About Me
..I am no one thing, but I am certainly not everything. So much defines me that I've become rediculously undefinable. And yet I try to be transparent in hopes that I will be understood. I believe in too many things to ever be satisfied with a paragraph summary of myself - and I ramble too much to be able to get a focused point or message across about myself. So I guess this whole "blurb" is pointless as it will constantly frustrate me and never be right. But I guess I had to try.
I believe in truth, in knowing all that we can know about life around us and the moment we are in before wasting energy contemplating things that are not around us and moments that have not come or have passed. I believe in a connectivity between all of us. I believe in the fusion and the flow of life that is in all things. I believe in love - I believe that we are to love ourselves, others, and the world around us and that when we do not, some kind of reaction occurs. I believe that even the most wretched of human being is beautiful on some level and was not so wretched at some point in his/her life. I feel people as plainly as I see them - I sense so much in people that very little can be hidden from me. I usually can't 'sense' details, but emotions, attitudes, pains, motives . . . all these things are generally obvious to me. And so people are very beautiful to me.
In a world with so much darkness, pain, lost wonderers, confusion, and hopelessness I also find as much beauty, wonderment, vitality, balance, and love. I struggle to hang onto hope when I've crushed so many of my own dreams and trampled on the success I was given, but in the end my humanity can only handle so much depression and pain and confusion so, whether its there or not, the finite spirit in me chooses to survive and seek out the light in any pit. In other words, no matter how bad it gets, I can survive and I will find the positive after a few moments of dwelling on the dirt.
I've recently survived a near fatal accident in which I should have died. There's no medical explanation for why I survived. . . thank God for miracles that don't require science and facts! Although I've lost the use of my right arm for the year, I've gained my sobriety, a renewed relationship with my God, a new outlook on the beauty of life, and my true self back. The loss of an arm was well worth it for all I have been given back!Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson
