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b®ee

only when stars assemble into human shapes do we remember their names.

About Me


im pretty laid back. i like to go where the day takes me....
i like cyanide and happiness.

im a terrible sleeper and a beautiful dreamer.
i have to live by the ocean. HAVE TO!

My Interests


metaphysics, manifestation, the human brain, secrets, canoeing, the 80s, all things indie, pretty smiles, wheat grass, crushes, holding hands, snorkeling for treasure, picnics, faith, sincerity, tunnels, road trips, nautical things, science museums, affection, forgiveness, God, the beach, weather, cartography, films, swings, music, obstacle courses, sea shells, astrology, stretching in bed, smart girls, positive attitudes, learning new things, growing up and retaining a childlike wonder
i love my niece and nephew, lana and tristan

i love the ocean more than almost anything else on earth!

and i love words...
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I'd like to meet:


the one who doesn't scare me away.

MySpace Cadets
I have friends.

i found JESUS

Gregory Charles

Alejan-LO

Corey

The Gabbino

Tis Nicholas

Caryn

MarY

Jenette

My Chaperone

o'ALLY

Jus Natalie

View All of My Friends

Music:



Television:

i try not to watch it

Books:

the book of life

Heroes:

Jesus

My Blog

THE END. is never final

life is strange how it meanders around and leads me exactly where i should be. i might not always like where life takes me, but when it's good, it's good. i love waking up to a squirmy incessant cuddl...
Posted by b®ee on Thu, 09 Oct 2008 06:58:00 PST

rhyming & finagling

life has slowed in pace to a steady monotonous nothingness during the day. then at night, where i cohabitate with a lovely person i call "my love," life is fabulous. i just cant seem to find enough st...
Posted by b®ee on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 12:44:00 PST

bluest blueberry

i like blueberries. from maine. that's all. i need to get movies. im awesome. so are you. good day. :)
Posted by b®ee on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 07:15:00 PST

a life less ordinary

i am an alcoholic. it was sooo worth it to wake up one day... 32. a zombie. careless. vacant. better off dead. just how i imagined my life to be. um. nah. not really what i thought would happen. i wal...
Posted by b®ee on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 12:24:00 PST

Pan Era

Drinking coffee. sitting still. stressing out. serious anxiety. *sigh*life "outside" has dwindled in my mind down a tube. i dont know wtf is awry either. ok, the only logical thing is the lack of empl...
Posted by b®ee on Thu, 25 Sep 2008 12:30:00 PST

watch what you do to me

the day after my previous entry, i left rehab. i packed my shit and corey rescued me. i left before graduating, but they consider me an alumni anyway. im THAT awesome! clearly rehab didnt treat my add...
Posted by b®ee on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 08:32:00 PST

stress and anxiety

i have a lot of that today. im fretting about the consequences of bad behavior in my rehab. the staff better not punish all of us, bc ive been good. :( ugh. blah.im looking forward to looking for a jo...
Posted by b®ee on Thu, 28 Aug 2008 08:20:00 PST

missing is an understatement

well, the time has come and change is frightening. it has solidified a few things that i was skeptical about. phone calls are weird. her voice isnt. i like it. im at a loss. again. i wrote a poem...my...
Posted by b®ee on Sat, 16 Aug 2008 03:36:00 PST

2 days...

miss her already. :(
Posted by b®ee on Sat, 09 Aug 2008 07:01:00 PST

had it

well, i believe ive reached my limit. i only have one choice. be assertive. then wait and see if that's all that's necessary. if not... fuck it. i know im better than that. other than that... still cr...
Posted by b®ee on Wed, 30 Jul 2008 05:40:00 PST