Distended slant, dissolute banter, incredulous calculation, vacillating caress, writhing impatience, lugubrious reminiscence, brooding countenance, churlish gaze, serpent-like grace, impertinent coquetry, burlesque repartee - an inveterate seeker, a fastidious bore and pretentious fool.
05.07 Temporarily out of the universal order. Effusive. Agog... There is a path upon which I am about to embark - a billion years in the darkness traveling to paradise...
07.20 I thought I had taken a wrong direction and lost my way. The darkness of natural as well as of sylvan dusk gathered over me. I looked round in search of another road. There was none: all was interwoven stem. columnar trunk, dense summer foliage - no opening anywhere. At last the trees thinned a little...
07.26 Neither good-natured nor phlegmatic
08.22 I never really knew how to move you so I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins...
08.26 Another gasp... No longer able to swim by myself. Drowning. Kingdom for a hand!
09.01 Teaching.
09.20 She is imagining again. Her thorns are withering and I am trying to warn her so that she is not left with even deeper scars in their place.
09.21 Lacking pride. Restlessness and demagoguery. Auctioning my soul.
09.25 Misplacing, misusing articles with an increasing fastidiousness.
10.10 Take a newspaper. Take a pair of scissors. Choose an article as long as you are planning to make your poem. Then cut out each of the words that make up this article and put them in a bag. Shake it gently. Then take out the scraps one after the other in the order in which they left the bag. Copy conscientiously. The poem will be like you. And here you are a writer, infinitely original and endowed with a sensibility that is charming though beyond the understanding of the vulgar.Tristan Tzara
10.23 By the time I am done life will be done with me.
10.25 Permanent itch.
10.27 An ornament on the rectangular piece of paper.
10.31 Sportsmenka, komsomolka i prosto krasavitsa!
11.05 Found a cat today in the street, took him to the vet and then to my mother's. Vasiliy the cat will move in with me in a month when I am in my new apartment. Although I always wanted a golden retriever...
11.06 In order to be a good person in this world one needs help of a psychiatrist.
11.07 Of course not.
11.11 I dread caring because every time I start caring I get pushed away.
11.18 Expected to be strong, enduring, active, understanding.
11.23 Then. suddenly, emotion spoke in accents once familiar;
12.22 Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources. -Linda Talley
01.29 I never thought I'd ever associate the US and freedom, but here I am looking forward to return to America to experience that long awaited freedom.
02.01 Preparing the brushes.
02.10 "I only get an uncontrollable urge to murder every other day now..." - DCLugi.
02.14 I should read more. I find a lot of inspiration in books. And much cure.
02.26 My 9th and the last anniversary today. Looking back - those were the hardest but most enlightening years of my life. Now, I have to let go... of too much at once.
02.28 I AM A SICK woMAN.... I am a spiteful woman. I am an unattractive woman. I believe my liver is diseased. However, I know nothing at all about my disease, and do not know for certain what ails me.
03.02 Here to escape my mistakes.
03.06 Empty: containing nothing; having none of the usual or appropriate contents; vacant; unoccupied; destitute of some quality or qualities; devoid; without force, effect, or significance; hollow; meaningless; completely spent of emotion; not employed in useful activity or work; idle; null; void...
03.11 I had always believed in Andre Breton's freedom, to write as one thinks, in the order and disorder in which one feels in thinks, to follow sensations and absurd correlations of events and images, to trust to the new realms they lead one into. "The cult of the marvelous." Also the cult of the unconscious leadership, the cult of mystery, the evasion of false logic. The cult of the unconscious as proclaimed by Rimbaud. It is not madness. It is an effort to transcend the rigidities and the patterns made by the rational mind. -Anais Nin
03.14 Love lack'd a dwelling and made him her place...
03.21 It takes a lot of strength to bear the pains of intellect. I'd rather lose myself in make-up and girly what-nots than face the disasters of my weakness.
04.20 Conscious vegetative state.
04.27 It is a beautiful word, isn't it? Just pronounce it whispering and listen: re-mem-ber...
04.30 I had no intention of reflecting on the inventor of the telephone when I started to write. I intended to wish everyone a Happy New Year, with the exception of the Emperor of Russia …Just then the telephone rang … and I went to the telephone and, as usual, lost my temper … I hung up the telephone in disgust and went back to my writing, and instead of the Emperor of Russia I put in the inventor of the telephone. -Mark Twain
07.23 The mechanics of amorous vassalage require a fathomless futility. - R.B.
07.30 Death of the Insurgent Soul
10.09 I senselessly stare at his crocodile shoes. I count. I give out compliments. I am never late. My back hurts. I am happy.
10.21 The Virgin Queen.
11.22 Imbued with an extra tint of colour...
12.18 Tired of being mistaken for an Emo. Come on, people! Give my sense of humor some credit!
02.14 Current song on my profile is my "away message" (just to let y'all know). I'm sure all of you would concur: ain't no sunshine when I'm gone. But then, again: ain't none when I am present either... He certainly knows!
06.07 Auspiciously asinine.
07.02 Loving the puerile diversion of seeking attention in all the wrong places!