About Me
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Halloween baby.
I am taken, loves.
Imma' be a money maker.
Let's text.
Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place.
Born and raised in Oak.
My love is the size of the ocean.
People tell me my dreams are unrealistic.
I live for what matters.
Every belief of mine has altered.
My theories just seem to grow upon what they were.
I guide and advise people.
Although, I'll detach myself from anyone if they cause their problems to effect me, or effect the people in my life.
Females have always attempted to cop my personality, along with my phrases, sense of style, and my boyfriends. :D
Although, I'm an original.
There's just not another out there like me.
I've decided how I'm living isn't enough for me.
I want more, and I will get it.
I have big goals.
I have a lot of potential, and I'm headed somewhere pleasant in life.
I have a lot to offer, and I expect just that much and more from others.
I will not let people disrespect me.
I am not as confident as it may seem. I can be insecure, too.
I ache when someone I love is hurting.
I've accepted way less than I deserve.
That won't be happening anymore.
I'm breaking the cycle.
Writing and music are my passions.
Piano has been a huge part of my life since I was eight years of age.
I'll give anything but up.
My writing is somewhat in code.
Kudos to whoever figures it out.
I will only hurt you intentionally, if you had done so first.
You get what you give.
Only a selected few people matter to me.
My father has reflected me into the lady I am today.
Give me a challenge. I'll win.
I'm extremely competitive.
I give everyone a chance, and if you're fortunate enough, I will give two.
I can find good in anything.
Understand that with what you behold within yourself,
that's beauty.
"I'll bring the sunshine. You bring the smiles."
This is my it, go, went - girl. =] To set it straight, nobody gets down like us, hits the parties like us, has jokes like us, or can rhyme like us. I can count on her for absolutely anything. I've never realized how much I could depend on someone 'til I met this female. I never knew how much trust I could put into someone 'til I had her as a friend. Never have I been sure enough about a person than her. I know she's an amazing person from the inside out, no joke. I experienced a moment where my life was actually in her hands, and she took care of me. I was at a time when I seriously felt like I was about to die, and she stood by me making sure every second I was okay. I've never had a friend so loyal. I choose my friends wisely, and this girl is down for me whenever through whatever; it's vise versa. She's something I can call my best friend, and back it up. We can tell you where the other one is at any time, and most of the time, that's together. We kick it bout every day, and not a one is boring. We can keep a conversation, and we'll def. keep this friendship we got got goin' on. Also, to let you boys know, yes my girl is single, but you break her heart, I'll break your shaft off. No pain, no gain, so learn the game. I love your guts, Chelcerbug! <3
You could smoke us 'cause we're so dope.
:)
Triple B
Everyone is raised to think a certain way, and as they get older, they either choose to stray from those thoughts, and find their own, or continue with what had been taught. I'm a stray. I think for myself. I'm my own. This causes misjudgement for my character, but honestly, I'm being judged no matter what. I'd rather you judge me for something I really am, so hit me with your best shot. I'm careless for what you must say. Somewhere along these lines, I must say I'm a decent girl, regardless of what you've heard. I've made mistakes, and I'll make plenty more. It's life. You learn from what you do, not from what you hear. Take that little bit of advice, and recognize the false gossip you've heard, and realize the lady I am. This lady knows what she's worth, which means I have a high opinion of myself. That also means I have high expectations and standards. 'You can't expect too much.' That phrase is used by people who are dangerously a wreck because they don't know what they're worth, or simply, they're not w0rth much. =)
Sometimes, I wonder if what I'm waiting for is exactly what I shouldn't be waiting for, if my search is not even yet close to being done, and if I'm right stopping right where I am in my tracks. I wonder if everything will turn out like I thought it would, or if this is all going to backfire on me. I wonder if I'm making the right choice. But then.. Then, I get the idea that it doesn't matter what I'm wondering because I'm still having fun. This could all blow away, but thank goodness for that sense of innocence in my thoughts; the ones where I was completely stumped and didn't know what to do for once. I'm going to miss that. I already am. I'm growing up, and maturity is following me. I'm no longer the little girl I once was. I'm recognizing it because: The giggle; It's not there anymore. The country voice; I lost it yrs. ago. Decisions; I'm making them on my own. Appearance; The freckles on my face are gone. You change without the least bit of acknowledgement. Living day by day, one day at a time, you don't realize the changes in yourself or anyone else. We're all growing up, and one day we're going to miss our innocence. We're going to miss being a kid, so I'm going to hold on to it as much as I can because I'm already missing it enough. My sister was always right. I should have listened. One thing I will wonder always, 'When did things stop being fun and start getting scary?'
Although your innocence and ignorance is bliss, you will find some things just simply are not okay. Your maturity will help you through life as well as every other attribute of your being. With this, I've learned that some things just aren't worth waiting for, and that although people will let you down, the only person that can get you down is yourself. Whenever things like this happen, it's best to keep yourself positive because negativity can do nothing for you. I've also learned that people who call themselves your friends are not always. Sometimes people get a thrill out of hurting. Not only are they hurting or trying to hurt you, but they're hurting themselves as well because in the long run, they've lost something good, no matter the relationship you have with them. Whenever you learn, other people will follow. It's a never ending cycle of how things make the world revolve and why the world is how it is today. Those who don't learn, they know better. They just refuse to see.
The world is spinning in a whole new perspective to me. Everything is more beautiful, more wonderful, and more understanding. What wasn't so clear, is crystal to me. People wait for a life changing experience, and once that experience has arrived, they will change. That experience has evolved me into a different lady; a better person, a child with a knowledge unknown. Never will I continue on the path I was traveling. Life is somewhat like a jigsaw puzzle. The pieces are all mixed up at first, but then, you put them together. You. That means, no one will help you through what you can't do. You have to find your own way. Don't waste your time waiting. Life won't wait. Books are words. Words are beautiful. But, if you find answers through books, you will never learn. You sit and read; the answers will fade. You go and search for your own answer; the answer will never be forgotten. Don't believe what you read but what you see. This world has turned into nothing but pitiful lies to control your mind into what is wanted. What about what you want? Go for it. No one can stop you but yourself.
Many people think I speak before I think, but they're making false assumptions. I do think before hand. It's just the fact of matter that they don't like what I have to say. I won't pity anyone. I'm not going to pretend I care if I don't. I'm going to be real and accountable for what I feel and say, as well as what I do. You could have the worst day of your life, but that won't change a word of what I need to tell you, whether it's sweet or hateful. If you want someone to lie to you or if you want to only hear what is pleasant to the ear, you're looking at the wrong female. I'm not responsible for how you react to me. Understand that. Realize that. Because, once you do, then, you will see me for the person I truly am. Then, you'll see that everything is more than words. The world is not out to get you. You are out to get yourself.
The worst thing about life is the growing pains, not the actual aches from growing but growing up. The heart aches from break ups, the friends you lose, deaths you experience, moving, arguments with the people in your surrounding, but mostly, the matter of you finding truth in everything you do. With very little time to act as a child, I've matured and had more experiences as an adult would, rather than a kid, and constantly I ask myself, when will it be my turn? Then, I find that I won't have a chance. This is the life chosen for me, and all I can do is try and evolve it into a place where I want to be. Doing so, I've lost opportunities by others not approving of myself and what my goals are. Misunderstood and struggling, they still can't stop me. I'll get what I want. Unfortunately, they can't see it's what I need.
"It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace."
- Diary by Chuck Palahniuk
Love ,
S.Beth
