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Lady Spyder-Hawke

You Can't Be Irish Without Knowing the World Will Break Your Heart

About Me

I love music, books, and most things that I cannot have. I have a huge self-image complex that I just can't shake no matter who tells me how to break it. I'm currently a student UCD and I am a history major. I plan on being a high school history teacher. I love theatre (yes, re...stage, not screen.) At one point I had the passion to be a dancer/actress but have since lost that passion. That is something else I am searching for, that passion. It kept me going for 14 years, why did I give it up then? Well, email me for that answer too. That's about all I have to write about. If you have something to ask me, please, email me and ask me.You must live with a person to know a person. If you want to know me come and live with me.Oh, also, at this point, I am sick to death of people being fake with me. You either like me or hate me, I don't want any in-between. If you are currently my friend and reading this, think about what kind of friend you have been toward me lately. (You know who you are.) I am sick of being a friend who is convinient for you. I am sick of being used for your enjoyment. I AM A HUMAN BEING, a living breathing thing with FEELINGS! GASP, she's got feelings. So with this rant almost to an end, I hope you really grasp what I am about and I hope I haven't scared you off too bad.Sadly, I didn't think I'd have to put this back in but obviously I do. As much as I am in the midst of looking for a real relationship, I am not looking for a fling. I have grown up rather quickly at 21 and if you are reading this, you actually care about getting to know people. So, if you're looking for a fling, go on the the next page....I'm not your girl.

My Interests

My many interests include theatre, history, dance, weird cult classics especially The Rocky Horror Picture Show, drawing, painting, and lighting. SILENCE EQUALS DEATH!..

I'd like to meet:


Alex - The vicious leader of your gang of droogs.
Other than rape, thievery and ultra-violence;
you love classical music (amongst other forms
of culture) with your heart and soul.
Regardless of morals, you are committed to your
own ideals.

Which Clockwork Orange character are you?
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You Are Animal
A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!" The Muppet Personality Test

Music:

i love any and all music! i mostly listen to classic rock, musical soundtracks and random music.....

Movies:

Can a heart still break after it's stopped beating?

Television:

although i've never seen the television show, M*A*S*H, i did see the movie. the theme song to it really kinda hit home because really, it's a parody of suicide.Through early morning fog I see visions of the things to be the pains that are withheld for me I realize and I can see...that suicide is painless It brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please. I try to find a way to make all our little joys relate without that ever-present hate but now I know that it's too late, and...The game of life is hard to play I'm gonna lose it anyway. The losing card I'll someday lay so this is all I have to say. The only way to win is cheat. And lay it down before I'm beat and to another give my seat for that's the only painless feat. The sword of time will pierce our skins It doesn't hurt when it begins But as it works its way on in The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...A brave man once requested me to answer questions that are key is it to be or not to be and I replied 'oh why ask me? 'Cause suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please....and you can do the same thing if you please.

Books:

i love all books, i'm such a bookworm! i especially love christopher moore and my fav of his is lamb: the gospel according to biff, christ's childhood pal. i loved wicked: the life and times of the wicked witch of the west by that one guy and the other one by him. i loved a clockwork orange. another great book which i totally forgot about until i re-stumbled upon it at the library is bitten by kelley armstrong. it's amazing. the lorax by dr. seuss. v.c andrews is another great author. anne rice and lots of random books......
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Heroes:


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adopt your own virtual pet!i don't really have one specific hero, i have many. probably jim morrison, david bowie, jimi hendrix, janis joplin, susan b anthony, bob dylan, jeff kelly........although now that i think about it...i guess i would have to say a very specific hero that i think of as a hero is the lorax. if you haven't read the children's book by dr. seuss do. and remember only you can bring the truffula trees back, if you want too.

My Blog

cruel summer

i is sad....and i'm just kinda sad in a sad way....what other kind of way is there to be sad though? well, i guess you can be happy sad or mad sad. the fishies and the froggies love each other. i wann...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Sun, 27 May 2007 09:41:00 PST

The Final Battle pt 7

..> She awoke in her own bed, Rathin was sitting next to her. "How are you feeling?""What was that about? What did he mean, plan?""Peter was acting on his own impulse. He wasn't the brightest guy in t...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Sun, 27 May 2007 09:20:00 PST

The Final Battle pt 6

Rathin and Rhiannon left that weekend. As much as Raven didn't want to say goodbye, she mustered up enough effort to. She and Malachite watched as their only child disappered over an ocean. Rhiannon ...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Fri, 25 May 2007 10:23:00 PST

gummy worms

i hate the springs....i hate my second job, i hate being in the springs.....and i hate being unstable. and what pops up on the ipod after i type that? lost by little big town. glad i grabbed gummy wor...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Wed, 23 May 2007 08:49:00 PST

dance

Leave me out with the waste This is not what I do It's the wrong kind of place To be thinking of you It's the wrong time For somebody new It's a small crime And I've got no exuse Is that alright? Yea...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Sat, 19 May 2007 10:23:00 PST

The Final Battle pt 5

She hiccuped. "Ok.""Yeah.""Yeah." They signed the paperwork and were married in front of the Justice of the Peace. They then drove by her house, no one was home. She quickly packed a few things, left...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Wed, 16 May 2007 10:59:00 PST

sad sleepy hawke

sad, sleepy hawke just needs to get some shit out. she is frustrated by her own actions years ago and wishes she could go back and change them. she is bewildered by the fact that when spelling "chance...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Wed, 16 May 2007 10:52:00 PST

The Final Battle pt 4

Later that night, Rhiannon set the table. She hoped that theat night would go off flawlessly. Raven brought in the dishes and smiled at her daughter. Suddenly, the phone rang. "Hello?" said Raven. "H...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Wed, 09 May 2007 02:39:00 PST

a rather boring semester

and it ends...the way it began, it ended....without fireworks...without anyone beside me..my semester is over....but i have a new friend. and not much knowledge has come of this semester either...a ra...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Wed, 09 May 2007 11:50:00 PST

stupid blog

am i that.....i don't even know the word for it....am i that undatable?it's not that i haven't heard that one before....because i have. i feel that way a lot though so and it's not like he said....i w...
Posted by The Messanger Hawke on Tue, 08 May 2007 02:20:00 PST