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The Darkest Star

I want you to lead me, take me somewhere. Don't wanna live in a dream, one more day...♥

About Me

"Caught somewhere between my fears and dreams. And all I have are demons here for company. Come and look inside hope you like what you see. If you run and hide your scared of what is me. Bind my idle hands, they only claw at me. Drown in emptiness my soul is left to bleed." -DamagePlan
Have you ever realized that when people say you..ve changed,
it..s just because you..ve stopped living your life...
their way!
I aM tHe MaStEr Of My FaTe, I aM tHe CaPtAiN oF mY SoUl
I used to think this was a place to describe myself to you, but recently that thought changed. I cannot tell you who I am, because even if I did you would still just form your own opinion. That is fine, but base your opinion off of you and I...not things you hear or assume. Ask questions and get to know me...don't assume things, assumptions always make people looks like asses anyway. Also, if you do decide to judge me before you get to know me or if we have had past altercations-remember people change and people have bad days, fucked up fears or even esteem issues. If we aren't friends, neither of us are better than one another. And fuck off if you think your better than me. I am a rockin' kick ass person when you get to know me. I will not lie or cheat or decieve, I will always be real.I can run through my favorites, and my fears, my loves & my hates...but honestly what will that tell you. It will lead you to stereotype me, and that is not what I want. I could pretend that I am 100% happy at all times, but I would be lying. I will not pretend to be who you want me to be. I am not emo, or punk. I am not goth, or rockstar. I am me, and I will mix anything I want into me. I will be happy one day, and sad the next. I will have bad days, and I will cry for hours. I will have good days, and I will smile endlessly for hours. We all vary from day today, we all have ups and downs.The key is staying true to yourself, and keeping yourself happy.
She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego. Sugarcult ~ Pretty Girl
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My Interests



YoU CaN't HeLp WhO YoU FaLL In LoVe WiTh

R.I.P Brother Dime, In MeTaL MeMoRy!

My LoVe is MuSiC! All music is okay sometimes, if it makes me happy, sad, angry or whatever else it can make me rOcKs! Music is in my blood and always will be! I recently decided to let go of the goal to have music in my life as my career. I found that it is not realistic to hold that goal, but it more realistic to keep it is a top hobby. I have dreams to open a coffee house/cafe, so I want to start working towards that. Even bigger dream, to open a small concert venue similiar to The Pearl Room. Ever since I joined there street team my dreams have only grew!
I love meeting new people, I love trying new things (to a point). I love sampling or dipping into other music types/styles and I love going to new places. I love faeries, dragons, golbins, hobbits...LOL all that shit RoCkS. Brian Fround is my favorite faerie artist! Rollerblading is the shit, not agressive though I might break a limb. I enjoy scrapbooking for some odd reason, but shut up it's relaxing & you can make some really cool stuff. LOL! Drinking makes me feel good, and laughing is always a plus, I giggle a lot. I love my bf, Adam. He is a shithead, but what are ya gonna do. I love to travel! I like to write, it releases anger-happiness-fear-hope and enything else the human brain can conjure up. I like taking pictures, not only of me...but of others & also scenery. I like animals alot, and I also like to go camping. I don't know what else to say, I guess if you want to know more you will just have to ask...

I'd like to meet:

I would LoVe to meet Mr. Zakk Wylde.
He has got to be number one on my list.
He is such a beautiful being and so compassionate,
and on the flip side knows how to RoCk OuT & have a good time!
He is just amazing!
One of my main interests, in people to meet within the music industry was Dime
I never got my chance, for those of you who did; cherish that memory, you met a metal god!
I want to meet people that I find to be real, famous not famous...I don't care, but real.

Latest realizations:
You don't need to be in love to be happy,
but you need to be happy to be in love.

Music:

R.I.P. Dimebag Darrell In MeTaL MeMoRy!

MuSiC is my heart and my love!

I listen to such a variety of music.
I guess I can try to make a list.
Here's what I like and then some:
PRiDe & GLoRy
KoRn
IrOn MaIdEn
IcEd EaRtH
MeTaLliCa
BlAcK LaBeL SoCiEtY
PaNtErA
DoWn
DaMaGe PlAn
PiNk FlYoD
LaMb of GoD
BlAcK SaBbAtH
OzZy
RoB ZoMbIe
QuEeNsRyCh
StAiNd
JuDaS PrIeSt
LyNyRd SkYnYrD
CrAdLe Of FiLtH
MaNsOn
GuNs N' RoSeS
DaShBoArD CoNfEsSiOnAl
NiN
PoIsOn
SeEtHeR
DoWn
FeRgIe
EvAnEsSeNcE
StYx
SoUlFlY
LiNkIn PaRk
DaUgHtRy
SiMpLe pLaN
PaPa RoAcH
CoLLeCtIvE SoUl
tEsLa
MuDvAyNe
CoRrOsIoN Of CoNfOrMiTy
The KilLeRs
TwIcE ReMoVeD
SLaYeR
LeD ZePPeLiN
HeArT
EmInEm
FoRiEgNeR
JoUrNeY
3 DoOrS DoWn
PaPa RoAcH
In ReD
In FlAmEs
BrEaKiNg BeNjAmIn
JeWeL
StAtIc X
ShErYl CrOw
BooK Of ShAdOws
O.A.R.
CaNdLe BoX
UsHeR
GwEn StEfAnI

I like so much, I can't even think of them all right now. I listen to everything, if it makes me happy I listen to it, if I need to be angry and it helps I'll listen to it, ya know? I am very open minded when it comes to music! I'll keep updating this, but I know I will never be able to list everything I like...

Movies:

I LoVe The Labyrinth!

PaNs LaByRiNtH
A Walk to Remember
Nightmare Before Christmas
BRiDgE To TaRiBiThIa
SiN CiTy
CiTy of AnGeLs
Fight Club
The Notebook
Lilo & Stitch
DiMeViSiOn
KiLL BiLL
Spiderman 1 & 2
Hook
Pantera Videos
Harry Potter (all of them)
A Clockwork Orange
A Christmas Story
Open Water
Edward Scissorhands
Napoleon Dynamite
GrEaSe 1 & 2
Pretty Woman
A Cinderella Story
Requim of a Dream
Hostage
Ladder 49
W. Wonka & the Chocolate Factory
Interview with the Vampire
Natural Born Killers

My choices go from one extreme to the next, I'm odd!
LOL!

Television:


GrAy's AnAtomy
LA INK
MyThBuStErS
House
BoY MeeTs WoRLd
AmErIcAn IDoL
OnE TrEE HiLL
ReAl WoRLd
TrAdInG SpAcEs
RoSeAnNe
MiAMi InK
ReAl Tv
WhiLe YoU WeRe OuT
FrEsH PrInCe
CsI, all of them
InKeD
AnImaLs FuNNiEsT ViDeOs
CaRe BeArS RoCk
CoPs
WhAt NoT tO WeAr
OrAnGe CoUnTy ChOppErS
PiMp My RiDe
CoUrt Tv ShOws
FeAr FaCtOr
SuRvIvInG NuGeNt
WhTeVeR iS oN ThAt SeeMs To PuLL mE iN RoCks!!!
I guess this is what I watch when I actually watch tv...meh!

Books:

Save Me From Myself -Brian Welch

Heroes:


"I'm bidding myself farewell for now, and hoping for a better tomorrow. A day when I, as me can shine through with pure intent & happiness" Author: The Darkest Star

My Blog

My weight loss journey 2008!

As most of you know, I started Weight Watchers in January 2007.It was almost like a New Year's Resolution to lose weight,but it was more so just something I really wanted and needed to do.I was reall...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 04:37:00 PST

I went to the hospital...

I am not sure if many of you know, but I have been in the hospital since Saturday.  I was released yesterday around 5:30pm.  Saturday morning around 4 am I woke up with excruciating pain in ...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 12:15:00 PST

Doing some thinking...

Well, as summer approaches and friends are finally all back together to enjoy the outdoors...my mind can't help but wander and think of the past, present, and future.  During winter, it seems tha...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Mon, 25 Jun 2007 06:58:00 PST

Sarinity Lynn Sumner

You've been on my mind lately, alot more than usual.  This is strange to me, because normally my worst times are in July...although I still have a hard time most of the time.  I put together...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 09:27:00 PST

My 24th. BiRtHdAy PaRtY ? RoCk On!

I just have to say that last night RoCkEd! I honestly think it was probably one of my best birthday's ever! A hUgE THANK YOU goes out to Elaine, Adam & Tim! ADAM I LOVE YOU! Tim & Elaine you g...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 09:03:00 PST

A RoCkIn' GooD TiMe!

This weekend was all in all one of the best in a while.Being that it is winter, we are cooped up alot and the cabin fever is eating at us.Adam & I are summer people, we love to camp-bbq-swim-and j...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 08:26:00 PST

Do you even try to understand...?

I seem to have been blessed with the wicked trait known as jealousy. It is something that I have lived with for years now, or so people think. It is not something I am proud of, yet I have no reason t...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Tue, 15 Aug 2006 11:23:00 PST

CoNfUsIoN & SeLf WoRtH...?

I am sick of these feelings that I hold inside, and I refuse to let them go no matter the hurt because letting go seems to hurt more. That almost doesn't even make sense. I feel so alone, yet that is ...
Posted by The Darkest Star on Mon, 19 Dec 2005 03:42:00 PST