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† brOkEnspirit † †GOthiC CULtUrE †pEOpLE whOs intO gOthiC †bLACk mEtAL and dEAth mEtAL †writingpOEmS †bitinG †vAmpirES†dArk †rAin †fULLmOOn †dEmOnz †dragOnz †ghOst †mUSiC †LAUghinG tO thOSE pEOpLE thAt LAuGhs At mE†gUmmiES †piErCinG †pAin †animALz †viOLEnCE †wOrLd dOminAtiOn †witCh crAft †pEntagrAm †grAvEyArdz†cAndLEz †fiShnEtz †bEinG hAtEd †bEin' aLOnE †bEin' bOrEd †fOOtLiCkinG †fEEt smELLin' †wAtChin' sUn gOezdOwn †vAmpirE cOffin †i am † brOkEnspirit † frOm thE hAUntEd hOUSE.. i am empty hAndEd.... i OnLy gOt brOkEn prOmiSES... i am nOt prEtty..im jUSt rEAL.. i dOnt wAnt anyOnE tO sEE mE sAd w/ my friEndS im appEE dEy nOtiCE it EAzy.. bUt mE mysELf And i iS aLL ivE gOt..tiL thE End.. why nOt kiLL mysELf?! i dOnt fEEL nO LOvE... bUt i LOvE aLL my friEndz.. i've bEEn a bAd..bAd gUrL, i'vE bEEn cArELESs with a dELicAtE mAn And it'S a sAd..sAd wOrLD whEn a gUrL wiLL brEAk a bOi jUzt bECAUSE shE cAn....dOn't yOU tELL mE tO dEny it i'vE dOnE wrOng and i wAnt tO sUffEr fOr my sinS i'vE cOmE tO yOU 'cAUSE i nEEd gUidanCE tO bE trUE anD i jUzt dOn't knOw whErE i cAn bEgin..whUt i nEEd iS a gOOd dEfEnSE..'cAUSE i'm fEELin' LikE a criminAL anD i nEEd tO bE rEdEEmEd tO thE onE i'vEd sinnEd agAinSt..bECAUSE hE'z aLL i evEr knEw of LOvE..hELL hELp mE fOr thE wAy i am sAvE mE frOm thESe angELz dEEdz bEfOrE i gEt thEm dOnE i knOw tOmOrrOw brinGs thE cOnsEquEnCE at hAnd bUt i kEEp Livin' thiS dAy LikE the nExt wiLL nEvEr cOmE..Oh hELp mE bUt dOn't tELL mE tO dEny it! i've gOt tO cLEAnSE mySELf Of aLL thESE LiES tiLL i'm gOOd enOuGh fOr him i'vE gOt a LOt tO LOsE anD i'm bettin' hiGh sO i'm bEggin' yOU bEfOrE it endZ jUzt tELL mE whErE tO bEgin..whUt i nEEd iS a gOOd dEfEnSE 'cAUSE i'm fEELin' Like a criminAL And i nEEd tO bE rEdEEmEd tO thE OnE i'vE sinnEd agAinzt bEcAUSE hE's aLL i evEr knEw Of LOvE..Let mE knOw thE wAy bEfOrE thErE'z angEL tO pAy givE mE rOOm tO LAy thE LAw anD LEt me gO..i've gOt tO mAkE a pLAy tO mAkE my LOvEr stAy! sO whUt wOUld a dEviL sAy the angEL wAntz tO knOw..whUt i nEEd is a gOOd dEfEnsE 'CAUSE i'm fEELi' LikE a criminAL And i nEEd tO bE rEdEEmEd tO thE onE i'vEd sinnEd agAinSt bECAUSE hE'S aLL i evEr knEw Of LOvE whUt i nEEd is a gOOd dEfEnsE 'CAUSE i'm fEELi' LikE a criminAL And i nEEd tO bE rEdEEmEd tO thE onE i'vEd sinnEd agAinSt bECAUSE hE'S aLL i evEr knEw Of LOvE..='(~** †my nAmE iS mAshiE sOmE friEndz cALL mE mULtO™ i LivE in a Shit hOLE tOwn cALLEd sAmpALOC,mAniLA and evEryOnE hiEr iS LiStEninG tO rAp and aLL thAt Shit thEy arE aLL fUCkin' dirty hOOd rAtS,im 18 yEArz OLd. i hAvE LOnG bLACk hAir and brOwn eyES.i Am whO i Am and nO OnE wiLL EvEr chAngE thAt and i'L nEvEr gOnA chAngE tO fit in, i dOnt rEALLy cArE whAt pEOpLE think 'bOUt mE anymOrE. i drESs hOw i drESs. LOOk hOw i LOOk. and LiStEn tO what i LikE and if anyOnE dOESn't LikE thAt sO bE it *shrUgz* yES i cAn bA a bitCh, bUt thAt iS if ivE onLy gOt gOOd rEASOn tO bE..m shOrt and it sUCkz cAUSE evEryOnE iS tALLEr thAn mE and i cAn nEvEr sEE ovEr thEm. i cAn tELL yOU i'm niCE, a LittLE bit sAdiStiC at timES,vEry shy and vEry quiEt! ALOt Of pEOpLE knOwz mE, yEt hAvE nO cLUE 'bOUt mE. i dOnt hAvE mAny friEndS, bUt thE OnEz i dO hAvE arE sOmE Of thE grEAtESt! thErE'z nO exCUSE fOr animAL abUSE! i Am OnE yOU'LL LOvE tO hAtE..LitErALLy..i am ovErLy sArCAstiC..i hAtE drAmA..it wOnt dO yOU any gOOd..^_^ im tOO mUtE & sOmEtimEz sO LOud..i am guiLty Of excESSivE bLAbbing..hAhA bUt i LOvE tO tALk..a sEnsibLE cOnvErsAtiOn, thAt iS..i hAvE nO shAmE in exprESsinG mysELf..my mOUth iS cOmpArEd tO a gAping hOLE Of a trASh bin..=P cUrSing iS embEddEd intO my tOngUE..LOUSy rEmArkS..i hAvE thE wOrzt sEnsE Of hUmOUr..hAhA i chAin smOkE, LikE thAt Of a chimnEy..wEhEkz!? i LOvE aLCOhOL..tzk! tzk! brAndy iS my fAvOritE rEfrEShmEnt..i Am nOCtUrnAL..wAkOkOkOk i sLEEp at 5 am tiLL 2am thE nExt dAy..i writE a LOt..thUS, i'm a LOnEr..unLESs im OUt with my sELECtEd friEndS drinkin' Our LivErz OUt! i LOvE hAngin' OUt At fAstfOOd chAin smOkin' arEA whErE yOU mAy rEAd thE whOLE dAy with a cigArEttE on OnE hAnd and a cUp Of appLE jUiCE On thE OthEr..i'm a pUnk/gOthiC and i cOULdn't cArE LEsS..i Am a dELUdEd girL..aLwAyz dAzEd and cOnfUSEd..sEdAtEd..sObEr.. sOmEbOdy cALLEd mE An inArtiCULAtE dOLt..thE epitOmE Of thE wOrd sUi gEnEriS..mOSt pEOpLE dO nOt undErStAnd mE..yES, i am stUpid..im a dOrk..and yOu mAy nOt LikE it... i hAtE pEOpLE whO stAb mE in thE bACk! i alSO hAtE pEOpLE whO LiE tO mE, pEOpLe whO chEAt, anD pEOpLE whO trEat mE LikE Shit tO mAkE thEm fEEL bEttEr abOut thEmsELvEz and i hAtE pEOpLE whO ArE bAStArd,pEOpLE whO wAntz tO chAngE mE fOr whAt i am,pEOpLE whO tELL mE whUt tO dO,pEOpLE whO dOnt undErStAnd mE,pEOpLE whO think thAt thEy knOw evErythinG! sOciAL cLimbErs! sOmEtimEz my pArEntz anD rELAtivEz frOm othEr cOuntriEz.mOzt pEOpLE arOund mE,pEOpLE whO sitz bESidE me right nOw,fOrCin' mE tO gO tO chUrCh,hypOcrytEz,tOO mUCh hEAt Of thE sUn(nO im nOt a vAmpirE pOSEr),tO mUCh LiGhtz..i hAtE ARROYO-BUSH,gOvErnmEnt,cOrrUptiOnz,cLOsE mindEd idiOt(Like my cOuzin),sChOOL,whOrEz(nOt a bitCh),dEprESsiOn,chiLd abUSE,shrinkS! i hAtE hiphOp,rAp sOnG(cOmpLEtELy annOyz mE),rnbS,nOvELty sOngZ,vEry LOsE shirtz,rUdE,aSShOLEz,my hiGhsChOOL dAyz!!! i hAtE my mAth sUbjECtz,drUg abUSErz,chEErLEAdErz,prEpz/chAvZ,pOSErz,cOniOtiC,annOyinG chiLdrEn,stUpid OnLinE gAmEz LikE ragnArOk and DOTA..^_^ i hAtE pEOpLE thAt think LifE iS A big pArty. LifE iS nOt a gift; it iS a pUniShmEnt.wE arE hErE tO fEEL thE fULL effECtS Of pUrEzt sUff'rinG, nOt tO dULL thE pAin and chEAt OUrsELvEz Of OUr trUE pUrpOSE..tO trULy find pEACE iS tO trULy diE. †**~
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My Blog

.+.alone is best for me.+.

Have you wanted to be, Alone like me, alone like me alone.Wake up one day and decide that, You want to touch the sky, But you want to touch it alone.Alone I need to be.Alone, some body take me home.Be...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:50:00 GMT

.+.my Loves tyranny.+.

The sun's eye now closes,Everything becoming dim,Yet crystal clearA prick of terrorA numbing embraceA sense of urgent calmMy liver melting into a jaundiced milkMy heart staining the insane whitenessOf...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:47:00 GMT

.+. i was abandoned&and Left aLone.+.

In the black-eyed feverOf the jagged nightSpurned by the moonStabbed by the light,Too twisted to thinkToo ragged to sleepToo far goneTo mend myself;In the dead vacuum,So cleverly betrayedI make vain e...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:45:00 GMT

.+.chaLoehbs prince.+.

Too dead, too aliveTo get up, or sleepOr retrieve my pen,I lie half-consciousOn my narrow bed;A snippet of Swift,A pinch of Pope,A bit of BaudelaireTease my senses,Distort my view;The day-old scentOf ...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:43:00 GMT

.+.dreamwOrLd.+.

From deep within the inky ooze it now begins to squirm and rise,Its deadly, pin black eyes firmly locked onto its bit of fleshy prize;The swallowed sun, like a useless stone, lies cold inside its gut,...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:40:00 GMT

.+.fUckin point of view.+.

life isa worthless bag of shitthe disconsolate dreamerprivately mutteredto the cockroachtraipsing across the filthy floor,then loudly cursedfor all the world to hearwhen an accidental wobbleof the mu...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:37:00 GMT

.+.My hope.+.

When gravityFinally splits and crumblesAnd the earthFalls back into the stars,When all our desperate dreamsHave sunk back downInto the muck,And our laughter and painFossilizedIn ice cold rock,The mom...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 21:32:00 GMT

.+.dEstiny.+.

---------------------------------->>>>DESTINYas the sun's awakens the emptiness in my heart is not mistaken as i prepare myself in another day i wonder what is to come my way...will my life would fina...
Posted by on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 06:32:00 GMT