i detest change,but constantly find myself in the middle of it. i try to hold on to some of my childhood innocence, my friends are my family. i am constantly searching,never satisfied.boredom is the bane of my existence. i tend to be a bit pretentious. . i seldomnly fall in love,but can fall out of it quite easily. i am a jaded person who tends to observe situations before entering...i miss a lot of people in my past,those with whom i had the best{and sometimes worst}times of my life with. i seem to be at a crossroads of sorts where i feel the need to find these people. sometimes i am successful, other times not. i live like a gypsy, but i like to have a home to come back to.spiritually i tend to delve into darker realms and outer regions,stopping to pay homage to kali and lilith. i do not harm those who do not harm me, but will bring an unstoppable wrath to those who bring discomfort and sadness to myself and the ones that i love.my pretentiousness stems from my intolerance of ignorance and the dislike of people who pretend to be what they are not and are more concerned with their self image than their thoughts and feelings about the truth of their existence. i can not be without laughter surrounding me, or intense discussion. i am fasinated with death and dying, but not in some cheeseball goth mentality. i simply recognize that we are an imperfect species that brings about its own demise. i am not a snob, but am very selective of those i let near me. i do not know where life will take me tomorrow, but as long as joshua is at my side, i know all will be fine. there is no one that i have ever met that did not leave a scar of some form on my surface and i am ever mindful of this...._________________
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Salamander's Vlog http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=skCX7aXDjYE
Dead Boy, Flaming Creatures http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYSUBKnI42w
The Birthday Party- Mutiny In Heaven http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bs5T9-uyU1o
punishment...reward.....
Current 93 - Black Ships Ate the Sky http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9q1FomLSkw
Current 93 - Black Ships Ate the Sky
The Cramps - Love Me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dagQK5a78ig
Spiritualized - Let It Flow http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuHcWLCkLiI
Spiritualized - Let It Flow
just enough to make me sick...
Spiritualized - Let It Flow http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuHcWLCkLiI
Spiritualized - Let It Flow
spiritualized - let it flow http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urdFpGkcQXs
Joy Division- "She's Lost Control http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=35q25YG4JEA
the joy of epilepsy.....
