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Mark John

About Me

I do not pursue what I really desire.
It's a tricky piece of work, "being" something you tend to dislike. I'm what most people call a Christian. While we tend to chop up that category internally, and disregard those who disagree on certain issues who claim the same thing, you probably have a pretty decent idea of what that means.
I also work at one of those churches whose goal seems to be to prove that it's not like all the other churches out there. It's a big place. It does good things for lots of people, including me, and it also fails to meet its potential. As an individual, or as part of that institution, I make no claim to a corner on truth. I thrive on nit-picking others' ideas, and having them do it to me.
I have a bachelors degree in theology, or "Biblical Studies." What you would accurately call a B.S. in B.S. That's still funny to me.
I like music, but generally only as a way to ignore what I feel are my responsibilities. Sometimes I think creation and cartoons hold equal value for me.
I believe that God loves me, and everyone. I know that is not what one can honestly call a rational statement. I am not always okay with that. While I carry out a life devoted to that belief (with selfish sidesteps all along the way), I yearn constantly for moments where the confirmation or utter obliteration of that belief will be perfectly clear. I place great importance on the value of choices; the other side of the coin makes me wonder if it's all a big chemical reaction.
Until it's all perfectly sensical, I'm just going with what seems to work the best. I'd love to be educated by everyone I come in contact with. I often fail to remember to keep my mind open, especially when interacting with others who call themselves "Christian." Once people think they're on the right track, it seems they eagerly dismiss others without regard for the reasons behind their ideas. I'm okay with people knowing their ideas are irrational; I struggle most with people who don't even care why they believe what they do.
I tend to only think about the people who are right in front of my face. If I knew you in a previous phase of life, I probably won't be the one to initiate contact. You can probably imagine how this affects my attempted relationship with the intangible, divine God I claim to try to worship.
"I need more grace than I thought."

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My Blog

Pure bug beauty

One of the reasons I don't drift much in these waters anymore has been simply that I can't get to myspace.com at work. Apparently, there's some adult content lurking out on the internet somewhere, and...
Posted by on Wed, 22 Oct 2008 04:21:00 GMT

The "equals" sign.... part two.

Is the state of being verb killing our minds?Of late, I've been reading Buckminster Fuller's Operating Manual for Spaceship Earth among other tomes and reference works. Never has so much brilliance b...
Posted by on Thu, 03 Jul 2008 11:40:00 GMT

the "equals" sign.... part one.

I know it's fashionable to whine about the price of gasoline, or the products required to create it. I get it. It's rather frustrating to have to change your budget and lifestyle because of things h...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 20:14:00 GMT

Today I was intimidating...

I'm currently borrowing one of my parents' cars. This is because the brakes on my minivan scare my passengers. Yesterday, I replaced one of the front brakes, then broke a lug wrench and a pair of vi...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Jun 2008 15:04:00 GMT

arbitrary trisection...

My high school geometry experience consisted largely of my dad opening my horrible Christian-homeschooling-curriculum textbook, looking at the pages, and saying, "tell me what’s wrong with this ...
Posted by on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 15:26:00 GMT

marriage...

... most people make it look impossible, or at best very unappealing.My parents made it look difficult, but worth it.The only couples I know who seem to be happy together are the ones who are so busy ...
Posted by on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 21:49:00 GMT

It’s hard to type...

...with a cat on your lap.I've refrained from writing on here for a while. I'm debating shifting my focus to a different blog, or perhaps beginning to write along a theme that is outside myself. I'm...
Posted by on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 08:55:00 GMT

On the other hand...

I despise most about myself at the moment that for all my simmering, my stirring in the world of self-contemplation... for all my desire to find that which is good in everyone...Nothing pisses me off ...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Oct 2007 19:39:00 GMT

Queen City...

I'm headed your way. I'm playing Midpoint tonight at the New Stage Collective on 12th and Main. Close to Kaldi's. It's with Monk, and it should be just jolly. 10:00. See you there, maybe.
Posted by on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 12:46:00 GMT

You and I: Vibration.

It seems we exist at the crossing of two planes& love and death.Hardly a novel concept. On the contrary, I think it may seem so obvious to us that such things are so essentially the literary fluids ...
Posted by on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 20:36:00 GMT