focus |
so, i had a loss of focus, a shift in power, a slight in judgement. it was so strange. i had been so proud and so dedicated to not drinking. then, without even making a desicion to d...
Posted by tonya on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 02:14:00 PST |
moderation |
um.... apparently doesn't work for me. big surprise. i have always been an all or nothing kinda girl.you know, i'm usually quite honest in these blogs that not many care about, but i...
Posted by tonya on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 06:14:00 PST |
thanks |
thanks to all of you who are supportive and understand that everyone, everything isn't perfect. life is trial and error. i never thought i would go 44 days without drinking, i did it. ...
Posted by tonya on Mon, 26 Nov 2007 11:27:00 PST |
days dont matter |
okay, so i am drinking again. in moderation... right, i do not have disease, i have social anxiety.so, here goes the down fall of my journal of success. whatever fuckers, you try it, 44 day ;) hol...
Posted by tonya on Sun, 25 Nov 2007 12:49:00 PST |
41 days later |
so, i have actually been getting complaints about me not putting up blogs, as if they are so interesting. you people are just nosey :)so, at first the frequent writing were about me being sober,...
Posted by tonya on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 04:50:00 PST |
Day 39 |
hmmm.... been busy and tired.i got an awesome new job, not the Pier 1 shit. worked the last two days and i love it. have to get up to damn early though.other than that things have be...
Posted by tonya on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 11:46:00 PST |
Day 36 |
Yep, 36 days, no drinks... yippeee
Posted by tonya on Wed, 14 Nov 2007 05:01:00 PST |
Day what the Fuck ever |
i feel the old me squirming it's way back in. the one that says fuck the world, i don't need anyone, i'm fine, there's nothing wrong with me, i am in control, i am never a victim, i run the show.this...
Posted by tonya on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 09:54:00 PST |
Hmmm.... |
i learned something today. the ones i argue and butt heads with most (which i usually blame entirely on them) seem to be the ones i am seeking the most approval from. strange how that works.attentio...
Posted by tonya on Fri, 09 Nov 2007 02:32:00 PST |
Today - 31 days later |
i used to feel like i had to struggle, that i had to have chaos, to feel alive. that pain kept me awake and alert. i have always been attracted to the dark side of everything, drawn to it and into i...
Posted by tonya on Thu, 08 Nov 2007 01:20:00 PST |
