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I am what I am.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them,

About Me

Wow. How life changes in such a short time. Guess I should have learned my lesson the first time. My husband and I are separating again. This time I dont see it mending. Im not bitter nor am I angry. Just another stepping stone in life to the ultimate happiness knocking on God's heaven door. My husband and I were married for 7 years, long hard years. Nothing is easy unless you work for sucess. You have to condition yourself to know that if you fight for the long haul it is the only happiness in a marriage. I couldnt give up and I wanted my husband to see that no matter what he was going through in his life that there was someone to believe in him. Unconditional love, the bad with the good, not just when it was good for me. They say the blind cant lead the blind....my first mistake. Only he can change himself, he admits that he was the reason this marriage failed...he gave up on me. He couldnt be faithful, no matter how hard he tried. He just cant seem to keep his promises....love does not hurt. My second mistake. I can leave this marriage saying that I gave my all....every laugh, every kiss, every tear, every fight and all the prayer I could. 110%. My heart is breaking but the fight doesnt stop here. I have to give 150% now and be the better person, im not leaving on a sour note, im not going to punch holes in the walls or burn his clothes or take all the stuff I sincerely gave from my love....but Im going to leave happily. I deserve to remain in tack and not take from my blessings that God has in store for me. I have my beautiful 4 y.o. son to take care of he is my life. That little boy has enough good in him to light the world, he is full of joy and harmony. He is the real reason that situations like this need to be as pain free has possible. He is a fresh life with a blank page waiting to be filled...I wont let the first sentence be pain or fear. It is my job as his mother to show him that there are no boundries and life doesnt stop at goodbye. I will always let him know that I love his father endlessly and I will never take the responsibilty from Daddy either...and I will do whatever above and beyond to make sure that little boy is happy and knows how to treat a woman. NO EXCUSES. No more!!!! To end this, Dorjan you will always have a window in my heart, my love for you will always be the same, it didnt have to end this way. Good luck. I love you with all my heart. Goodbye.Myspace For Girls Only - MyGirlySpace.com

My Interests

I love the outdoors, since I had my son things like the zoo and parks are the thing to do. Im not very much into partying. Id rather spend my days and nights with my son. I am an artist, something I gave up to help my husband become sucessful in the navy, but I will start catering to my talents now. Soon Ill add things I draw and design. I love to decorate. You need some help just ask me. Im down to make the world a prettier place, with all the bullshit in life might as well add a prettier side to the eyes. I love sports, play and watch. I love to host get togethers at my house. I have a knack at catering and cooking, you want to try something from the kitchen of Miki just ask. Im not a neat freak but learning how to keep things clean and get rid of the pack ratitsis..he he. Anything else about my interests just hit me up.

I'd like to meet:

So sad that my marriage came to this. Lies and deceit. Still after being caught and braking this family up you still continue to torment me....You will need me one day..One day. I hope your having fun because starting a new life and having to take care of OUR son alone sure is stressful. I dont get the help I need and I dont ask for alot... thats ok...you are just another statistic and I think its sad. Another black man that doesnt take care of his child, so he can run th street, get drunk, find hoes, and party. I cant do that, my son needs me. Enjoy the time you have now because it will catch up to you!! You broke my heart, you shattered my trust, and more then anything you stabbed this family in the back......Go run away and do it to another one. No regrets.
You Are The Emperor
You are an authority figure, and other people look to you for what to do.
You are strong and powerful. Crossing you is not a good idea.
You have worked hard to get to your position, and you're not about to give it up to anyone.
Though you have a warrior heart, you are gentle to those who treat you well.

Your fortune:

In the near future, you need to be willing and able to defend those you love.
This may be the time for you to step up and be the authority figure to those around you.
It is time for you to be independent, to become your own person.
You may need to look at your relationship with your father, or your relationships as a father. What Tarot Card Are You?

Music:

Breakup music, and baby making music.

Movies:

The notebook. Although, love movies make me sick right now. I call it the angry wife syndrome.

Television:


You are 100% Capricorn
How much do you match your zodiac sign?

Books:

Chicken Soup for the military wife's soul, I got this poem from that book.......and it hit home.How often we've stood on dark flight lines and piers, "I love you," "I miss you" whispered through tears. During long separations, in peacetime , at war my nights filled with dreams of this man I adore. With only memories to hold close at night... I live for the day God returns my sunlight. Yes, life goes on when your loved one's at sea... but the ache never leaves, the fear stays with me. Dear Lord, I need your guidance, your love.... help me be brave, keep your watch from above. Hold my dear one so safe in your heart and your hand... bring him home to his family....this hero....my man. Of us, Lord, I pray he'll be filled with such pride.... of how we carried on without him by our side. Please, help time fly quickly and soon I will hold.... the hand of the man whosse eyes chase the cold. Whose voice brings delight, whose touch eases pain. How will I ever say "Farewell" again? With your help, dear God, Ill try to stay strong.... and pray that his time here at home will be long. Still, "I know that the navy will need him," I sigh... but we'll face it together, Dear Lord, you and I.

Heroes:

My hero is GOD. Without God the world would be nothing but evil. At least with the belief in God gives many hope of a better being and forever love.
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