Utada Hikaru - Dareka No Negai Ga Kanau Koro
"So. What is the difference between rap and hip hop? It's simple. It's like the difference between saying you love somebody and being in love with somebody. Rap is just a word." -Sanaa Lathan [Brown Sugar]
When I die, I want to leave a stain on this world. I'm not talkin about a girl's period kind of stain. I'm talkin about fuckin.. blood and guts all over the sidewalk kind of stain. I want the world to see the color of my insides and know that I'm worth a damn. I'm going to live life by making the most out of my existence. I think that's the meaning of life, to find a purpose that will fill the emptiness inside of us that makes us search for.. the meaning of life in the first place. haha.. at least that's what I think right now.
but anyway.. I'm so fucked up cus everyday feels like a dream. It's like I'm awake in a third person perspective. Don't know what's causing this.. (weeed) Oh yea its definitely.. I need to feel alive somehow.. "I've been searching for so long.. for something to... anonymous.. avenge my name" -the mars volta
But yea.. whatever.. could be hella random sometimes. I hate smoking. Hate the smell of them. Never smoked a cigarette in my life. oh. and weed doesn't count. Drama people are OK to me. I'm always willing to work things out. I'm someone who needs variations in his life. That doesn't mean that I get tired of the same people, just of the same shit. If you wanna know somethin, just ask and don't assume that you'll ever understand me cus I hold others in the same respect. Maybe when I die, I'll have time to fully reflect back on my life. Right now everything is passing me by and I barely have time to enjoy the moment. I miss the past but I have no choice but to move on because time stops for no one. It doesn't wait for you to get back on your feet. I'm constantly evolving because I keep an open-mind and I learn quick. I have ambitions as well as inhibitions, and I try to deal with them without losing my mind in the process. If you ever need anything, I'm here for you. All you gotta do is ask.
People are always saying that they wanna live a life of no regrets.. then DON'T REGRET ANYTHING. It's hard, but realize that even the most negative or insignificant event occurs to bring about positive outcomes..