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FOREVER.

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About Me

IF YOU CARE TO KNOW
-WARNING: DO NOT PISS ME OFF
Physically:
I'M BLONDE
I HAVE BLUE GREY EYES
5'8"-9"
122-126 lbs (I BOUNCE AROUND)
PALE AS A GHOST
Everything else:
-I WAS MISPLACED WITHIN EXISTANCE
-I SEE SHIT THATS NOT ALWAYS THERE (LINES,COLORS)
-I DON'T LIKE HUMAN STUPIDITY
-HUMAN STUPIDITY INTERESTS ME
-I LOVE THE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE
-I AM NEGATIVE, AND MORBID
-EVERYDAY IS A LEARNING EXPERIENCE
-AND ONE MORE REASON TO NOT WAKE UP
-I USED TO WANT TO BE A MODEL
-NOW I KINDA JUST WANT TO BE A ROLE-MODEL
-I WISH I COULD BE A FAIRY -
-OR MAYBE JUST HAVE WINGS AND BE CUTE
-I WANT TO LIVE IN THE CLOUDS
-I DONT KNOW WHY PEOPLE DONT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY
-I WISH ON STARS
-AND I BELIEVE WISHES AT 11:11 A.M. WILL COME TRUE
-MY FAVORITE COLOR IS LIFE
-I WANT TO DO ALOT IN LIFE:
-TATTOO ARTIST
-MODEL
-TEACHER
-INTERPRETER
-GUITARIST
-REVOLUTIONARY
-AND FINALLY
-A LAZY BUM
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-I'M A FEMINIST. LOOK THE WORD UP.
-I DON'T DO DRUGS OR SMOKE
-I'M NOT STRAIGHTEDGE
-I DRINK. ITS NOT COOL.
-I WILL VOTE
-I DANCE IN THE RAIN
-AND LAY IN THE SNOW TILL I TURN NUMB
-I CRY REGULARLY. I ACCEPT THIS.
-I WISH FOR PEACE
-BUT WE ALL HAVE OUR DEFINITIONS OF IT
-I WANT TO LIVE AND DIE
-REVENGE IS AN ANTI-DRUG
-I LOVE FOOD. CANDY IS AN ADDICTION
-POEMS ARE MY WAY OF VENTING
-I LOVE MUSIC. IT GIVES ME FEELINGS. AND MEMORIES.
-ROCK METAL PUNK TECHNO TRANCE EMO SCREAMO GRUNGE CLASSIC ROCK
-I WALK AIMLESSLY
-THE BEGINNING YEARS OF MY LIFE I READ
-I LIKE LONG CAR RIDES. FAST CAR RIDES. LOUD CAR RIDES.
-I TRIED FLUTE. AND GUITAR
-I WANT TO SEE THE WHOLE WORLD.
-THE DESTRUCTION OF HUMANITY BRINGS ME JOY
-IF YOU WANT THE TRUTH. ASK. YOU'LL GET IT.
-RANDOM AND CRAZY NOUNS MAKE LIFE FUN.
-I LOVE CONCERTS. MAINLY TO WATCH PEOPLE.
-IF I COULD MAKE MY MIND A BOOK. I'D LET EVERYONE READ IT
-I AM IN LOVE WITH A STUFFED SEAL
-ANIME IS A BIG PART OF HOW I GOT TO WHERE I AM
-NIRVANA SAVED ME. KURT COBAIN IS DEAD. THATS SAD.
-THE MEDIA IS FUCKED UP. PEOPLE ARE GULLIBLE AND EASY TO FOOL.
-NOTHING IS REAL.
-QUESTION EVERYTHING. IF IT MAKES YOU SAD. DONT GIVE A FUCK.
-SUICIDE IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION FOR A TEMPORARY PROBLEM
-HAPPINESS IS WHATEVER YOU MAKE IT
-DON'T LET OTHERS BULLSHIT BRING YOU DOWN
-I HATE LIARS SOMETIMES
-ITS CLICHE... BUT I'M ALLERGIC TO BULLSHIT
-I DISLIKE COLD AND HOT.
-LIGHTS MAKE ME SMILE.
-SOMETIMES... I REALLY THINK CT IS BEAUTIFUL.
-THOSE MOMENTS THE SKY GETS A WIERD HAZY BLUE
-I FEAR BEING LEFT BEHIND AND
-GIVING MY TRUST AND HEART ONLY TO SEE IT SMASHED INTO NOTHING.
-BUT I DESIRE TO LOVE.
-LANGUAGES MAKE ME EXCITED.
---SPANISH
---LATIN
---POLISH
-I AM A TOTAL HYPOCRITE JUST LIKE YOU.
-THIS IS A LIST OF SHIT I WROTE.
-IT CHANGES AND EVOLVES.
-THERES A LOT MORE TO ME THAN THIS.
-IF I COULD SOMEHOW TAPE PARTS OF MY LIFE, AND THEN SHOW YOU, I WOULD.
-AS AN ARTIST MY INABILITY TO EXPRESS BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS IN LIFE BRINGS ME PAIN.
-IM ME AT ROCKON4EVER74
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These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume
therefore LOVE MODERATELY

Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself.
-Frederich Nietzsche
The cruelest lies are often told in silence.
-Unknown
A single death is a tragedy; a million deaths is a statistic.
-Joseph Stalin
Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former.
-Albert Einstein
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.
-Edna St. Vincent Millay
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
-The Fray (All at Once)
Now I am become death. Destroyer of worlds.
-Robert Oppenheimer
The sun was born, so it shall die and only shadows comfort me. I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me.
-VNV NationMusic and poesy use to quicken you;
The mathematics and the metaphysics—
Fall to them as you find your stomach serves you.
No profit grows where is no pleasure ta'en.
In brief, sir, study what you most affect.
-Shakespeare "The Taming of the Shrew"
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone who is not fake. AND My total opposite personality.
I admire those who I come across, even once, that have the individuality to remain in my thoughts, inspire me, and possibly even change my views.

Television:

I dont watch teevee.

My Blog

green and yellow.

I always write on here when I'm down. This time however I don't know if what I'm feeling or lacking of, is sadness.   I can't really explain it. I look around and everything looks so beautiful. ...
Posted by FOREVER. on Sun, 11 May 2008 04:29:00 PST

now.

I completely and totally lack any motivation in life at the moment. It's really sad, I just don't see much in front of me at this time. Ugh fuck negativity.   I kinda just want to drop off the pl...
Posted by FOREVER. on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:03:00 PST

You know Ive started to grow since youve been away.

So, I'm going to sit here and waste more of the life I already sorta feel I've wasted because well... this is a vent. I don't want to say I regret anything, I don't think that thats necessarily what I...
Posted by FOREVER. on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 05:42:00 PST

On the floor where you left me.

It's gotten to a point where I don't know whether or not I'm happy with the way that things are going in my life. The weekdays are always almost the exact same thing. I feel like I'm living for ...
Posted by FOREVER. on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:56:00 PST

Response.

So I responded to a bulletin a few days ago that a boy wrote asking why it is that nice girls always seem to be with jerks and put up with them. This was a good question and while thinking about ...
Posted by FOREVER. on Thu, 31 Jan 2008 04:34:00 PST

Combine.

Ok so as I was looking through my 100's of poems/vents (idk if i should call them poems b/c they're usually spews of rammbling, usually negative, that just kinda ends up in a "poem like" form.) but us...
Posted by FOREVER. on Mon, 14 Jan 2008 08:10:00 PST

I need to stop this.

I really need to stop posting blogs.   So I got a letter from Uhart about languages. I don't know what I should major in. Either art or a language. I have found how much I start disliking art du...
Posted by FOREVER. on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 04:38:00 PST

rambling? thoughts?

I dislike not knowing. I suppose everyone does, but how is it then that everyone can accept what I can't? I feel as if I am completely dependent on the actions of those around me and I dislike it. How...
Posted by FOREVER. on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 04:59:00 PST

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAH. THAT IS WHAT MY BRAIN IS SAYING. Comprehend?   Yes?   Thought so.   but do you....?     ...!...
Posted by FOREVER. on Wed, 26 Dec 2007 08:17:00 PST

EEEYEP...Caldors??

So I def just had this second long flashback of the most random little unimportant thing ever. It was just this quick flashback to where Caldors used to be on Washington street. It was the strangest t...
Posted by FOREVER. on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 05:24:00 PST