its only, and that walk that we shared together, the streets were wet, and the gait was locked, so i jumped it, and let you in, and you stood by your door, with your hands on your waist, and you kissed me like you meant it, and i know, that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, i know, that you meant it, that you meant it.

Heroes:

KATY means the world to me, fuck with her, and you've fucked with MY LIFE, fuck with my life, and i will fuck up your face, your body, and the rest of YOUR life. no joke, seriously, i will make your life a liveing hell. you dont understand what i would do for this girl right heree

My Blog

poem

i feel as though im a prisoner,in my own home,no one beside me,i sit here alone,i need to figure out,where im going and how,it might soon be to late,so im trying to fix it now,i have no future,i have ...
Posted by !~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten)) on Fri, 02 May 2008 05:47:00 PST

i want her back

so theres this girl right,and she dosnt know i still like her,and wish i had never lost her, and her friend asked me the other day if me and her were getting back together,and tht she had talked...
Posted by !~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten)) on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 09:37:00 PST

still hurting.....

im still hurting,i hope you know,you've moved on,and it shows,did you ever really love me?like you said you did,or were you just fakeing it,like a little kid?did you knowthat you hurt me?way more then...
Posted by !~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten)) on Sun, 09 Dec 2007 02:06:00 PST

new poem

wheres my happy endingI feel myself falling,like a fly swatted of the wall,twisting and curling,i watch myself fall,i feel myself fade,to a far away place,and i know that to get by,you need more than ...
Posted by !~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten)) on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 08:56:00 PST

random stuff from inside my head

im really bored...so im going to type everything that goes through my head for the next few minutes.....my stomach hurtspainn without lovepaiin cant get enufpaiin i like it ROUGH cuz id rather feel pa...
Posted by !~GrAvItY~!((broken&&forgotten)) on Mon, 26 Nov 2007 10:02:00 PST