..It is febuary 1998,
with too many mindless bodies,
walking the face of the planet,
and too many mindfull bodies,
without enough motivation,
to do anything constructive with their lives,
I despise these people,
in a way I can not verbally express,
my hatred for humanity
has reached an all time high,
I believe I am a higher power
and a greater being,
than our all too common society,
Lately I have asked myself
should I concede defeat
and conform to our commercialist society,
surely it would make my life
on this world easier to bear,
but when I get near my lowest moments,
I remember...
Why, I hate the world,
and everything, that is inside,
I remember why, that I despise
everything that is not I.
..I'm foul-mouthed, I like mud wrestling, classic horror flicks, a good metal show, and a drink to top it all off.
I'm critical, stubborn, vengeful, intense, bitter, loyal, creative, open-minded, and edgy.
I enjoy being a negation to everything in life.
You want to know anything else? Don't ask, experience it for yourself.
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
-Edgar Allen Poe
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[Marital Status] taken
[Shoe size] 7.5
[Parents still together] sadly...yes
[Siblings] 2 sisters
[Pets] about 5 sex slaves on a leash
FAVORITES
[Number] 13 and 6
[Animal] monsters
[Drinks] beer, soy milk, and coffee
[Soda] cream or pepsi kafe
[Book]
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] sometimes
[Have tattoos?] a baphomet on my left calf, "strange" trampstamp, imverted cross and pentagram on my back, and "WS" Withering Soul emblem on my chest
[Have Piercings?] 11 in total
[Cheat on tests/homework?] sometimes
[Drink/Smoke?] yes
[Like roller coasters?] no!!!
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] i want to live in the woods
[Want more piercings?] yes
[Like cleaning?] not at all
[Write in cursive or print?] print
[Own a web cam?] no
[Know how to drive?] somewhat
[Own a cell phone?] i hate phones, but um, yeah
[Ever get off the damn computer?] yes
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] Chick boxing! sat. nite!!!!
[Considered a life of crime?] everyday
[Lied to someone?] i try to be as honest as possible, I don't see the point in lying
[Been in love?] hardly
[Made out with JUST a friend?] yes
[Been in lust?] i suppose
[Used someone] no
[Been used?] never again
[Been cheated on?] who knows?
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] i'm not that cold-hearted
[Stolen anything?] yes, but I don't condone it
[Held a gun] yes
CURRENTS
[Current clothing] band t-shirt and mini skirt
[Current mood] tired
[Current taste] sweet sweet carbon monoxide
[What you currently smell like] dirt and candy
[Current hair] short & black
[Current thing I ought to be doing] playing bass
[Current cd in stereo] Borknager - Empiricism
[Last book you read] Strange Bedfellows
[Last movie you saw] Children of the Corn
[Last thing you ate] bread
[Last person you talked to on the phone] one of my bandmates
[Do drugs?] no
[Believe there is life on other planets?] of course
Remember your first love?] yeah.....the first time i heard decapitated play
[Still love him/her?] til death
[Read the newspaper?] read it when someone i knew killed someone
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] plenty
[Believe in miracles?] no
[Do well in school?] somewhat
[Wear hats]
[Hate yourself?] no
[Have an obsession?] i have many
[Collect anything?] mostly serial killer memorabilia
[Have a best friend?] yeah, Amdanda!! BFFFL!!
[Close friends?] any other true metal fiends
[Like your handwriting?] no, i used to
[Care about looks] somewhat
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] Who gives a shit?
[First kiss] dont really care
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] we shall see
[Do you believe in "the one?"] the dead one
[Are you a tease?] sometimes
[Too shy to make the first move?] No, i'll make the first move if I want to
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] very much so
[Bitch/Asshole] sometimes both at the same time, i can multi-task ;)
[sarcastic] sometimes
[Angel] what the hell?
[Devil] spreading the honest word of Father Satan...
[Shy] sometimes
[Talkative] rarely
