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My name is Mª®î§ª!
Life is so spectacular and thrilling! Just when I thought all of my hopes for loving another human being were crushed, life grabbed me with full force and booted me in the ass so hard I opened my eyes to see its ever changing. On April 27, 2006 I met some college boy from a small town and instantly there was a spark. Boy oh boy! It was one of those ” Hello, I am the person you are going to spend the rest of your bloody life with.” Hello’s. Little did I want to admit I was falling for him but I didn’t want to admit to myself he was a “good guy”. Slowly, day by day, I was hopelessly head over heels for this boy and I still was too thick headed to let him in. Finally after I told him to move on, he did and it was my come to Jesus moment. He fell for a girl while he was out of town and when I found out, my heart just shattered! I realized that I loved him more than I thought and from that day on, I was stuck like glue to him. In August I finally broke down and took the title of his girlfriend and that was that! On January 27, 2007, we said “I Do” to spending our lives with one another and letting nothing get in the way. Not everyone was there that I was hoping because we only planned it out in 3 days due to what later was the loss of my Papa Brown. But life with Jay has been so special and made me think of the better things in life.
Just some little facts:
-- 22 years young, but was told I looked 30 :(
-- Had Cervicular Cancer (past-tense)
-- Married for 2 1/2 years
-- Little house on a hill where we can see Mt. Rainer
-- 3 kids: Dakota, Kalifornia, and SJ (2 dogs and a horse)
-- The oldest of 6 (1 full brother, 1 half sister, 1 step brother from Papa Al, and 1 step brother and step sister from my dad)
-- Love sports!
-- Loves an ice cold Coors light
-- Chevy girl all the e*f*f*i*n way
-- Fallen for a Ford Man
-- Own 02 pontiac grand am gt, 75 Toyota Celica Gt, and a 94 Ford F-150 to pull our 78 Fiberform
-- Love my shit-kickers!
-- Love getting dirty!
-- Love 4 wheelers, dirtbikes, and street bikes
-- Sucker for a copenhagen ring and boots
-- Love a good sunset
-- Snuggling in the morning
-- Road Trips to GKW ( god knows where )
-- The coast and surfing
-- Warm monsoon rains
little did you know......
Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest. Laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pourin rain, hold someones hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, smile until your face hurts, dont be afraid to take chances or fall in love.......and most of all, live in the moment cause when you look back someday knowing you have no regrets, it' going to make you smile.

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Keep your head high. There are people that would kill to see you fall.
The only people needed in your life are the ones that prove they need you in thiers.

My Blog

Old friends, second chances

Old friends, second chances Life can throw things at a person from so many different directions and cause things to happen that are not necessarily what youd hope. A little over a year ago, I lost my...
Posted by on Sat, 30 May 2009 14:09:00 GMT

.¤ My 22nd bday Bash!¤.

Ok so for Birthday and an Early Memorial Day celebration, we are having another spectacular bash. We are playin on a huge bonfire in our new pit, plenty of Beer Pong and 4 korners! Not to mention the ...
Posted by on Tue, 12 May 2009 02:29:00 GMT

Finding a rainbow after the storm

As most know, I found out that I had cervicular cancer and that I needed surgery soon if I had any intentions of saving myself the trouble of struggling to have kids or even worse a hysterectimy or ...
Posted by on Tue, 12 May 2009 00:06:00 GMT

Post Operation

Well I am alive. I made it through the surgery. I was quite upset because when I got to the Surgery Center, after watching Jay eat....lol....since I couldnt eat after 10 last night, at 1pm they told m...
Posted by on Fri, 24 Apr 2009 22:11:00 GMT

Countdown is on

Friday is the day. The more I think of it, the more excited I get about becoming healed and getting the cancer out. But at the exact same time, I am getting nervous. I had surgery and have been put un...
Posted by on Mon, 20 Apr 2009 21:36:00 GMT

Medical Update

Well I had an appointment on Tuesday to find out my options. Luckily it was caught in the nick of time and it hasn't spread to the mucsle in my cervix. I go in for surgery on April 24th at 230 here in...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Apr 2009 14:07:00 GMT

New meaning in life

Medical update:As of March 10, 2009, I have a new look on my life and cannot take things just as life passes me by any more. I went in and had the procedure,copoloscopy, I have been putting off for mo...
Posted by on Sat, 21 Mar 2009 20:48:00 GMT

Thats right, its been said....

At first I was hesitant on posting this because I know there are butt loads of fucking haters that cant stand the fact that the world DOESN'T revolve around them whether it be good or bad but I told m...
Posted by on Fri, 02 Jan 2009 08:52:00 GMT

This empty feeling

Since I moved in July, I have seen my "best friend" a hand full of times. We have been through so much together and it's a real shame. I feel like we are falling further and further apart. It's so har...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Dec 2008 03:26:00 GMT

Oddly enough

Lately I have had some major up and downs. At first I just thought it was the meds that they put me on, working with the hormones but tonight, so much emotion ran through me at one point on the way ho...
Posted by on Mon, 17 Nov 2008 09:04:00 GMT